i just realised i've never taken a "family photo" with cliff n my chinchilla. that's real sad somehow.. cos i know she liked him lots.... how'd i know? how'd i read an animals mind?? i just know ok??!! me n my girl-we understand each other well..

just that i neglected her sometimes.. yea. that's all. but i miss her.


this is her. she likes running around my bed.. hiding in tunnels i make with my pillows(n i've got LOTS of pillows!!). she's likes me playing a game of "catch me if you can" with her.... and she'll jump up n bite me if i annoy her too much. i miss her..

happy birthday to xiaoshi =)
happy birthday to chay =)





nabehcheebye.

i just read xinyu's really cute post bout "200 hundred things you've done before 19" or something liddat like that. there was one that went....

have you ever helped an animal give birth???


i started laughing. cos i rmb remember not helping my hamsters give birth, but helping them to make love. HAHAHAH!!!!!!! i desperately wanted baby hamsters so i helped mr male hamster find his way home; i put him on top of a female hamster. and low and behold!!!1 BABIES!!!!!!!!!!!!


disgusting me. i did it more than just a few times. =)

sorry, to the few who read, please put up with this template till i make a new one.... =)

mandy, i'll get you the chatboardthingie i promised soooooooooo long ago.. =x

hmmm. once again, being the short-memory bimbo that i am, i practically forgot every single thing that i wanted to blog. i think i should stop thinking about what to blog, and just blog. let me give it a go.

we went to beloved momo just now... and things seemed.... perfect. all the clubbing kakis... the drinks.. the seats.... then we went to phuture. it was at phuture that my night took a drastic turn.

think of it this way: how easy is it to forget the person who slashed you with a parang??? even when the wound heals, a welt is formed!!! there is a SCAR!!!!!

now everyone look at their legs; see if there are any scars. do u rmb falling down now?? true, some scars heal. mine healed(as in the scar i got from falling down).. but the last time i fell down was AGES ago!!! maybe... 10 years ago??? and there are many other scars (like the three slashes i got from the escalator), that are still there. sometimes i look at my scars, and i feel happy. *thought bubble* "i fall down on escalator before leh.... you got anot??!!! hurhur~". but at the same time i rmb the pain, the blood, the tears. yeah. do you get what i'm saying? do you feel the same way???

anw, on clubbing. i am disgusted(cos i used to dislike the coordinated moves.. but i'm starting to find it cute!!) to announce that i am actually starting to like mambo more n more.... haha. especially when they played "it's my life". it makes me happy =) and guess what??? they played spice up your life at momo!!!!!!! *jumpityjumpityjump* anyone who has clubbed with me knows that i go mad when they play this song!!!! hahahahahahhaaa!!!!!!!

actually, i don have that much left to say... will post pix when i get them from singuan.... it's been a wild night.... each time i turn to see ryan(bestfren's fren) holding his cigerette, i get internal conflict between the devil and the angel. lolx. smokesmokesmoke!!!! NONONO!!!!!! angel won tonight. hehe. =) ryan and his fren were very nice, keeping us safe... and.... to a certain extent, protected. haha. nice ppl. i like clubbing with this kinda ppl, tho of cos, us girls can take care of ourselves just as well!!! it's just a nice change to have other ppl do the job. heh.


did u ever realise??? that if you dig your nose after clubbing, there is alot of stuff in ur nose??? as in.. the pi sai la.... ya. and if u dig ur nose with a tissue paper after u smoke, u find lots of brown precipitate on e tissue??!!!!

