*screams* PM Goh is sooooooo suave!!! He's tall and seems to emit a certain aura.. haha.. went to the parliament house for learning journey yesterday.. was sitting in the gallary when PM Goh walked in.. somehow, that seemed to be the highlight of the day for me.. heh. the entire process was rather interesting.. i wanna be the speaker!!!! lolx.. n ain wants to be the guard of arms.. haha... or was it weiying? hmmm..... =op anyway, went back to the room for something like a debrief, where me n weiying sat at the long table.. MPs for a short lil' moment! heh.. we shld have learning journeys more often!!

then something that others would deem minor or ordinary happened. but the lil' thing made me sooooooo happy i jumped around, begged manda to let me hug her, hugged weiying so tight she turned red, and told miss chew all about it.. hehe.. -grin- Miss chew was happy was me too!! lalalalaaaaaaaaa

see? it takes so little to make me so happy! -jumps ard the room-

went to chompchomp after maths test today.. ate.. quite alot la... been binging recently.. heh.. then we got a super huge cuppa sugarcane at small cup price.. *winks at xinyu*.. lolx.. then went to ying's house to see her cute lil' doggie... MILLLYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!! i want a dog too. -pout- but mom will end up looking after it.. as usual.. =x walked down to coffee bean after that.. got free drinks there too.. hahaha.... feel so spoilt..

it's good to know the right people in the right places! -grin-

teasing rachel is so fun!! hahahaa.. poor girl got vice-captain.. something bout politics.. sigh.. nvm.. u still rock!!! lolx... n being the water girl is an impt job k!! don look down on it.. i mean.. where wld the team be without u?? they'd die of thirst!! hahaha... okok.. no more teasing.. all the best with ur new post!! n all the best in ur studies too! =>

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i'm feeling productive. numerical methods is manageable.. a little more than manageable actually.. except for the graphs.. i cant stand graphs.. but well.. that's one tutorial down. will do drv tmr. i hope.. wanna swim too.. sigh.. i needa get a life.

hmm... at least more went in n less came out today.. it's an improvement. n i just realised.. it all started when u told me...... fuck.

wouldnt it be nice by the beach boys

Wouldn't it be nice if we were older
Then we wouldn't have to wait so long
And wouldn't it be nice to live together
In the kind of world where we belong

You know its gonna make it that much better
When we can say goodnight and stay together

Wouldn't it be nice if we could wake up
In the morning when the day is new
And after having spent the day together
Hold each other close the whole night through

Happy times together we've been spending
I wish that every kiss was neverending
Wouldn't it be nice

Maybe if we think and wish and hope and pray it might come true
Baby then there wouldn't be a single thing we couldn't do
We could be married
And then we'd be happy

Wouldn't it be nice

You know it seems the more we talk about it
It only makes it worse to live without it
But lets talk about it
Wouldn't it be nice

Good night my baby
Sleep tight my baby


it wld be so veryvery nice..

treated mom to dinner. now i'm broke again.. lolx
but its worth it.. every single cent.. cos it made her happy.
happiness is an important thing.
happy mother's day mom!!
happy mother's day gramma!!
happy mom's day to all the moms out there too.. especially to ken's mom, xinyu's mom, sheryl's mom, weiying's mom, esther's mom, ayu's mom, jeanne's mom... (in no particular order) that's all i can rmb for now.. the moms i noe... yup.. take care!!! n stay young n pretty! -grin-

she laughs n smiles and fools around. who would have guessed she was eroding within.




go away.

You are a human shadow. If a loved one needs you,
you are always right at his or her heels! Your
deep social connection with human beings
produces your qualities of genuine caring and
charisma. However, at times you are naive to
the true nature of your loved ones. Remember
that humans' gift of free will does not always
lead them in wise directions. But your essence
of love and friendship represent the other
precious gifts of humanity. Overall you are a
strikingly valuable and innocent being who has
a lot to give.(please rate my quiz cuz it took
me for freaking ever to create)


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Your High School : Xinmin Secondary
1. nickname in high school?
cassan.. uh.... cockroach? ugh. don remind me.

2. best subject?
english.. but my gp sucks now.. heh..

5. worst subject?
erm.. everything except english!!

6. teachers you owe life lessons to?
Positive : all my sec 4 tchers, abey, mrs lee, ESPECIALLY Sharma, n to a certain extent, yea.. mr Lee.
Negative : he aint a tcher, he's DA shrimp. that's always gettin us in trouble n depriving us of aircon!!

7. a teacher you wanna kick in the ass?
tat shrimp. i reiterate. he is NOT a tcher. just a lil' shrimp.

8. Describe sec 1 year:
yucky. serious ailment caused me to lose the tan i got from swimming in pri sch. decided that kareen, ming kian, hweehoon, singuan rocked.. we were all in masters of our destiny..

9. sec 2 year:
met great ppl, great friends like AYU!!! jeanne, xinyu, wilson......

10. sec 3 year:
got into big shit. learned so much in a short period of time. we spoiled doreen yeo's hp!!! wahahahhahaaa.. her husband still sucks.

11. sec 4 year:
xinyu rocks, knew sheryl lots better, played our way thru, forged bonds, sec 2 loved us, we loved our class(de ppl n de room!!), complaining bout O's everyday but not doin much bout it..

12. your best friend was?
xinyu lor.. who else man... lotsa other close frenz also la.. like sher n soo n liuey n de rest of the girls..

