my mama bullying me... force me finish her burger...
hey xy!! when u're chewing on life's bristles.. don grumble. giv a whistle... n things will alwaez turn out for de bez... n..... alwaez look on de brightside of life!! no matter wat.. u can count on me!! i cant promise to be a gd advicer.. but i can be a gd listener.... take care n don tink so much k!!

hmmm..... jc life sux... srjc sux... de ct n de dm sux...

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forgot to sae!!! got one er xin da bian approach mi after maths lecture n sae wanna noe mi... den ask mi go lunch wif him n toktok... exchange number!!! i sae not fre... den he like gonna suggest something else.. n i quickly sae i attached!! n tat pn ar... donno wat kinda son he is!! luffing away!! neva even help mi!!!!! bLeAh!!

damn.... fcuking hell... my hair has neva been as black as it is now!!!

damn... sr sux la.. kaox.. freaking bitch catch my hair... den she against mi!! everything also zeng dui mi!! bleah... i noe u jealous i cuter den u also noneed liddat ma... stupid kuku... haix... mow dying back my hair again... cos yesterdae tat one no effect... hehe...
hey!! for de gd news!! i came home early todae!!! woohoo!!! heheh... ya.. went out wif my og juz now.. hehehe... 4 babes n 3 hunks!! actuallt... 7 crazzee ppl la.. but it was fun... go take pix!!! muah-haha-haha!!! lalala.....
there is such a thing known as woman's liberty... y cant there be youth's liberty?? or betta still.. teenagers' freedom of expression???

haiz... shuo hao not going tat end of sg liao.. but still went todae.. howeva.. i reach home before 9 wor!! de earliest since last wk!! hehe... go ken's hse donno for wat.. tot got mahjong but we were duped.. hehe... ya.. den went home bout 7.. reach home bout 8.30... 156 alot faster den 74 la.. hehehe... hmmm... tat sheryl n xinyu ar.. wan ji xiao mi.. bLeAh!! too bad.. hehe... din succeed... lalala... hmmm... hehehe... some thingies.. too private to sae here.. hehe.. next time i free den go write in my diary.. heheh... btw.. i dyed back my hair.. hehe

hehe.. todae after sch go home bathe.. den i inside bathing tat time donno wat de 2 ppl doing outside la.. forgot to put video cam.... hehe.. ya.. todae his bdae.. hehe... go heritage tour.. visited de esplanade.. de lim bo seng monument.. de merlion.. a donno wat thingie.. n a bird.. walk down to boat quay tat time saw 2 cats f***ing... hehehe.. den we stop n look.. lolx.. hmmm.... got a ge tai somemore!! hehe.. den after tat juz walkie here.. walkie there lor.. heheh... sianx.. de bus all veri crowded sia.. bth!! at least i was not alone... hee... anywae...
happy sensational 17 to zhixiong!!

haix.. damn sian.. todae start ;lessons.. lecture damn boring sia... den after sch go mac wif my og fren.. suaysuay left my hp in de toilet n some bitch took it!! huR~ yalor.. lost my hp liao lor... sobx... den me n amanda irritate kinsin till bout 4.40.. den took bus go tp wait for my sis.. tat stupid sed.. ask us go IMM there... so far..... bleah... but he also quite kelian la.. got lotsa bruises.. heheh.. serve u rite!! sae mi somemore la.. hehe... oOoOoo.. kena "played" by de turkey ice cream guy... stupid kuku n their stupid idea... bLeAh.... ya.. den bot his prezzie.. a la pi xiao xing toy n put a pink g-string on it... their idea la.. haha... tat sed ar.. so suay.. kana flirted by de mini toons ger ar!!! so er xin one!!! heheh... too bad.. in a way.. i feel kinda bad injuring sed la.. haiz.. nvm.. next time apologize.. if i feel like it.. those 3 baddies keep on suaning me n him la.. bleah.... tok so much cok.. wait mouth all rot... hehe... ya.. den veri tired after tat so take cabbie home.. n de driver.. so kpo ar!! hehe.. aniwae.. tats all for todae folks!!

hehehe... went out wif xinyu juz now... miss her so much!!! den we eating at breeks ma.. saw sheryl n her family!! hehe... den after tat me n xy go walk walk.. den go bugis.. saw sulyn, yeehui n sylvia... den we bot bag!!! yeh!!! hehe.. so nice.. n so fun.. we walk into bugis village.. within 5 min already bot a bag!! haha... shiok sia!!

haiyo... got nite mare this morning... den i woke up crying!!! bleah.. going out wif xinyu soon... welcome home sheryl's real da jie!!!

sobx.. still cant tok to him.....

he still not home yet.. tat thingie ended late...