***pls do not dig ur nose in front of an audience. it is immensely revolting regardless of how good-looking you are.







once again girls, i am so glad that despite all that shit i put u girls thru, u're still here with me. thank you for a wonderful friendship. =)))



















THIS IS ON MY DARLING CLIFF.
i am seeing my darling later and we're gonna watch villa wellness together. but first, i gotta decide what to cook for dinner..... *brainstorm*

anw, that day he drove us to fortcaning, and we walked round.... explored, and i kissed him under a misletoe... i donno what it signifies, but from what i vaguely rmb, it's something good!!=) looked at some old graves and stood there wondering about these ppl who were some somebody, but are reduced to once-grand tombstones, now eroded by elements of nature. thinking bout their greatgreatgreatgreatgreatgreatgreatgreat grandkids, and how they'd feel about having someone important in the ancestral line. i think it's pretty awesome =) there was this particular person, a german, who died in singapore.. somehow, i think it sucks(sorry, i cant think of any better word) to die in foreign land... maybe, hopefully, he had loved singapore as much as some of us do, and was happy to die here...? i said a silent prayer for them. for the great ones who came years before me, and helped build the nation that i have come to love(i do love singapore hor!!!! ).

anw, he pointed out (shit! i just forget what it's called!!!) the place where ppl register marriages... YES!!!! ROM!!!! hahahahhahaa. and i asked when he was bringing me there.

him: 9 years later la.... now to early to get married.
me: i know..... engage first la.. since we're here already.... we can be engaged for 9 yrs!!!

haha. i was joking la.... i'm only 19..... but who knows right??? i might, i repeat, might, one day walk down the aisle with him!!! hahahhaa. we never know what lies ahead of us in life, what the Big Guy up there has in stall for us... we can only wait. someday, we'll find out. till then, i'll treasure my moments with my darling. my favourite boyfriend. hahahhaa. ok la..... my only boyfriend. =)

last night was the first time ever i had fun at zouk.
first, we attempt to squeeze into phuture. then, xinyu n me cldnt make it. =/ eventually, sheryl n singuan came out and miraculously, they got us in. but my face was still black cos i hated e squeezing. haha.. anyway, after a while, donno what got into me, i started shaking n shaking n creating space for myself. so...... i had space to dance!!!!!!!!!! wheeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahaha. stupid face(some stranger with a stupid face) actually thot i wanted to dance with him. like, EW?!! eek. so he stuck behind us for the whole night till we left phuture for zouk. idiot. we push him, knock him, elbow him, and the poor fucker still don get the hint. bah. anw, he had a flabby tummy n chest. how i know?? i was the one pushing, shoving n elbowing him. =))

lotsa funny guys. not funny-funny, but weird-funny. eek. i think stupid face's whole group of friends were ard us or something. blah. told one guy to "pls keep ur hands to urself" cos he kept trying to touch my partner!!!! haha. and he walked away. it was very nice really, cos when he walked off, there was suddenly even more space for us!!!! hahaha.

on mambo: i know the chorus to.... erm.... what's that song??? "luckyluckylucky"!!!! e rest i forgot. and they sprayed that i-donno-what which was so cold n sooooooooo shiok!!!!!!!

i think my blogging is getting pointless.....


regardless. tacos for dinner... AND cliff n i have got a date to watch table for 3 and the weight show after that.... i donno what's the name of the weight show but....... it's the one on adverts where someone (i think david gan) goes, "do u shave ur armpit??" and sound effects go..... "diongg" (i'm sorry i donno how to spell that sound... but it sounds like how a spring would when someone stretches it and then lts go.) so everyone pls don forget to tune in to the do-u-shave-ur-armpit show at 8pm on ch5 TONIGHT!!!!! (thursday)


shld i run?? shld i not?? shld i run?? shld i not??? shld i run?? shld i NOT?????? i think not!!! =))
but gotta losseeeeee weeeeeiiiiigggggggghhhhhhhhhhtttttttttt............................. BLAH.GRRRR.



girl, 19, 165cm, reaching 60kg(=x). looking for slimming companies willing to sponser free slimming sessions.

cliff let me drive his car early this morning!! =)ard changi airport carpark. hahahaha. so fun. but so freaking scary!!!!!! lol.

i miss my girls so much....... don u all wish we could be forever 18???

soooooooooooooo happy today. cos cliff drove my bestfren n my girlfriends home. somehow, it just means so much to me. haha. lalala. =)

anw, if u wanna see me, i'll be doing promotion for silkpro at suntec tmr, between 3-5... support pls?? haha. boingboing.