13. your worst friend was?
erm.. i donno.. din bother much bout those.. prolly some sec3 girls.. i vaguely rmb a screaming match between us on de 4th floor n a bunch of them on de ground floor.. lololx

14. cafeteria food sucked?
nah.. it rocked.. yu ji chu mi fen!!! loosely translated as oil chicken thick rice flour

15. most hilarious school rule?
uh.. rules?? eh.. de no ankle sock thing? n de no hp thing?? i guess..

16. wore uniforms?
yea.. tucked in at de front, tuxedo style.. -shrug- blouse too short la.. haha

17. how was the prom?
don get me started on that!

18. who was prom king and queen?
i said, don get me started on THAT!!

19. any achievements?
which kind? academically or morally?

20. were you popular?
my class was!! -grin-

21. best song that reminds you of high school?
Born to win, i believe i can fly..

22. unforgettable high school crush?
me n chair were crazy for this lil boy.... hahahahhaa

23. most embarrassing moment?
omg.. i'm like, clumsy queen! all are equally embarrassing!!

24. memory you'd like to forget about high skool:
none.. it's what i am. n i don wanna forget myself.

25. best memory?
every single bit. especially sec 4 days.. like when we climbed into de sch at night.. haha..

26. any regrets?
only that i din study hard enough.. otherwise, nopE!!

27. would you like your "future child" to attend
ur high skool?
hmmm...... i might.. but right now, nope. sorry!!

28. were the bathrooms clean?
depends la.. de sec 4s kept them clean.. lolx.. we're nice, considerate ppl!!

29. how were the lunch ladies?
cool.. heh..

"makin ppl who make u sad, happy"
irony.

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why?why?why?why?why?why?why?
once again, who am i?
a girl. a mom's daughter. a friend.
thanx for de answer, but it aint what i'm lookin for.

i hate this feeling. growl.
existentialism = nothingness.
is that it? i tink so..
Dr Boey, u suck.
mendicant dog.

my jacket/sweater is BACK!! -grin-
sweet dreams again tonight.. i hope...
well... at least i'll have company!!
lalallaaaaa

eek. puking again. argh. this sucks.

darn.. first night without my sweater.. how am i gonna get to slp.. sigh....
*chants* i want my jacket! i want my jacket! i want my jacket!
i'll get it back tmr. -grin-
time: for once, go ahead n fly. lalallaaa...

damn. i actually managed to fall off the chair. wth am i doin. FUCK.

grace n dick are so saccharine sweet my hair wants to stand.
i'm so jealous!! lolx.

rugby match against PJ: we won..
they sent one of the NY guys to hospital.. deep cut on his head. ouch.
pardon my ignorance,
pardon me, i'm a girl.
the violence was unbearable..
the way they threw bodies on top of each other was... UrGh..
i noe that's how the game is.. but still.....
aiya.. donno la.
they happy can already.
-grin-
congrats NY!!!

You should be dating a Pisces.
19 February - 20 March
Your mate is loving and caring, trusting and
hospitable, and romantic. Though he/she can be
self-pitying, temperamental or dependent, the
fishes are quite romantic in bed.


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no seven. -sulk-
at least there were six.

talk to me,
abt anything,
everything.
dont shut me out.

i really wanna noe,
who am i?
tell me.

six days in heaven.

LALALLALALALLALALALALALALLALAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

six days in HEAVEN!!

*grin*

life is.... beautiful..

existentialism? it exists in my heaven.

my heaven is beautiful.

it's all my dreams interweaved.

dammit. my superduperuberextremelylovelyf***inglong entry DIN GET POSTED. n i DIN SAVE IT BEFOREHAND. argh.

my really beautiful n wonderful n filled with memories post din get posted. wasted my efforts. argh. n now that the enthusiasm has been exhausted on the unposted entry, i've got insufficient to fill another entry with equal fire n spirit. shall do it another day i guess. for now, here are the details:

1. NY won the v-ball championships

2. XinMin has lots of sch spirit.

3. Ex-XinMin students from AJ n NY n poly n current sec 4 counsillors did a cheer for beloved xinmin.

4. So powerful n loud that everyone heard.

5. The entire stadium were amazed/ apalled/ disgusted/ jealous/ envious/ dumbfounded

6. Entire cohort of prize receivers turned to gawk.

7. XinMin Rocks.

8. XinMin really Rocks.

9. XinMin absolutely Rocks.

10. Love us, or hate us cos u wanna be just like us.

the soil is drying up. interesting. haha. i shld go water.. but i'm LAZY!! hee.. lalallaaaaaa...... today was uber PMSy. *grin*. i suck. *grin*.

one crispy, one original, mountain dew n med whip, delivered right to ur doorstep!

forgot to water the soil.. somehow, the idea of my own garden is dying fast.. -yawn-

it took me by surprise. such a lovely wonderful surprise.

had a great time today. thanks for dinner miss ong, and the game, and the chips, and the laughter. let's go bowling instead next time instead! lolx.. pris is a killer at pool!!

soya bean milk tastes sweeter,

hunger pangs fade,

bus ride more enjoyable,

night more mesmerising,

life more enjoyable,

with u.

cut chilli just now.. to acquire my chilli seeds.. sigh.. but...... fingers are burning now!!! OUCH!! sigh..... can *someone kiss my fingers betta?? yea.. i'm thinking of *you.. then again.. betta not. dont want ur lips to burn.. heh. i'm crap.

GROW CHILLI GROW!!!!

argh. cant find the jjc questions. it's somewhere, i know not where. shall do another paper for him instead.

oh. there is one particularly annoying spelling mistake.

the word is POSEUR, not poser.