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bang bang chuchu train.. lemme c u do tat ting.........
haiz.. 2 daex neva c my sisters liao... missing dem..... his orientation juz finish.. i tink... waiting for him to reach home... missing him too.... hmmm... ac realli veri far... but its still my dream school... lolx..

aiyo... todae 2nd dae of orientation... veri fun wor!!! at first we got ball games...den actually we lose 2 games.. but tat mi mi yan.. hehe.. so jiao hua!! den make till we draw de game.. heheh.. clever wor!! den i was forced to play soccer!!! mi n yanjun were de onli 2 gers n onli gers can score!! hee~ but our whole team also donno soccer la.. heh.. still.. we did quite well.. we draw!! haha.. n we were more active den de gers on de other team!! after tat got de station games lor.. den tat shao bao!! bring us go water parade!! huR~ bLeAh.. aiyo.. but overall we got 2nd for de games section wor!! cos ur cheers all saatsaat one ar!! heheh... especially when mi, yan jun n amanda together!! scream de place down!! all de hosing down we got made us all wet.. den dkny all wetwet.. after tat when we change back to skirt.. got a wet butt print on it!! heng de orientation tee long enuff to cover our ass!! hehehe... de camp fire was de bestest!! we keep standing up to anihow dance!! haha.. crazzee ppl sia!! den when our hse performing.. we run to de front n dance wor!! haha!!! so shiok!! mi, yanjun, amanda, bengbeng n pk.. hehe.. damn funni.. all laming together... fun!! n veri enjoyable n memorable!! den later de 5 of us go eat wif de ogl.. got one guy from a diff grp join us.. name ish darryl.. after tat.. bout 11.. all of us went home... heheh... its hard to describe la.. but its realli a wonderful dae!!!

this blog is supposed to be dated 3 jan 11.45pm

hEhE... todae de first dae of jc... er... abit weird.. long time no wear de uniform liao... heheh... suprisingly.. it still fits!!! went to srjc.. de vp so sucky.. worse den square head!! quite boring.. i used to aircon hall.. den now no more aircon.. bLeAh~ so hoT!! haha...aiyo.. starting veri sian.. talk here talk there... de mass dance sux.. freaking dance steps wif a too-stiff guy n a diao-chu-lai-mai ger.. haha.... aiyo.. den after tat do cheers n some games lor.. got 3 not bad guys in my grp.. hehe.. but my grp onli got me from xm.. so sian.. haha... after tat go cailing hse wif peirong n LiuEy to borrow de shirt.. den jam called.. so me go meet dem all.. got mi, jam, xy, sher, sed,zhi,ken.. haha.. go clementi eat dinner den go home.. aiyo... den i niao ji on de bus!! hahaha... heng can ren till i get home.. i'm so lihai!! heh~ yeh!! todae got tok wor!! haha.. n tok alot of cok ... hehe.. sweet dreamx n slp tite.. gotta get up earli tml...

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oKie... first things first... HapPi nEw yEaR!!!!! i juz got home..... was at sheryl's again last nite.. as usual... hehe... haix... i made it thru de nite wor!! neva slp wor!! so saat hor!! haha.... we met bout total of 93 new ppl last nite.. as in we tok to dem.. dey reply tat kind.. hahaha... so fun.. quite alot of yandao wor!! weee-wuu-weeeet!! haha.. we met at tiong bahru.. den go sentosa.. not to de foam party la.. too young.. (nvm.. 2 yr lata.. i will go there n havoC!!) we sit one round of de monorail first.. den after tat we go siloso beach walkwalk.. so black.. everyone look like hei ma yi!! haha.. den.. go take monorail again.. go to palawan beach n de southern most island of de asia continent!! haha.. muz cross beach one wor!! there were 2 pagoda thingie.. we went to de third floor... den got some cute guys there!! haha.. we sit there n play dai dee.. till we saw fireworks.. den we realised it was midnite.. haha.. lame.. but nvm.. we took a pix of some cute guys.. den lata got their no.... hee~ haiz.. den got a guy wanna noe jam wor!! hehe.. we squeezed onto de last monorail n walk outta sentosa.. kaoz.. de san ba behind us damn kB!! hmmm...on de way out met de 2 malay guys who was in de same monorail cabin as us.. den we all toktok lor.. dey damn funni sia.. haiz... wait for de freaking cab damn long!! heng de driver decided to stop for us!! tHaNkieX uNcLe!!!
went back to sher's hse.. meet sed, andy,ken,zhi, n de rgs ger.. she not bad la.. small n black.. remind mi of xuelin.. but she seems fluffy to mi.. HuRhUr~ haix.. played daidee.. mahjong.. monopoly.. we din tok at all.. bLeAh* hee~ this morning go esplanade there.. sit by de water.. so nice.. life is like de waves.. eva-changing.... u neva noe wat de next wave is gonna be like...
next we take bus go yck mrt.. den take bus back home.. lata gonna meet dem again... hee.. sian ar.. tml go sch liao... sigh....... no more sista wif mi!!! sobx!!

haix... juz cut off all my nails... no more nails left.. fingers look so weird.. but alotta ppl will be happi.. cos i cant scratch dem animore...... haix... sobx..

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eeeerrrr... heE

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OMG!! hahaha

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hand holding - you like to be in constant physical contact with your special someone but you don't want to take things too quickly.

tRuE... veRi veRi tRue..... hEe... *bLuSh*

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this iSh sO mUcH tRuEr dEn dE pReviOus oNE.. hEh..