HAPPY GIRL!!

i'm going to school tmr. (NUS that is.)

they wrote me a long letter, telling me their virtues and y i shld accept them n study there. ultimately, they just know that i am going to succeed in life n they want to be able to boast that i studied with them n they taught me invaluable things.



AS IF. i am going there to market starhub, that's all. haha. lalala. tmr, i'll c the world!!!!!! wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i am proud to announce that since my birthday, i have been a proud owner of a colourful towel material mango bag. (CTMMB)

occasionally when i walk along the streets, i see ppl carrying that bag, and i think to myself,"my bag is the same as hers, yet much more special!! hurhur~" Y? simply cos that CTMMB was picked out for me by my bestfren. we stayed up all night n went to mango sale FIRST THING in the morning, to shop. i did not have that bag in mind but later on, i found that some ppl had actually reserved that bag so i was quite pissed. NOT FAIR!!! HOW COME THEY GET TO RESERVE MY PRETTY CTMMB??!!! bestfren n i were actually plotting to create a scene then steal the bag outta the reserved items. BUT being the nice morally upright ppl we are, we didint. (anti-climax right??!!)

anw, a few weeks later, when i was opening my presents, i saw that fucking chio CTMMB!!!! my mouth dropped!!!! MY BESTFREN ACTUALLY MANAGED TO GET IT FOR ME!!!!!!!!!! holy shit!! i was shocked/surprised/happy/cannot-describe-in-words!!! that bag means so much to me. #1 cos i like it. #2 cos it's a present. #3 cos it's from my laopo.

thankx best fren!!! for the specialest bag in the world!!!! sigh. the things u do for me. i dont deserve you, really. yet i cant bear to leave u cos i know i'll die without the friendship u so readily hand to me. thankiew for everything my dearest bestfren. may you always have the best in life. -big hug- know that you're always in my heart alright???!!!!

wtfh. grrr. thot for a moment my blog kanna heck into. like real- why wld someone wanna heck into a nobody's blog like MINE? haha. but i think something bad happened to my gmail. sad shit. =(


i have no idea how to use outlook. so too bad mommy... say byebye to ur files..... MUAHHAHAHAHAHAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


i am about to SPEND more money..... hopefullly this time it's gonna be a good investment, cos he last time the acer guy came, he was a f!u@c#k$i%n^g&c*h(a)o_c-h+e=e\b|y~e. i tio virus 3 days later. gRRRRR. sucker.




BABYBABYBABYBABYABABYBABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SIX WHOLE MONTHS!!!!! (or 7, however u wanna see it =>) WOW!!!! I LOVE YOU BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!

Cliff & Cassandra. elements of nature =)

like, what is your problem??!!!!

working at a telco: u get fucking ccb customers...

#1

cust: i want to sign up for all 3 services!
me: (jumping for joy! yeh!! can hit target!) sure sir, i just need your identification pls.
cust: oh. i din bring identification.
me: nth at all sir? driving license? passport? if no then i'm afraid i cant help you...
cust: fine. i'll bring my business elsewhere then. (walks off acting like he's the only customer in the world)

like wtf?!!! if some other telco lets u apply for any services at all, let me know man!!! hurhur~


anw, he came back a few days later with identification. nice to see you again sir...