An Act Of Bitchiness

one of them said bout MY friend, "he likes me!!"

uh... ya. right. so what if u're pretty? u're short n stout. n that ruins ur face.. unless u can consider peeping out from ur window everyday, n neva ever showing ur dwarf-like body. then u'd be one of the most covetted beauties.

my friend said bout one of them,"she looks like a total bitch! YUCKS!!"

no prob!! haha. everyone thinks that way dah-ling!

and that top looks ugly on U. u'd do the world a favour if u take it off, then the world can go ard without shades and not get sore eyes.

WHAHAHAHAHAAAA!!! i SAW IT!!! it's a MAXIMISER!!!! (or a push up.. one of them..) lolx.. the difference is just too big la.. if u wanna wear a maximiser, wear it ALL the time! but make sure u inform ur sex partner before activity time, else he'll be greatrly disappointed.. lolx. even a guy noticed it was fake cleavage!! gee...

cant stand myself. such a critical bitch. sigh.. i'm sorry. sorry God. n.. uh.. if u're wondering who i'm talkin abt, wither ask me, or just go figure. but dont jump to conclusions yea.. lolx.

dont be such a bitch.

bla #1

stupid steven.. (that's sibilance!!) he found a bag and thot it was ours, so he happily brought it along with him then dumped it with weiying. when in fact, it din belong to any of us!!! bleah. in the end, he refused to take responsibility for the bag he rescued n we had to bring it to the general office.

bla #2

the f***ing j1s have skirts so short u can see al the colours of the rainbow when they're going up the stairs. like, EWWW!!! it's a school, n the skirt is a school uniform. i'm not saying that everyone shld be fuddy duddies, i am in favour of shorter skirts, but NOT that short. there has to be a limit. know that limit. dont walk ard n have all the students from other JCs labelling u as f**k sluts. it's disgusting.

bla#3

i'm sitting in the sch library when i can be at coffee bean. that's not the sucky part. the sucky part is that i dont have any maths with me, which means i got lots to cover when i get home. n i've still got that gp essay that i owe. argh.

bla #4

i cant figure out the chain puzzle thingie. getting me really hooked yet frustrated.

bla #5

i've googled so much that i've runned outta things to google, n the net is starting to bore me again.. so ppl, blog more for me to read k!! hee.. thanx!!

30 new mail. n only 2 worth reading. how pathetic.

2 weeks.

how long more?

skittles rotting in the fridge

cobwebs joining the ceiling n my noses' ridge.

attempt at rhyming poetry #1: failed.

just rmbed smthing. when sed first knew me, he told me he thought 'cassan' was a chinese name.. like.. 'ke san' or smthing liddat. he neva knew i was a cassandra. how sad.

-yawn- all the way to ikea, to buy 2 toilet brushes. mom can be so lame..... naw.. i bot flower pots!! hahahhaaa.. shall plant chilli!! whee!!!! lolx.. ok. that's lame too.

ahahhahaaa... *honoured*. grace blogged about me!! haha.. once again, 'cassan' and 'mad' were in the same sentence.. sheesh.. i cant run away from it can i.. lolx...

ny :

hey, do u ppl thrash beginners, den sneer behind their backs n call them losers?


ac:

omgoodness


ac:

noo way


ac says:

wad makes u think dat??





check out the difference.

n AC was supposed to be the snob.

well, we all know the truth now.

as always n even more now, AC ROCKS! they deserve to win. they've got the manners n the sportsmanship, minus the sneers. i'm glad they thrashed AJ. stella shld have won. f*cking JJ referees. i shld have been the ref.

3. squash

AJC against NYJC [5-0]. each individual match was 3-0. am really proud of them :D but if im from NY, it's sucha humiliation to be trashed just by the service alone.
taken from some girl's webbie..

uh... HELLO???? we've just picked up squash for less then a year n u find it an honour to thrash us??? screw u!! the AC girls have been into squash for bout the same time as u guys, n u get THRASHED SO BAD BY THEM. talk bout humiliation!

******** (name remains undisclosed as he/she is a minor, 16 yrs of age) says:

hahax..i still tink ur batch 4e3 is e best ..~ sumhow..

******** (name remains undisclosed as he/she is a minor, 16 yrs of age) says:

evry1 fyls like dat

gee... i'm so veryvery honoured!!!!! thankiew all for ur support n love n admiration!!! *waves the royalty wave* din know we were all THAT good... haha... 4E3'02 ROCKS!!! woohoo!!! hear that ppl??? WE ROCK!!!!!!! yep!!!! de sec 2's of our year LOVED us!!! woohoo!!!! *rejoice*.. we met by fate n together we conquered!! *grinnn*

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i'm starting to wonder if there's a conspiracy. y do i keep gettin associated with looneys??

cass was a Crazy Actor in a past life. Discover your past lives @ Quiz Me

lolx... no comments.

cassan was an Elegant Psychic in a past life. Discover your past lives @ Quiz Me

hmm.. this sounds betta....

cassandra was a Demented Lunatic in a past life. Discover your past lives @ Quiz Me

haha... nth much seemed to have changed??

discover what candy you are @ quiz me

Green You are a very calm and contemplative person. Others are drawn to your peaceful, nurturing nature. Find out your color at Quiz Me!

gee... the collapse of nicoll highway has caused this ripple effect.... scary..

it's been 1 week n 4 days. how long more will it take?



i want my island.

wanna go home to my island,

where no one can invade.

i'll have my pirahna pond on the border,

n make friends with the cannibals n savages u're sending to my island.

i'll neva feel lonely again.


happily ever after.






it's maths. it's taking over my mind. i'm going insane. i'm going to sleep.

jasmine lost the flower behind her ear....

de anticipation... wonder how was the match.. went to watch bbgt n tennis.. n i reached home at 3.30... like.... HUH???? gee.. i've neva been home so early.. i feel quite at a loss.. donno wat to do.. so i've been eating non-stop.. hahaa.. argh... sigh.... donno la. fucked up.

gee.... so white.. don really like it.. sigh.... argh.. i need my personal layout designer!! bleah.....