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dE first part is true tho..... de back part is crap..... eeeerrrr... heheh.. i need psycho help.. hehe.... bLeAh...

haiz.. i losing my screws again... i juz bot a pouch juz now.. den i walking ard de hse wearing my duckie jammies n my pouch... hehee... juz now go orchard.. xy go find tat egg head.. den go bugis.. all 3 of us bot puochie!! yeh!! tomolo go chiong again!! haha

er... hehe... nth much.. wait for jeanne veri long todae.. till i bth.. almoz fall aslp.. den go paopao... long time no go liao wor!! haha.. xinyu!! sheryl!! i luv u!!!

there are some things i need to tell u... somethings i wanna ask u... but not now.. its not possible now... maybe next yr.. or afew yrs later.. juz not now aniwae.. afew yrs later when we'll both look back at the past n luff at wat we did.. drop our jaws in shock as we realised things we neva knew.. i was not de onli huachi one hu kept all ur msges.. i juz realised tonite tat u kept mine too... onli diff is tat i've deleted dem.. u have not.. but i can still rmb moz of de content.. de impt parts aniwae... haiz... tings change after de korea trip didn't it.. i tink u're betta of wif her.. u 2 are veri compatible.. believe mi.. there is juz a question tat i wanna ask u.. but tat will have to wait...
donno if i shld luff or cry now.. haha.. sobx....

it was hard to forget.. she once tot de world of him.. he was her everything.. she woke in de morning juz to hear his voice.. actually looked forward to going to sch juz so tat she cld c him.. n even in her dreams... he was alwaez there... she even named her favourite pillow after him.. so tat she cld hug him to slp... she luved him tat much.. den a small mistake occured.. one tat enraged him..... he neva wanted to c her again... he did all he cld to hurt her.. to pay her back for tat tiny mistake she did... tat feeling was like being left to die in de wilderness.. in de desert.. crawling ard, starved n thirsty... fainting from hunger in de middle of nowhere without a soul nearby.. she kept crying his name out loud.. yet all she heard were evil laughters surrounding her... engulfing her... mocking at her... it was altogether too painful... it was like being torn to pieces by scavenging vultures before u were dead.. feeling dem tear ur flesh.. hearing de sickening crunch as their beaks crushed ur bones.....
she cld not bring herself to believe tat he was de one hu wanted to leave her.. she alwaez tried to find excuses for him.. for de things he did to hurt her... cos luv is blind.. she truly luved him.. n she cld not believe tat he was hurting her deliberately....
after him... she neva had de courage to truly let go n luv someone again... she would find herself falling in luv... but restraining herself at a certain stage.. unable to go on.... the trauma of having her heart broken to pieces had neva left her.. n probably neva will...

damn!! forgot to watch ti!! er... juz now go out wif my mama... sorri. i told a white lie.. hehe... ate ponderosa.. veri full.. but veri yum!!

it ain't onli u.. i'm de same too...
we' ve come to a stage where we onli got questions.. but no answers..
these questions are intriguing.. mind-boggling.. seemingly impossible to answer..
but there will come a time when this stage passes..
this awkward stage known to ppl as puberty...

lalala.... now everione noes y i was nervous.. but i'm not nervous animore!! hehe... haiz... juz now go ps watch lord of de ring.. den anihow walk.. so boliao.. but he veri cute!!! hehe... hey sher!! he tried but he failed!!! haha... thanx to wat i learn from xy lor.. my jacket came in handy!! heheh.. but.... haiz.. de feeling is undescribable.. but nth much to tok bout leh.. hehe... so paisei!!

hehe.. juz now go tp wif xinyu n sher.. den after tat we go orchard kia... hehe.. den go meet zhi n ken at ps.. wanted to watch movie but onli front row left so we go bishan watch.. hehee... he veri cute sia!! hehe.... den ken, xy n sher all run away till de movie start.. left de 2 of us.. but also neva tok much leh.. heheh... erm..... den after movie went home.. dey tried to do some spastic thingies... bleAh...... but dey din succeed... hehe.. i feeling nervous now.. but noone noes y n i not gonna tell anyone!!! hahaha... till tml nite... hehehe... lalala

haha.. juz come back from sheryls'... ton there last nite.. den yesterdae go countdown.... haha.. first go meet elson n frenx.. so bengalistic!! hehe... but he n soohui together realli sweet sia.. hehe... ya.. den me, soo,sher,xy,jeanne, jam.wy n chair.. all there together.. after tat we seperate wif soo n chair.. den mi, wy n jam playing wif de spray can thingie.. hehehee.. got a bunch of malay guys gave us a long balloon to play wif.. haha.. after tat met up wif sher n xy den go find pn, sx, ben n zx at lido.. den met soo n el again.. bLeAh.. haha.. weiloon 2time huishan kana paotoh.. world war 3 ar... stupid concave!! huR~ aniwae.. after countdown went to sher hse to play mahjong.. got mi, xy, jeanne n sher's 2 frenz.. kenneth n zhi xiong.. haha.. dey damn funni sia!! spastic... aniwae.. i got wat i wanted.. to noe him.. mUah-haha-haha.....