#2

cust: oh. i want to change both my remote, but swop only one box.

me: sorry sir, we can't change the remote for you..

cust: y not?! it's the same remote what!

me: no.. it's different. u want to change you must go to customer service centre upstairs..

cust: ok la ok la... i give u the more spoilt one. (hands over remote with cracked casing)

me: sorry sir, we can't accept this remote cos it's cracked...

cust: y not?!! it's still a remoe, i'm still reurning you a remote what...

me: if u insist, then i'll just have to charge you for the remote.

cust: aiya... ok la ok la... take the other one la. OI! u take my cable also ar??!!!!

me: that's the power cord sir, we need to collect it back.

cust: but i thot it's mine?

me: no sir, that is ours...

cust: oh. but i thot it's mine. what if i want to keep it??

me: no problem sir, i'll jus have to charge you for it...

cust: must charge again ar??? den dowan la... nvm.

cust's wife: stupid place with their stupid rules and regulations..



i turned ard, banged down the bloody box and cussed. i dont care if they heard. they can fucking go fly kite.


so bloody annoying. grrr.
but it's alright. last day is this sunday. =) then it's just phoo shoots, wasting time slacking at home, and cooking dinner for my darling n mom n friends when they come over!!! -grin-


but then again, u do meet ppl from many different countries... like france, sweden, mauritous(sry!! i cant rmb how to spell!!!), australia!!!, germany, india, china..... blahblahblah. u see old singaporean men bringing young china girls down and paying for whatever those girls want...

and that day i served this deaf mute couple and it was so... touching. a normal 10 min conversation took so much longer cos i had to wrie everythign down.. but the experience.. it took my breath away.

and afew days before that.... I SERVED WONG LILIN n husband. SHE WAS SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO ABSOLUTELY GORGEOUS!!!!! -faint- i raved about it the whole day till my colleagues wanted to smack me. =)))


my colleagues are veryveryvery nice ppl too. and there are los of pretty girls there!!! like pris, nicole, RITA!!! (i'm falling for rita cos she's so cute! haha!), funny lynn, yiting.... etcetcetc. n yes!! sophie!!!! n michelle is damn funny also.. heh. shit. i donno if i left out anyone... oh yes i did! i left out jay!! she has a scary sense of humour.... =/ the guys are nice ppl also. haha. all the temp staff are damn funny laa... we sit in the pantry n bitch about biscuit aunty. whahahaha. i'd name all of them if i cld, but i'm too lazy to get my staff list, and if i just name them like that, CONFIRM forget some ppl. anw, all together, there's really noone to dislike at my workplace except for biscuit aunty who has been suspiciously nice. it's been a gd one month.=)

thank you all for a nice work experience!!

one good thing about looking after the tentage: Simon left the com on for meeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!! YEH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha.

15 July: went for buffet at goodwood park, saw handsome Mr Goh Chok Tong's wife, who made some nice comments about us which i overheard *grin* gave n collected presents, extremely impressed by Xinyu's artistic talent!!!!! i gave a a photo frame in magnet form, with her sec1 pic on it!!! WAHAHAHAA!!!!!!!!!! but it's cool. see the changes over the years!! lalala. i love you xinyu darling bestfren laopo sweetie!!!!!!

16 July: Went for audition...=) Met nice ppl like Jac n Crystle n made friends with Sancia, which is good la.. holding grudges aint that fun right? Nice knowing you guys =) bumped into LINDERR!!!!!!!!!!!! damn i love linderr!! haha. she was my perk of the morning!! -grin- Boyfriend drove mummy n me out to eat.. he gave a a GARBAGE CAN!! which i love so much cos it's says "here to stink you every 17/7" i LOVE my baby =))) PLUS he gave me a chilli red rose which was a gorgeous flaming reddish/orangey colour! =>

17 July: MY BIRTHDAY!!!!! went back to gramma's for a while... cut cake, eat cake, went to meet my precious. MY PRECIOUS BABY!!! Went town to change the size of my jacket, walked around, had dinner, VERY ncie dinner with snails n lobsters n prawns n crayfish n steak n baked potatoes n soup n dessert n tea!!!!! WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =))))))))))
so happyhappy. =) the unhappy bits, let's just forget; it spoils the mood n the moment. =)



there come times when i just wanna shout out to the whole world that I LOVE MY BOYFRIEND CLIFF!!!!!!!!!!!! for all the things that he has done, every single bitter n sweet moment, cos it's all those moments that make US. i love you baby =) lots n lots n lots!!!!!