AC-Rj match tmr.. all de best AC!!! u can do it!! n toothead.. u'd BETTER do it.. (yes, this is a threat..) lolx... just do ur best la. u CAN win this competition!!

I was so high I did not recognize

The fire burning in her eyes


The chaos that controlled my mind


Whispered goodbye and she got on a plane


Never to return again


But always in my heart





This love has taken its toll on me



She said Goodbye too many times before


And her heart is breaking in front of me


I have no choice cause I won't say goodbye anymore





I tried my best to feed her appetite


Keep her coming every night


So hard to keep her satisfied


Kept playing love like it was just a game


Pretending to feel the same


Then turn around and leave again





This love has taken its toll on me


She said Goodbye too many times before


And her heart is breaking in front of me


I have no choice cause I won't say goodbye anymore





I'll fix these broken things


Repair your broken wings


And make sure everything's alright


My pressure on her hips


Sinking my fingertips


Into every inch of you


Cause I know that's what you want me to do

u're totally right. n u wanna noe how u'd noe that?? COS U"RE JUST LIKE THAT!! selfcentred, selfish, myopic, ignorant, oblivious, unappreciative. first impressions are totally WRONG.

No Longer Me



By: Cassandra Martin, 14, New York



I look at myself in the mirror,

I’m not sure who I see,

It doesn’t look like me.

Not anymore,

This person staring back at me,

It’s not the me I used to be.

I take my name,

Fit it with my face,

The profile does not match.

I no longer look like Cassandra,

No longer am I the same person.

I don’t know who I am,

Or who I’ve become.

All I know,

Is that I’m no longer the same person I used to be.

For something changed me,

Changed my deep within,

All the way out.

Cause I’m no longer the same person I used to be.



found this when i googled for my name..

i thought she looked smart. she's UBER smart. read her testimonials: exco of council, team captain, ardent environmentalist, student in most competitive arts class, scored 2 A's for donno what, clinched moe's humanities scholarship while coping well with everything else, house captain in her sec. sch... blablabla.... but she's NOT a nerd, she's funky n fun-loving.. loved by her mateys.. she's come so far, n there's still lots more left for her to do. she's a go-getter, an achiever, a person with success written all over her. n... my new role model!!! *grin*

today is a record setting day. woke up at 8.45am on a sunday morning.. gee.. havent seen sunday mornings for such a long time...

went to sweep grave just now.. had to give those huge packages to these workers to burn.. used to be able to throw it into the incinerator ourselves... but maybe it got too dangerous.. -shrug-.. anyway.. my uncle promptly labelled it singhell's postal service to hell .. lolx.. that lameness totally cracked me up. how true..

"You only live once -- but if you work it right, once is enough."

-Joe E. Lewis


"You can complain because roses have thorns, or you can rejoice because thorns have roses."

-Ziggy


"No man ever steps in the same river twice, for it's not the same river and he's not the same man."

-Heraclitus


"Let us endeavor to live that when we come to die even the undertaker will be sorry."

-Mark Twain


"What did you do today? Is anybody happier because you passed this way? Does anyone remember that you spoke today? The day is almost over, and its toiling time is through: Is there anyone to utter now a kindly word of you? Can you say tonight in parting with the day that's slipping fast, That you helped a single person of the many that you passed? Is a single heart rejoicing over what you did or said? Does the one whose hopes were fading now with courage look ahead? Did you waste the day or use it? Was it well or sorely spent? Did you leave a trail of kindness, or a scar of discontent? As you close you eyes in slumber, do you think that you can say: You have earned one more tomorrow by what you did today?"

-???


"Just remember, the only people not making mistakes are those who aren't doing anything."

-Tim W. Welborn


"Make the most of yourself...for that is all there is of you."

-Ralph Waldo Emerson


"Life is either a daring adventure or nothing."

-Helen Keller

okie... here they are... award winners at the inter school 'A' division squash matches!!


sexiest legs: Teo Jia Wen (RJC)

(yes, they're nice long n slim.... made me soooo jealous!!)


strongest, nicest thigh muscles: Rachel He (ACJC)

(not too big n not too small, just nice, damn nice!! heh.. )


best mannered: Stella Loong (ACJC)

(fine, i only played 2 matches.. but stella is really nice!! n sweet too!! n she dosen't hog de ball, n she gave me chances, what more can a beginner ask for?)


scariest serve: Rachel He (ACJC)

(simply because her service sound like gun shots, she is bloody gd!!)


one-of-the-best player: Teo Jia Wen(RJC)

(actually, i cant make a fair judgement on this, but she thrashed a
very-much-above-average-player 9-0.. or 9-1 or something like that.. so yea.. she's good!!)


best mannered school: ACJC

(despite rumours that they are snobs, they actually cheered for us n SR, not sure bout the other schools, but it's nice of them to do so. so THANK YOU!!)


fave opponent: Vivienne Tseng (VJC)

(just love playing with her la.. crapping n playing at the same time.. hehee)


best companion: Gracelina koh (NYJC)

(who else wld it be?? she rocks!!! lolx..)