heheh.... todae so fun!! g4 together again!!! hehe.. den de 4 of us so sexy n hot todae!!! 3 expose midriff... 1 expose back... so saat leh!!! hehe.. den go take some veri chio pix!! i luv u all!!! g4 foreva!!!
::: g4 +0g3+HeR aGa|n :::

hmmm... yesterdae go meet kim.. pass all my books to him.. den later help him go find xmas prezzie... got for kc n robin.. hehe... miss him!! den after tat go weiying hse..wait for xy dey all at de busstop veri long.. den saaw a puppy running in de middle of de road.. wanted to catch it but it kept runing away from me.. den i keep following it n got all drenched cos it was raining heavily... bleah.. n tat stupid blackie sae i stupid!! bLeAh~ i was being kind k!!
hee~ later go to pri sch gathering!! woohoo!! haha... last ntie.. a miracle happened!!! WILSON CALLED MI!!! haha... tat crazzee guy...

hEY PpL... hEhEh!! dA biTcH iS bAcK!!!!! heh... hols quite fun la... but walk alot sia!!! tired!! hehe...went to wonderland!!! wOoOOOooOoot!!!!! sHiok!!! heheh... den receive lotsa msg from ppl... but so suay... cannot reply!! bLeaH... hehe... 23 got pri sch gathering sia!! can go see how everyone change!! hehe.. la-la-la... oOooOoooo!!! i bot lotsa clothes!!!! hehe... finally got my "lu bei zhuang"!! n its onli $12!! heheh... oh ya!! met my cousies!! james a.k.a. mit > 3 yr... alexandra> 1 yr.... veri cute!!! its de first time i seeing alexandra.. heh.. n mit realli veri cute!!! haiz... oOoOOoo.. not forgeting paul.. another cousie.. heheh... hu was so kind to help carry de shopping.. haha... haiz.. missing dem liao... but my feelings to the father still neva change.. he still sux.. hee~ OooOOoo..last but not least.. i missing lotsa ppl when i was there!! dey include xinyu, sheryl, justin, kim yuan, wilson, andy n lots more.. sorri if ur name not mentioned.. hee~

oOooOOoo... juz reach home.. veri tired sia.. onli slp for bout max 5 hr in chalet.. hee.. first dae robin n ben go catch crab..caught 7.. 3 died in de end.. de 2 smallest crab still cant pinch.. so i keep playing wif dem.. called dem da li & xiao li!! heh.. den de biggest crab among dem all is chao da li!! later tat nite... de crabbie we caught were sorta lethargic.. i scared dey die so in the end pull kim go n "fang shen" wif me.. den poke ball de whole nite leh!!! damn tired sia!! n gotta walk such a long way back to de chalet.. bLeAh~ second day go swimming...de water so nice n clean!! not like at pasiris... yuckie!! don like pasiris!! this time de bbq not so nice leh.. abit funni tasting.. hmm... as usual.. everyone fighting for de bed but since veri little ppl were left last nite.. got alot of space to slp in.. hehe.. hmmm.... haiyo.. not enuff slp.. brain not functioning.. my turn to go aus tomolo... sucki...

hmm.. hehe.. bot more sweet todae!! tml going chalet liao.. i wan go suntan!!! muah-haha-haha!!! n i wan go swim.. donno y.. but at de beach or in de water.. i get a familiar sense of home... feels peaceful... hey sheryl!! i miss u already!! hehe...

hey ppl!!! todae ish vincent ng's birthdae!!! woo-hoo!!! this macho yandao was born on 6 dec 1975.. tat makes him 27 years old todae!!! hnmmm... 10 years older den ken!! haha... happi bdae vincent!! big huggies n muackies...

u can hide the pain tat u feel & make others believe u can move on.
but u can never deny the truth in urself, tat the person who failed
& hurt u is still the person u'll alwaez love

its amazing how abruptly u entered my life n how u r gone like the wind without a trace... yet embedded in my heart is the presence of u…

heheh... last nite was nicole's bdae.. den go chalet... haiz... miss dem all so much.. den when i saw carol she hug mi till so tight!! hehe... haiz... 1 yr ago i met M... now.. he & her together for bout 10 mth already... unbelievable rite.. coulnt get me den change target... blEah... haha.. wont forget tat time i accidently stepped on his hand.. den i fell on him... de lights were off... almoz pitch black.. i rmb he siad tat he was resisting de urge to kiss mi at tat moment... he didnt ton wif us... when he was leaving, i was carrying joel.. den he kiss joel goodbye... his lips were so damn close to my face... if i didnt turn my head away.. i wonder if he would have kissed mi too...
this year leh... er... i neva contact him liao... i was msging nd all thru de chalet... den i played wif joel n i use him to suan nd.. i told him i was hugging a veri cute guy n i kissed tat guy.... den tat guy also kiss mi.. haha.. tat cute guy is onli 3 yrs old la.... den at nite go see bapok again... haha... so fun... went home to slp early in de morning den noon go for de job interview.. haha... dey take my pix tat time so funni... front view, den left view, den right view... like criminal like tat....
maybe i shld stop being so serious & start playing around... den i can enjoy life more... when i look back... i cant help but c tat i got so mani regrets...... but... alwaez look on de bright side of life... at least tats wat i tell myself...