to all the ppl who wished me, Thankiew!!!!!




i am sooooo bored in the tentage. i really wanna know how to fix my home com, and who is a reliable person i can call. any info, please email cassandraleong@gmail.com!!!!! thankiew!!!!!

ok i lied. just one post. today. for the special girl in my life =)

laopo.. shen ri kuai le!! wo ai ni!!!!!!!!!!!!

went over at midnight today.. dragged her out n serenaded her with choruses of "happy birthday" in the lift- xinyu, sheryl, me. i love u girls so damn much. all the stupid things that we do together and whats nots. u girls mean the world to me. =)))


then my boyfriend drove sheryl home. =))) haha. it's the first time he drove my friend home, n somehow it made me to jumpityhappy. hee. i love you too boyfriend!!!!! *kisskiss*



looking forward to goodwood park later!! for now, it's off to finish presents..........

won't be blogging for a while.... will be back in august!!! tata~ *muackxmuackx*


here's an early happy birthday for my favourite woman, the most important girl in my life!!!!!

Miss Toh Xinyu!!!!!!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ARGHHHHHH. i cant seem to post anything i am going so mad. i wanted to tell the world bout momo n how i love momo n how momo has nice round chairs exactly the same as sos n i really loved sos cos i rmb seeing my childhood crush at sos n he talked to me n i was so damn excited n how i met this guy i really liked a hell lot n how things din work out in the end n it hurt like shit for a damn long time n i haven been to that place in a million years n i really missed it n the toilets are super pink noe but still have the nice sofas that u can stone in.

and all the memories in sos, so near yet so far. u know that memories will always be there, but things will never be the same again. momo is a lovely club but cannot take the place of SOS. sometimes if you dig deep enough, you can see every thing happening all over again in your mind's eye. all the good times. n if you dare to face the truth, you find the torments n pain n anguish too. that lingers on.

y do we hurt?

it's this hurt that prevents us from finding true happiness again. it's so easy to just not acknowledge it... but i think the only way to really be rid of it is to take the bull by it's horns, conquer that hurt, then it'll never resurface again. i think.




on a much brighter note.... i went to mango sale earlier, and i have been up for more than 24hrs, meaning i am brain dead.


that is the only bright note. yinsiu is leaving in 4 days, and sheryl will be disappearing to the other end of the island in her hostel soon. i am gonna miss them so bad.. =(

take care my loves......

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY YINSIU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

think i never mentioned this.. i adore cocco latte- for it's poles. =>

might have been kidney. might have been stroke. might have been ear infection. migh have been suffering. i din know. don't know.

some say that a chinchilla's life span is up to 18 years.
some that that their average life span is 10 years.

whatever it is, she was 7. argh. all my fault.

pissed.
bah. bahbah black sheep. grrrrrrrrrruffffff!!




disclaimer. the note on cliff, is NOT meant in a negative way. it is totally positive. as in, it's only been 4 mths, but the time we spent and experiences together seems like sooooo much more. it is NOT a negative or dready comment. i love my baby!!!!

i am a walking lump of blubber.

JB has cheap food. spent quite alot on food. the sad thing was, i realise i din have much shoppping with me when i left JB... it was then that i remembered: i ate up most of my shopping =/

i am a walking lump of blubber that stalks. =D

sheryl came back from KL with nice white shoes. i wanna go somewhere to shop too. i want my aladin shoes!!

i am a walking lump of blubber fungus growing on my cliff.

baby toenail is sick and is threatening to drop off. i bought DVDs without realising that i can't play them in my room. i don't care. i still like them.

sorry, iam still too lazy to add comments/ tag boards/ change my blogskin...

slippery nipple and singapore sling on friday night, with stuffy cubicle, nice sofa, but no menu. bestfrens always.

bungee jumping trip with besfren SOON. our birthday prezzies. =>

"i'm sorry, i'm like a walking piece of fungus."