that's about it for now.. i think ACJC will win again this year. n i wont be suprised.. then again, RJC may outshine them.. my bets are on AC tho.. as always..


u will realise that almost all the awards go to AC, this is because i have sorta followed them thru their matches, either as a referee, scorer, or like today,(or rather, yesterday) an opponent. i watched all their matches except on 2 occasions when we did not have competition n were therefore not required to go down. n yes, AC is as good as ppl say they are, even better. but they're not as snobbish as often perceived. (not all anw..) as for the RJ girl whjo keeps getting mentioned, i payed attention to her as she really caught my attention. firstly, she looked like my pri sch good friend. secondly, she was HOT! nice face, bod n legs. thirdly, she was uber cool on the court. watching her play was highly rewarding!! so yea.. thats the whole competition for me.. *grin* great experience!! hehe..

i am a pig. i just woke up and guess wat i'm having for breakfast?? 2 rocher, half a box of toffifee and 2 bars kinder bueno. fatfatfat!!!

I Love Gracelina Koh.

Thank You Lovely One.

i havent given up. i'm training hard. look at u ppl now.. -shakes head- let's fight this last battle together n walk out with our heads held high.

if *you were refering to me.. i wanna tell u tat i love u. n thank you. for being there. for understanding. for puttin up with my shit. for putting in a word for me. for holding me. for listening. for talking. for walking away when u saw that i din want to face anyone. for just being there. specially when i needed someone. thank YOU. so much. May God Bless You.

this is bloody annoying. have got so much to say, but the bloody net is screwin up again!!!

anyway.. cut my hair today.. but after i washed it.. the effect was gone again.. as usual.. curls returned.. yawn.... wateva la... the hair dresser made me damn happy.. haha.. cos she took uber long to cut my hair.. hehee... n tat always pleases me.. *grin*..

sheesh.. got so pissed over the net that i forgot everything i wanted to say!!!! bleah.. oh.
i wasted time rushing down today.. since i din get to train.. shld have expected it. wateva. shall study n study n study n get outta this place asap. yea... fly away!!!!! oh.. n lose more weight!! lolx... 4kg down.. 4 more to go... hahahaa.. whee!!!! workin towards my goal(s)..

ooo... just finished watching america's top model.. i'm all for elysse!!!!!(is tat how it's spelt??)

and lastly, a word of caution to all out there: cutting ur eye lashes is very, very stupid. trust me.
050404
11.46

stayed up till ard 3.. discussing life n issues.. questioning our existence. in a way, i'm starting to view life as Dr Boey does.

The Science questions why things are the way they are.

The Arts questions why we are the way we are.



think bout it more.. n u'll realise that we aren't that different afterall. life and science is intertwined. life is science n science is life. without life, there is no science, yet without science, there is no life!!! what are we? are we really existing? what if our existence is purely nothingness? what is the use of studying so much, learning so much, earning so much? then end up dying? what is the point of working so hard to earn a living that we forget how to live? life is short. we should enjoy it. to enjoy it, we need to live comfortably. to live comfortably, we need to have money. to have money, we need to work. to be able to work happily, we need a good job. to be able to get a good job, we need to compete. when will the competition end? will it end when life ends? or will it continue as ppl fight to get the best spot for their grave, the best equipped coffin, the most extravagant funeral? when will it all end? what is life about anyway?


i shld stop thinking.

It is sometimes a mistake to climb;


It is always a mistake never to make an attempt.


If you do not climb, you will not fall


This is true.


But is it that bad to fail, that hard to fall?


Sometimes you wake and sometimes, yes, you die.


But there is a third alternative.


Sometimes when u fall, u fly.



- Neil Gaiman



the same goes for fallin in love. just fall.

Simple Plan - God Must Hate Me Lyrics







Artist: Simple Plan


Title: God Must Hate Me


Album: No Helmets No Pads...Just Balls



Last night I just wanted to have fun


To go out with my friends


I took my dad's car


I never thought he would find out


But I crashed in a wall


Man I'm dead



I guess it's no use


I'm screwing up ever little thing I ever try to do


I was born to lose


Yeah yeah yeah yeah



[Chorus]

God must hate me


He cursed me for eternity


God must hate me


Maybe you should pray for me


I'm breaking down and you can't save me


I'm stuck in hell


And I wanna go home[x2]



Last night I had to study for this test


I forgot man I'm dead


And now my brain is bursting out of my head


I can't think I can't breathe


Once again



I guess its no use


Im screwing up every little thing i ever tried to do


I was born to lose


Yeah yeah yeah yeah



[Chorus]



So what in the world am I supposed to do?


I never did anything to you


So can't you find something else to do?



[Chorus]



God must hate me


I wanna go home





heard this song earlier on.. it makes me so jumpity happy... heh.. but i noe God dosent hate me. He loves me! yea.. n He's always there!! *beams* Thank You God.
n i'm sorry for liking this song.. but it just cheers me up so much.. hee

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Linda Tok rocks big time. too bad she had to meet me, an insult to her skills... heh..

broken.

time table too slack.. donno wat to do with my time.. sigh.... slacking away hen i can be making gd use of the time n studying... nvm.. shall do just that tmr!! *promise*

Dear God, if i do wat i promised can u answer my prayers??? Thank You.



i dont mean to be cynical.. but i tink this was wat went thru their minds..

"walao.. she come for wat man.."

"yalor!! she just come n waste out time only lor.."

"duh! every second counts!! she's just so freaking extra!!"

"n she cant even do it properly.. fuck off man.."