when u put a knife into a persons heart & draw it out... it dosent matter how mani times u sae "i'm sorri"... de wound is still there...

hehe... todae go for de dance concert... it was absolutely fabuloso!!! especially de intermediate dancers!!! woooooot!!! veri saat sia!! heheh... now i regret quitting ballet.... haiz.... going join de hiphop lessons at de sch... i'll get my chance to perform soon... i hope... hehe....

haiz... finally got wat i wanted but do i still want it??? did i want it in de first place??? but its juz as well.... things are betta this wae i guess..... more "normal".. as other ppl will sae.. no unhealthy relationships... but mi jealous leh... haiz.....

hmmm.... went out wif tat guy juz now... hehe... funni sia.. he & his 2 fren.. mi & xy & sheryl... heheh... actually buying tickets tat time we were toking... den tat stupid ticket aunty interrupt us & cut short our conversation!!! bLeAh... den after movie we went seperate ways... actually wanted to meet him after tat but he suddenly got something on... nvm... still got chance.. haha..

supposed to be slping now... i'll do my bez... haiz... i'm regreting some things... but den again... i cant turn back time... wats done cannot be undone rite... everything is lost now..... i juz threw a veri precious gem into de deep blue sea... where i'll neva find it again..... ReGrEtx...

hehe.... hehehee.... waiting for tml sia... finally can c tat stupid kuku face liao!! hee...
hey!! wtf??? how come everthing he also noe?? MYOB!! toot u..... bIG mOuTh aLl oF u!!!

hee.... bot lotsa thingie!! haha.... got new costume... can swim happily liao!! haha... tml going chay house to discuss de chalet thingie..... den go swim!!! haha

FINALLY!!!!! my tel line repair so i can use internet liao.... thank god!!! heheh... hmmm..... going out wif him on mondae... hee~
i tink i'm sorta succeeding in getting him pissed at mi.... he seems more quiet n more easily dulan now..... but izzit wat i realli wan??? well.... de ans is in my heart..... haiz..... sorri

hmmm..... once again... i'm so extra... ppl got ai ai, i don have... ppl got gd results, i don have... ppl can go gd jc, i get stuck at lao ya one... haiz.... so extra... hmmm... i wan go shopping... i wan spend money.... treat it as all my troubles n throw it all away!! i've had enuff.... this sux!! life sux!! y do i tell him something i don mean??? i'm sorri... i hate it this way but i guess sometimes... to be cruel is to be kind...

haix.. finally can online!! maybe cannot go chalet le... how?? tat asshole betta change de date of de trip else i not gonna speak to him eva again!!!!! i hate him!! hehe... o level over liao!! can go wild liao!! but still muz reach home by 9pm everydae.. y??? to watch shuang tian zhi zhun lor... aiyo.. tat anna... wan kill xiao xing!!! neva die b4 ar!! hehehe...

hmmm.... tadae so guai... stay at home all dae wor!! haha.... first attempt at de hp pouch failed... sianx... neva... muz ganbatte!!!

heheh... watch harry potter liao... den also watch the guru.. haha.... so cheap sia!!! muz do tat more often!!! hehehe....
hApPi b-dAe tO wEi YiNg!!!!! aLL dE bEz & enjoY uR sWeEt 16!!

hehe... tat stupid kuku... bluff mi la... heheh... hehehe...
juz now wanted go watch harry potter.. but onli front row seats left.. den watch double vision... heheh... de eyes scary!! after tat go heeren... take pix!!! wow!!! sso long neva take pix... neva go orchard leh!!! PS change so much!!! haha... de feeling is great sia!!! roaming orchard again... haha... den saw xian liang at heeren... again... keep seeing him todae!! haha... but its fun... his sideburn so long!!! wait i pull it out ar!! heheh... everytime c him he also like veri paisei dowan c mi like tat!!! hur!! so i alwaez purposely shout his name veri loud den he bobian muz turn n sae hi to mi!! hehe... oh!! ya!! juz now bot a top... beli cheap!!! hahaha!!! great buy!! hehe.....
juz now watch shuang tian zhi zhun... got him again... *sigh* so cute... hehe... but I DON LIKE XIAO TONG!!! but still... i don mind being her in de show sia... *pure bliss*!!!!! hehe.. oOpx... eating flower again...

hey you!! stupid kuku!! u do 1st... i do 15 ar!!! don like u anymore!!! n u don even wanna tell mi its over... go & tok to wateva toot it is on de phone la.... hu needs u...
haiz... but was blackie telling de truth?? or joking..... shit all guyX!!!!!

haiz... redo-ing a page on my webbie... hehe... nicenice!!! hahaha... haix... impt paper all over liao... now can go n mai dong xi chi dong xi, mai dong xi, chi dong xi liao!!!!! hahaha!!! waited so long... veri long neva take pix... neva step into orchard leh..... hehehe..... so eager!!