"then can u grow on me??"


cheesy. so cheesy. but i like. =>



y does she appear every single time i disappear???? what is her problem???!!!!!



on leaving:
i'm afraid to leave. so afraid.
afraid of yinsiu leaving too.

on Her:
thot she was nice. but she wields a knife- to tighten her r'ship to the clique.
and she should stop pestering my friend.
somehow my view of her changed overnight, after i knew.
i was defending her earlier.

on shopping:
JB tomorrow.

on birthdays:
bungee jumping before i turn 19??

on exercise:
i really can't be bothered.. i'm too lazy.
the whole world, including my gramma (who always thot i was not fat enough..) noticed that i'm growing... bigger.

on emotions:
hate tears. hate quarrels. hate confrontations.

on sheryl:
i miss her. and she only disappeared for 3 days..... =/

on xinyu:
*stares at my wet eyes* "ni bu yao geng wo ku hor!!" (translation: you don cry hor!!)

on cliff:
it's been 4 months. seems more like 4 years.

Ripped this off an email....


Think about this. You may not realize it, but it's100% true.

1. At least 2 people in this world love you so muchthey would die for you.

2. At least 15 people in this world love you in someway.

3. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone,even if they don't like you.

4. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before theygo to sleep.

5. You mean the world to someone.

6. If not for you, someone may not be living.

7. You are special and unique.

8. When you make the biggest mistake ever, somethinggood can stillcome from it.

9. When you think the world has turned its back onyou, take a look:you most likely turned your back on the world.

10. Someone that you don't even know exists loves you.

11. Always remember the compliments you received.Forget about the rude remarks.

12. Always tell someone how you feel about them; youwill feel much better when they know and you'll bothbe happy.

13. If you have a great friend, take the time to let them know that they are great.

i'm the saddest person on earth. cliff's phone just died. the top row buttons wont work. i cant use the phone at all!!!!!!!!!!!!

omigoshomigoshomigosh!!!!!!!!!!!

shortlisted!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! never been so pleased to hear that. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

just got more good news: sher got accepted to SMU!!!!!

anyway. pink party went VERYVERY well. => the balloons kept bursting at first.. haha. we build this huge tent outside to hide all the balloons and yinsiu din guess a single thing!!! hahahaa. wildwildwet was ok only.. cos there was like only 5 or 6 rides... but still.. lovely company made the 3 days fantaasic!!! i love my girls!!!!!!!!!!!!

i was eating throughout the whole first day. *beams* i NEVER STOPPED! crackers and biscuits and apples and seaweed and campbell and beehoon and salad and chocolate and sweets and garlic bread and dessert... and.... cant remember. but i was hungry all day!! hee. =>

ohoh. pink room was DAMN pretty!!!! filled with pink and white balloons and streamers and love!! haha. and there was a lil' boy slave(thanks all e same, stranger =>) volunteering to do stuff for us, which ended up in him cooking, and us siting down n eating. haha. ohohoh!! i made the fire!! and it was a super nice fire!!! and i had a really pretty girl to help me with the charcoal!!! right yinsiu?? -grin-

went on ular-lah 6 times- to get the perfect picture!! hahahaa. all the life guards more or less knew us; wobbly fats, loud laughter and all. =>

sher, xinyu n me went back to the aquarium to swim and tan after going home to put our stuff down. haha. it's nice knowing how fishes feel like... swimming ard in tanks and watching ppl go by below. lol. took lotsa pictures in e aquarium too. => 5 lil fishies bobbing around.. and did i mention how mr nice-lifeguard helped xinyu put her top on the deck chair??? haha. i like what you did, you go girl!!!!!!!