"gee.. she's trying to act cute AGAIN!! "

"just ignore her la.. tats what she always does wat."



well suckers, for ur information, ur intermediate is my beginner standard. i've slacked, that's all i can say. but i i trained, i can crush u like some ma-f*ckin piecea shiTe!! so just go screw urself aye!!



sorry God, i have sinned. but i just can't stand being ostracised. help me God. i need salvation.

barbie needs ken in her life.

when Ken n Barbie are together, Barbie tends to be more optimistic, n thus, will look on the bright side of life.


Dear God, please answer my prayers. Amen.

i shld be doin stupid lit n boring maths. but i'm not.

am waiting. procrastinating. missing.

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Your wings are BROKEN and tattered. You are
an angelic spirit who has fallen from grace for
one reason or another - possibly, you made one
tragic mistake that cost you everything. Or
maybe you were blamed for a crime you didn't
commit. In any case, you are faithless and
joyless. You find no happiness, love, or
acceptance in your love or in yourself. Most
days are a burden and you wonder when the
hurting will end. Sweet, beautiful and
sorrowful, you paint a tragic and touching
picture. You are the one that few understand.
Those that do know you are likely to love you
deeply and wish that they could do something to
ease your pain. You are constantly living in
memories of better times and a better world.
You are hard on yourself and self-critical or
self-loathing. Feeling rejected and unloved,
you are sensitive, caring, deep, and despite
your tainted nature, your soul is
breathtakingly beautiful.

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loving u* is such sweet sorrow

raebyddetyzzufymevoli

the song i love from the heineken ad..

(stolen from gin's blog(izzit ur blog??).. hee.. SORRY!!)


Imagine me and you I do

I think about you day and night

It's only right

To think about the girl you love

And hold her tight

So happy together

If I should call you up invest a dime

And you say you belong to me

And ease my mind

Imagine how the world could be

So very fine

So happy together

I can see me lovin' nobody but you

For all my life

When you're with me baby the skies'll be blue

For all my life

Me and you and you and me

No matter how they toss the dice

It had to be

The only one for me is you

And you for me

So happy together

I can see me lovin' nobody but you

For all my life

When you're with me baby the skies'll be blue

For all my life

Me and you and you and me

No matter how they toss the dice

It had to be

The only one for me is you

And you for me

So happy together

Me and you and you and me

No matter how they toss the dice

It had to be

The only one for me is you

And you for me

So happy together

So happy together

How is the weather

So happy together

We're happy together

So happy together

Happy together

So happy together

So happy together



-barbie n ken-

tat's how it shld be

class gathereing: 11 ppl turned up.. not too bad la..
miss chew cooked prawns n cheese ommelette.. lolx.. tasted quite gd!! haha... i neva ate nice ommelette cooked on de grills of seoul garden before sia!! cheers A3!! n happy super belated birthday miss chew!!

today: someone attempted murder on me. threw a bottle down when i was walkin across the stupid bridge from de bookshop to the artroom. de bottle fell right next to me. i could have concussed or just died!! n guess wat? it was in sch. fucked up sia..

econs: hope DRQ saves the day

squash: first match against JJC dieded

ACJC: won their first match against AJC.. N I WAS DE MARKER!!!! *grin*

cldnt help jumping ard when they won!! hahahaa.... AC U RULE!!!!!!!!! lalalaaa...

you: u rock la.. don let those asses out u down!! there're many out there tat appreciate u n recognise u as a gem - a true gem =>



raebyddetyzzufymevoli

*pulls out barbie n ken n puts them together*

uh... maths: dieded.

econs: dying.(hope can resuscitate)

squash: hopes for the best

you: i'm praying hard


raebyddetyzzufymevoli

sheesh.. wth man.. mom cleared my mess.. n in de process, made everything so neat i cant find a single thing... which includes my maths notes.. n coincidentally, maths test tmr... YEH!!! i have de perfect excuse to flunk.. lolx.... cant study.. so i shall go start imagining stuff again.. heh.... make myself happeeeeeee!!!!!!


sorry koi, its not tat i don like u.. (then again, sometimes i really hate u..) it's just tat my notes are missing.. my mom stuffed them somewhere- i know not where.. hahahaa... but really, u shldnt make me clean de whiteboard on the very same day u pointed me out n gave me all that shit talk. (but then again, its alwaex me u're nagging at these days.. so i'll know its me anw..) yea.. be nice to me. or i'll hunt down ur son n give him hell. i know where he is!!! ok. be nice. i am nice. =>



raebyddetyzzufymevoli

was thinking of deleting this blog.. den decided not too.. its been with me for so long... cant bear to part with it.. but i wont be bloggin much tho.. got block tests next week.. right after the hols.. how annoying.. sigh... life's pretty sucky now.. xinyu knows y.. thanx for being there dear.. if only i could turn back time.. i'd make sure nth goes wrong.. not anymore.. i cant afford to lose it...

today. me, xinyu, weiying n esta were paid $2 to take neoprints!!!!! lolx..... someone earlier had put $3 in.. so i got dem to come out wif another dollar... put it in.... n guess wat?? it got stuck!!!! so we kept slamming de eject button n suddenly.. 3 gold coins dropped out!!!!! lololx.... put one more into de machine.. n kept de other 2... interesting day!!! hehee.. lalalaa......................lurve u girls so much!! hehe... *muackies foreva*
oh.. n xinyu has my teeth mark on her right arm... heh.... i lurve tat girl to bits!!! hehe... she rox!!!! hear tat sweetie?? U ROCK!!! n anyone who crosses ur path will hafta face de wrath of all of us!! specially me!! *winkx*

was looking for de stupid lit journal.. guess where i found it??? under my dustbin. SEE!! even my dustbin noes tat thing is trash......

the rainbow.. so lovely.. glorious.. wonderful.. juz losing myself in the beauty.. den de storm had to ruin it. but thankfully, storms don last.. de sun came out soon enough..

tats life..

lalalalaaaa......... the fish seemed nice today. but i still don have de mood to do his work.. so juz too bad for him. i don have de fucking mood to do any work at all. so screwed.