so sian... rain all day... i like rain... suits my mood... haiz... i realli no screw... donno if i'm awake or asleep... realli wasting away....

dRiFtiNg iNtO a wOrLd oF mY oWn..... LivIng iN mY dReAmx... shld face up to reality.... but my dreamx are so much more enjoyable..... results gonna suck.... i'm slacking instead of studying..... watching all de stupid shows on tv instead of studying...... haiz.... bth..... going loony.........

haiz... pathetic... computer cok up again... bleah... like de msn like tat.... sucki.... hehe....
*dEePly iN lUv, LivIng iN bLisS*...... like real like tat... i dreaming again... bleah.......

aiyo... juz woke up 1 hr ago... eating diy pizza.. abit chao ta.. pathetic..

haha.. still watching crossroads... (watch again ma.....) hehe... xinyu did some realli kuku things... tink de exam stress getting to her.... wont tell u wat she did... its unspeakable of!!! hahahahaa..... she swing it in de air!!!!!! hahahaha.... don tink u all will noe wat i toking bout aniwae... hehe... cook maggi mee for her.. nice wor!! traing to be a housewife!!! bLeAh.. like real...

aiyo.. finish physics liao.. can manage la.. hee~ tat xinyu ar... siao pne.. say zhenzhen wan la ji wif her.... suku ar... haha... now watching crossroads.....

aiyo.. finish physics liao.. can manage la.. hee~ tat xinyu ar... siao pne.. say zhenzhen wan la ji wif her.... suku ar... haha... now watching crossroads.....

hmmm... slacking away as usual... tomolo physics... wat am i doing? nothing... sorri mdm Ee..

Never had a dream come true

Everybody's got something
They had to leave behind
One regret from yesterday
That just seems to grow with time

There's no use looking back or wondering
How it could be now or might have been
All this I know but still I can't find ways
To let you go

I never had a dream come true
Till the day that found you
Even though I pretend that I moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter
Where life takes me to
A part of me will always be with you.

Somewhere in my memory
I've lost a sense of time
And tomorrow can never be
Cause yesterday is all that fills my mind
There's no use looking back or wondering
How it could be now or might have been
All this I know but still I can't find ways
To let you go

You'll always be the dream
That fills my head
You'll always be the one I know
I'll never forget
It's no use looking back or wondering
Because love is a strange and funny thing
No matter how I try and try
I just can't say goodbye

haiz... adults.... fickleminded!! first sae tat i don tok to her... at home or not at home also no diff... den later i wan tok she dowan listen... bLeAh.....

aiyo... juz now veri funni sia!! hee~ sheryl n xinyu come visit mi ar!! den bring dragon eye somemore ar!! so sweet hor!! hahaha... den ayu mama make lontong n she tabao for mi!!! yum-yum!!! veriveri nice dinner sia!! hehehe... thankies so muchie to all of u!!! *mUacKiEx* take care n study hard woR!!

aiyo... tat miss koh ar.. heng i not yet go out ar... kaoz... veri de wat leh... pang sei us 2 daex liao ar!!! kaoz... haiz.. now rotting at home as usual....

dammit.... wat de hell... recently keep falling down... todae is de most jia lat!! for de first time in my life i sprain my ankle!! fell down at de road there... den look up n saw a car coming... scary sia!! den i faster wan stand.. cannot stand... den i hop across de road...bleah... den veri pain den i keep on crying when i reach home.. kaoz... tat winnie koh... tell us meet her after lit paper.. she keep on do this n do tat.. 2 hr later also not yet c her ar!! wtf... den liu yin go wait for cabbie wif mi...
hehe.. heng got sheryl n xinyu... at first meet dem at de busstop one.. den dey so good.. come all de way to my blk here to meet me!! go de china doctor wif mi.. de stupid boss... press on de swollen part veri hard leh!!! PAIN!!!!!!!! stupid kuku.. den after tat put some shit-like substance on my leg n wrap it up... veri pain tat time hor.. at first i bite my hand... den my hand pain.. i bite my ff bear butt!! hehe!! haiz... heng got dey 2 ar... if not i will cry all de way there n back!!

hmmm... tomolo lit paper... other ppl studying.. wat am i doing?? nothing... juz rotting at home... i cant study at home ma.. wat u wan mi to do...listening to xi shui chang liu now... veri sad n touching.. go find lyrics...

haiz... byebye to social studies... bleah... den de english compo title all so kuku one!! haiz... maybe can onli get a2 for eng... i scared get less den a2...... damn... de compre still ok la... but de ques all veri tricky sia.. wed take lit exam liao...

juz now go sharma house.. den actually quite ok one..... haiz.. after tat everyone got other plan.. den i nowhere to go.. so lonely!! heng got sheryl pei mi!! see!! my sis so good!! we go long john study.. den got ppl treat mi eat chocolate pie leh!! haha.. aiyo.. noneed sae hu la.. since noone will believe it aniwae.. noone eva listens to wat i sae n noone eva believes wat i sae.. bleah... haha.. now irritating my son.. cant seem to make him pissed off leh.. nvm.. i will try till i succeed!!! hahaha!!

hee~ juz reach home.. juz now go celebrate CI Koh bdae.. den tat choo yong guan anihow kaobe us... in the end gotta celebrate outside sch... toot him sia!! make too much noise!!!!! haha... den got mi, priscillia, peirong, joseph, fei fei, eric, jin long, yew wei, chin hui, wee kiang, ming shen n clarence... at de senior corner there... comic sia!! haha.. tat fei fei veri de tok cok ar!! haiz... happi 20th swee lin!! all de best!! n fei fei ar... aiyo... go gym k!! eat too much cream liao!! =X
NPCC sec4 2001 rox foreva!!! woo-hoo!!!

i fell down n de onli thing u shouted was why i was so late... sae i neva call u, neva inform u... like u ever call n tell mi where u going like tat... u think u tat gret izzit??? at nite go pub go ppl company u can don giv a damn bout wat appening to me...when u neva go out leh?? keep on calling to kao be me.. keep complaining tat i neva tok to u... when i wan tell u bout wat appening in my life, wat u do??? u don listen... u find de ambience of de restaurant n de patrons so interesting... FUCK OFF!!! i'm human!! not a toy!!! u cant use mi onli when u need company!!!i fell down..wat u sae?? NOTHING!!! nothing at all... juz fucking bout y i so late n all tat fuck... do u c mi calling u n asking bout ur fucking whereabouts?? I DONT!!! i noe u need ur freedom... when i reach home.. wat do u do?? start screaming bout how irresponsible i am... u don even ask wat i got at de ceremony or if i'm alright... LET MI TELL U!!! theres a deep hole in my leg tat cant stop bleeding... de white antiseptic turned orange seconds after i apply it!!! ENOUGH?? serious enuff?? guess not... guess having company is more impt... FINE!! have it ur way!! den scream somemore... u fall down is my fault izzit??? y show mi black face??? dey sae tat ur family is de most caring ppl hu will alwaez be wif u... I DISAGREE!! de onli ppl hu showed concern were my frenz!!! u?? try to do some good to make up?? no use... did u know??when u stick a knife into a persons heart n pull it out again, it dosen't matter how many times u sae sorry... no matter wat u do, de wound is still there!!! den u show tat hurt expression.. like i did u wrong... FUCK OFF!!!

bTw.. thanx xy n ben.... xiexie.... nice n caring ppl!! my frenx!!! n thanx ben for de cabbie ride... (de plaster was soaked wif blood by the time i reach home... ) my leg gonna have a big protruding scar liao... an indelible wound tat i would uncover n morbidly inspect for years to come....

hee~ hApPi hEll 'o' wEeN!!! my mama birthdae todae... haha.. juz now go meEt her eat... den take home a beEg bEeG bOuquet of sunflowers!! veri nice wor.. but veri heavy also.. hehe.. haiz.. i realised tat i can study on de bus.. i actually realli studied juz now!! i gonna anihow take bus n study liao!!! 5 more daez to eXaMx.....

she sat by de window, waiting anxiously...
glancing out every few minutes or so...
hoping to catch a glimpse of him...
hoping against hope tat he would turn up,
tho deep in her heart she knew he wouldn't...
he never turned up before,
y would he do so now...
yet she sat there,
holding on to de tiny shred of hope,
de tiny shred of hope tat was torn to pieces in the end...
as she knew it would be.....

hmmm... nAn sHuN veRi veRi cUtE!!! hehe.. juz now ask him smile... den he giv a damn cute grin!!! hehehe... haiz... now u noe y i luv my didi so much..... long day todae... hee~ juz now xinyu n me make dinner!! got mushroom & sweetcorn soup, black pepper chicken steak n shepard's pie!! haha.. de shepard pie too bland.. but still edible la... haha... when we pour de potato outta de pot.. got lotsa steam.. den we steam our face n go sqeeze black head!!! hahaha... crazzee sia!! after tat tabao de shepard pie for pn, robin n liuey...
since it was too bland.. den i anihow add salt lor... dey pn n robin damn suay!! bite onto de pie tat got lotsa salt!!! hahahahaha!!! realli funni their faces!! hehe.. den donno y.. i keep luffing... i abit kuku tonite sia!! haha... aftertat... saw yili walk in.. den i rmb tat time 4e5 put a notice on their door specially for her "yili yili de dong xi mian jing".... i luff even more!!!!!!! haha.. den tat pn... aiyo... go pick out all de green beans n eat!! den robin worse!! go place de beans all de way up de handle of de spoon!!! den pn eat till veri jia lat!! bTh!!! tat stupid boi... pinch my cheek somemore i bite u ar!! hehe.. u pinch my cheeks.. i pinch ur fats!!! hahahahaha!!!!!!!*--la-la-la--* bLeAh!! hehehe... but den... all throughout... keep feelin an emptiness in me.....