"the kris was plunged right into the flesh n twisted till the flesh mangled. the weapon then was dragged to a clean spot n once again plunged deep in. she bit her lips n writhed in agony, overwhelmed by physical torture n emotion pain. she dropped to her knees, clutching her wounds, silver tears filling her eyes.. i had neva seen the princess bow so low. "

shld be 37 weeks left if i'm not wrong....

juz gave my aunt a shock yesterday... lolx.... but she hasnt replied my email.... tink she's still in shock.... saw quite a no. of familiar faces at de mrt juz now... hmmm..... lalalalalaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa........... i reallyreally dont want sch to start!!!!!

Girlfriends bring you chicken curry and scrub your bathroom when you need
help.


Girlfriends keep your children and keep your secrets.


Girlfriends give advice when you ask for it. Sometimes you take it,
sometimes you don't.


Girlfriends don't always tell you that you're right, but they're usually
honest.


Girlfriends still love you, even when they don't agree with your choices.


Girlfriends laugh with you, and you don't need canned jokes to start the
laughter.


Girlfriends pull you out of jams.


Girlfriends help you get out of bad relationships.


Girlfriends help you look for a new apartment, help you pack, and help you
move.


Girlfriends will give a party for your son or daughter when they get
married or have a baby, in whichever order that comes!


Girlfriends are there for you, in an instant and when the hard times come.


Girlfriends will drive through blizzards, rainstorms, hail, heat, and gloom
of night to get to you when your hour of need is desperate.


Girlfriends listen when you lose a job or a friend.


Girlfriends listen when your children break your heart.


Girlfriends listen when your parents' minds and bodies fail.


Girlfriends cry with you when someone you loved dies.


Girlfriends support you when the men in your life let you down.


Girlfriends help you pick up the pieces when men pack up and go.


Girlfriends rejoice at what makes you happy, and are ready to go out and
kill what makes you unhappy.


Times passes.


Life happens.


Distance separates.


Children grow up.


Love waxes and wanes.


Hearts break.


Careers end.


Jobs come and go.


Parents die.


Colleagues forget favours.


Men don't call when they say they will.


BUT girlfriends are there, no matter how much time and how many miles are
between you. A girlfriend is never farther away than needing her can reach.
When you have to walk that lonesome valley, and you have to walk it for
yourself, your girlfriends will be on the valley's rim, cheering you on,
praying for you, pulling for you, intervening on your behalf, and waiting
with open arms at the valley's end. Sometimes, they will even break the
rules and walk beside you. Or come in and carry you out.

havent been online for a long time.. koi sux.. seriously sux... sux like hell.... bloody hypocrite. maths is ok.. but the maths tcher sux. econs sux.. but de econs tcher is ok.. irony. n the invention of love is seriously boring.. i don get it at all.. sigh... 38 weeks left

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creativity, and usually are highly intelligent.
Others view you as mysterious and dreamy, yet
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who wears spag top, surf shorts n beach apparel n STILL gets into sos FOC???? *points finger at xinyu*... lolx... great achievement man!!!! haha..... crazy girl....

hahahhaa.... went out wif sr og... CYGNUS ROX!!!! n we saw de cygnus constellation... one star was missing tho... stupid pk.. as usual..... lolx.... missed called him a million times! hahaha.. even called his gf.. SORRY!!!! well.. went shopping at giant.. den went to picnic at eastcoast.. played stupid games... craked stupid jokes.. but it was fun juz seeing dem again.... hehhehe...

left after midnight wif stef.... went down to sos to meet de girls... xinyu was so HOT!!!!! hahahhaaa... so was sheryl... n linda... rite dearies??!!! *winkx*.. haha... lurve sos man!!! outta every single place.. still like sos de best.. china black is next.. heh.... sheesh... no more clubbing!!! study time!!!! hahahaa....

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! may 2004 allow ur dreams to come true!! (xin xiang shi chen) work hard to achieve ur goals!!

Which Guilty Gear X character are you?

christmas eve was splendificious!!!! hahaha... I FINALLY MET KEN CHUA!!!! MY CRUSH FOR LIKE 1 MILLION YEARS!!!!!!!!!!yes!! i ran to a deserted corner n screamed!!! hahaha... he was so fucking cute!!!! i don care!! *pouts* i tink he's cute!!! n he talked to me!! ME!!!! lololx..... he said,"'cuse me is this seat taken??" "no.."... den he took away de chair!! lololx..... okok.. i noe i'm lame... but hello??? gimme a break! i've had a crush on him since foreva!!! hahahaa... n i saw him!!! outside sos... lolx... den when i was inside.... he was there too!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! so bloody cute!!! lolx...... but he's damn skinny... haha... but i don care.. i once said this, "de earth is round.. i'll meet him some day.." n i did!! i really did!!! his eyes are huge!!!n tat boyish grin.. *melts*...... i finally met him. merry christmas everyone....

1. What did you do in 2003 that you'd never done before?

- club

- fail lit

- play squash

- some other private stuff... *blushes*

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?

resolutions?? wat resolutions??? hahaha..

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?

hmmm... nah...

4. Did anyone close to you die?

erm.... nope..

5. What countries did you visit?

thailand...

6. What would you like to have in 2004 that you lacked in 2003?

MONEY!!! n well.... self discipline... gotta studystudystudy!!

7. What date from 2003 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?

- 7 jan

- 17 july

- 18 oct

- 27 nov

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?

- meeting great ppl(esta + cygnus 03)

9. What was your biggest failure?

hmmm....
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?

usual stuff.. had food poisoning during feb i tink..

11. What was the best thing you bought?

everything!! hahahaa..

12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?

hmmmm... ME!!!! no.. not me..

13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?

mine???? hahaha

14. Where did most of your money go?

sheesh... haha.. food, clothes, cabs, clubbing..

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?

SHOPPING SPREE!!!! topshop.. mango.... etc... been there done tat wif my dearies!! haha.. oh.. n clubbing!! haha.. not fogetting eating!! i mean.. good food makes me happy u c.. hee..

16. What song will always remind you of 2003?

i'll have to tink bout this...

17. Compared to this time last year, are you happier or sadder?

happier.. n sadder.. but definitely more matured..

ii. thinner or fatter?

the latter

iii. richer or poorer?

lolx... richer.. NOT!! hahaha..

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?

studying.. working.. training.. exercising.. clubbing.. enjoying life.. going out..

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?

nth!!! wanna live life to de fullest n enjoy each moment!!! ok wait. i shld complain less!!! hehe..

20. How will you be spending Christmas?

went to gramma house... helped my aunt to pack.. hee..

22. Did you fall in love in 2003?

fell so deep...

23. How many one night stands?

lolx.. nice question!! but none! i'm not some slut k.. lolx..

24. What was your favourite TV programme?

i don have time to watch tv.... hehe

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?

none tat i noe of..


26. What was the best book you read?

cant rmb.. all of em are great!! -grin-


27. What was your greatest musical discovery?

tat cannon in D is a reallyreally nice song..
28. What did you want and get?

a life

29. What did you want and not get?

money??!!!!

30. What was your favourite film of this year?

wld have loved to say charlie's angels.. but its not. its Pirates of the carribean.. n love actually..


31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?

i was 17. i was pissed off.. den zhi saved de day.. brightened it up by appearing wif my sunflower!!!! hehe...
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
getting to ACJC..


33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2003?

nice on me.. trendy.. comfy.. oh... n BLACK!!! hahahaa.... rite sher??!!

34. What kept you sane?

xinyu n zhi n esta n weiying n sheryl... oh... n noeing tat dey're alwaex there...


35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?

erm...........

36. What political issue stirred you the most?

terrorism.


37. Who did you miss?

liuyin.. 4e3'02.. kim yuan.. benjamin.. xinmin..

38. Who was the best new person you met?

if i can only state one.. den it has to be esta... thankiew est!!! for everything!!

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2003.

dont cry cos its over. smile cos it happened..

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.

"its my life... its now or never.."

Xmas?? scrape tat. zhi told me this: its rude.. to replace christ with an unknown 'X'.. so here it is instead..

Christmas. de season of giving.. ther's nth i want.. neva wanted anything... except maybe.. him to really be happy.. yea.. guess so.. oh.. a few million bucks wont hurt either.. *grin*

ouch. me against de world.

ah... vodka lime.... taste so horrible.. hate drinking.. really hate it.. tink it'll taste betta w/out de lime.... ahh.... wazzit like to be drunk?????

does cassan suck??? yes.... cassan sux... *everyone nods head*

eeks. stuck at home. don like ppl referin to me as "that cassandra GIRL".. like duh~ wadya tink?? i'm a boy??

tink some ppl are so pathetic.. take a look at bloodybitchG**C*.. hellooo??? who puts interests in friendster as "currently not into clubbing"????? madness!!! spasticness!! n plain Loser wif a capital L.

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pleasantly pleased to have you jump outta no
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or more passionate embrace. super markets and
work places are your favorite places to attack
your loved one with all your love =p


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seriously... i cant imagine myself doing tat.. but wateva..

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i love xinyu!! i LuRVE XINYU!!!!!! hahaha.... my beloved sugarcoated-honeycovered-chocolatey lovely princess!!!!!!! lolx..... hu else will kindly lemme charge all expenses to her card??? noone but my wonderful kindhearted-sweetnatured-evercompassionate bestest fren!!! hahahaha.... wheee!!!!!!!!!

went shopping spree juz now... n i when i was abt to pay.. realise tat i din bring plastic!! no plastic = no monay!! lolx... well.. my dear girl kindly paid for me!!! hahahahaa... TAS WAT FRENZ ARE FOR!!! lolx.... n lots more besides tat of cos.. hee... thanx dearie.. n today was great...

calling out to yinsiu, weiying, sheryl n xinyu: lets do this again sometime soon yea!!!!! hahahahaa..... whee!!!!!

oh.. den xinyu kept advertising her jumpy kangaroo!! lolx.... "whee!!! boingboingboingboingboing!!! mummymummy!!! i wan jumpy kangaroo!!! boingboingboing!!! " (erm... juz in case... tat was by me.. not her.. lolx..)

lalalaaa....... i'm bored!! haha.... wata bunch of antiquated ppl.... posing as pl dey're not... n actually scorning those of their species... rather pathetic actually.. but i'll giv dem compassion points for de effort.. hee...

i'm juz crapping actually.. but xinyu noes wat i'm toking abt!! right!! hehe... i hope she does anyway.. heh.. *yawnx* really bored now.... gonna slp soon.. nitey ppl!!

aha!! i'm back!! *smilex*