haiz... gastric pain shld eat... but eat too much... even more pain ar!!!! i'm in agony now... ("_ )

hehe!!! i did it!! its edible!! yum-yum!! go make another one!!!! hehehe...

damn.. bread so hot.. burn my finger!!! *ouch* hopefully its edible... donno how long its been in de fridge...

haiz... haven't been eating properly for de past 3 daex... skip alot of meals... n when i eat... its onli junk food.. donno leh... no mood to eat i guess... juz ate a rasberrt tart... look so soggy.. donno if spoilt not... got a slight tummyache noe... sian... do make hot de bread n eat.....

haiz..... 1 more week to o level... i'm not studying... juz rotting at home... volleyball B div. left for shanghai todae... *scared* hope no more terrorists attacks... going back to sch to study later... hope i actually study... i got no mood at all... damn... gotta have more self-discipline... *bLeAh*

u + mi = history
juz like tat?
all gone?

hey ppl!! aiyo.. veri tired.. dowan to online one... but i got to clear some misunderstanding... de thing posted yesterday was kapok from some website one... don refer to anione in particular... pla don anihow tink n get de wrong idea.. furthermore.. recently.. cos of exam, ppl have loose screw in their head... but mine not loose.. mine allady drop out.. n is all drop out.. so i tok is all crap.. it is unwise to trust wat i saying at this time.. ok!! so.. for de last time.. de thingie don refer to anione in particular... de thingie don refer to anione in particular...de thingie don refer to anione in particular...de thingie don refer to anione in particular...de thingie........................

i don wanna face de sun... y izzit so sunny outside??? i wan rain... i wanna play in de rain!!! i wanna scream... i wanna cry... i donno wats happening... i'm going crazzeeee........... damn... did i go overboard by posting tat yesterday??

Wat is she?
She’s funni, she’s fun, she never shows her moods
She dosen’t flare up, she dosen’t control u…
Her main objective is for u to be happi,
she dosen’t care wat scraps u get into…

wat am i??
a dictator, a tyrant, I want to control u…
I don’t care if u’re upset, as long as things go well for u…
I’m critical, I’m sarcastic, I scold n I nag…
I giv disapproving looks most of de time…

Its no wonder u choose to follow her,
rather den coming wif me…
if I were u,
I’d choose her too…

I don hate her for it,
neither do I hate u…
I juz hate myself ,
for causing all this grief…..

Who am I to control u?
De way u think n de things u do??
I’m juz a nobody afterall,
Juz a passerby in ur life…..

haiz... i finally found my dream jc> ACJC..... its got great facilities, de arts programme is great, wide variety of cca tat i'm interested in..... too bad its a rich ppl sch..... n its too far.... sadx sia!! haiz... its a dream tat wont come true..... hmmm... juz now go wif xy to get de photos we took on de laz dae of sch... VERIVERI NICE!!!! especially got 1> mi, xy, keith n pn one... realli chio sia!! next time post on my webbie den everione can c!!! hehehe!!! haiz... i luv my class so much... but everythings gone now..... we have graduated.... but no matter wat... 4e3' 2oo2 is still de bez class foreva!!! de memories i'll neva forget... de ppl i'll alwaez rmb... I LUV U ALL!!!

hey pEeps... this is de last week of sch... mi feeling melancholic... den juz now was de last PE lesson of de entire sec. sch daez... haiz... tok till like gonna die like tat... but its de truth... imagine... no more playing games wif ur class... we played street bandy juz now... all of us realli put our heart n soul into de game... everytime we score... we juz scream so loudly (especially keith)... u could realli feel de enthusiasiam!!!!!!! it was like The Last Game.... in a way... it is..... haiz.... after todae... everything gonna be study, study n more study... seeing de wae we played juz now actually brought tears to my eyes... i'm an emotional person... n this is de kid of scene tat i find memorable... it was not filmed on tape... but it was recorded in my mind... it was de most invigorating game tat i eva played... one tat i would neva forget... its true... sec4 is de bez yr of ur life... i rmb how much we used to hate mr ang... but now... we noe tat all he did was for our own gd..... he taught us games n he taught us dance... bye mr ang... thanx for de memories... thanx so much...

BOO!! hahahha... haiz... so much thingies happen recently... sick sia!! bth!! but i got a new-found confidant!! hee~ he's such a nice guy!! haha.. but he also veri kelian... my next pestering target... muah-haha-haha!!! bleah~ i hate her!!

haiz.. long time neva online sia!! hehe... last sat go bbq... hmmm... got lotsa scratched on my legs n plaenty of mosquito bites... itchy sia!! but 1 gd thingie... i became closer to my son ( tats wat i feel... donno bout him..) hee~

heheh.. now go hydroponics farm... hee~ den dey giv us free vegetable!! haha... got my favourite kangkong!! ask my mama to cook tomolo!! hee~ haiz... this sat sch organize BBQ for us... my n xinyu, wei ying n chay all going sun tan!! woo-hoo!!! haiz... onli one thingie tat making me sad... his ans was "maybe"... NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm not gonna let dem be together!!! don ask mi why... i juz don like de tot of it!!!