More good news!!! the spice girls are making a come back next year for their 10th anniversary!!!!! *SCREAMS* all e closet/ex/current spice girls fans..... did u hear that????? they're coming back!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! they're coming back to spice up your life!!!!

anw. back to my wonderful 3 days. made xinyu n weiying n chay bring yinsiu around whilst sher n me did up the room.. then later xinyu came back and the 3 of us continued doing up e room.. took some pictures with our beautiful crowns..... =D then got ready for yinsiu to come back =>

i really wonder when we can have another get together like this.... with everyone staying together.... singing songs late at night.. keeping each other up till we all fell asleep finally.. putting up with my crankiness cos i din have enough slp- i apologise if i offended you, i'm sorry!.. but deep inside i love you all soooooooo much. it's gonna get tougher; no more hanging out cos we're on a different track.. but we'll work things out.. and we'll be friends always and forever, whichever is longer, yea??

someone asked me,"you've been hanging out with the same group for so long, don't you get bored?" nope. i don't. love them more as each day passes.. can't get enough of their madness, laughter, fun, idiosyncracies, just every thing about them la. yupyup. i love these girls... lots and lots. and i believe they can never be replaced. we're all gonna get married, have kids, and still know each other.. we can be god-ma's to each other's kids... and between us, there'll be at least 20 kids!! make sure u guys get rich k... cos i want 5 kids and u guys gotta give them all big angbaos during new year!!! hahahahah!!!! all our kids will be friends with each other, and we can have our own tuan yuan fan!!!! wheeeeee!!!!!!!!! and we'd get old together, shed tears of happiness when our daughters get their first periods, fail their first chinese test, graduate, go for their first prom, get married, have kids...... and be grandmothers together!!!!!!!! a lil' far-fetched??? i don't think so. this is my dream for us girls. =>

i like my purple nails.


waiting for my purple nails to dry........



i rmb being called a slut for going out with a not-so-good-looking guy once. haha. weird. i found him quite cute. but that's not the point. y am i a slut if i go out with i not-so-good-looking guy???





life's not fair. i wish i were a rich kid. it's not so much fun being a rich adult.... i just wanna be a rich kid, like NOW! haha. will tell y'all y when i get back. heh. (obviously, if i were a rich kid i can blog from wherever i'm going and you don't have to wait till i'm back to find out why being a rich kid is so much more fun than being a rich adult. but that dosent mean i don wanna be a rich adult!!)




hi cliff!!!! => i'll see you in two days!! i hope i manage to do what i plan to do tmr morning.. which is to meet you and company you to work.but i'm afraid i can't get up... all the same, i'm gonna try my very best k???? if i manage, then good.. i'll see you in a few hours time.. if i don't....... well... i'll see you in more than a few hours time!! => heh. take care baby. it's been nice seeing you everyday for the past 27 days.. love ya!!!




favourite girlfriends?? i love staying with you guys sooooo much!! haha. erm... the two skinny ones please share a bed. so that the rest of us can enjoy!!! hahahahahaa!!!!!

waiting for xinyu to get her hair done... i'm bored to tears already and she's only just started!!!

today's audi is my favourite so far... act annoying, then act annoyed. two things i'm very familiar with!! =>

told Mr bestie everything yesterday... and he still wants me for a bestie!!! YEH!!!!! haha. but it's nice, having no secrets from him once more... the past five months were terrible!! wanting to bitch bout everything but having to restrain myself... lalala. it's all over. so no need to fret anymore!! haha.

i gotta go download hello again... so that i can post photos... i miss posting photos!!!!! photos of me, myself, and i!!! haha. i fee like shaving off my eyebrows, and piercing my you-know-where. but since i cant flash my piercing on my you-know-where, they told me that i can just claim to have pierced it!! haha. but... so poseur!!!!! lolol. i'm mad. and crap. but i still feel like piercing my you-know-where, just for the fun of it!! muahahahahaaa!!! i have been sooooo fascinated with you-know-where piercings ever since i met you-know-who 2 years ago!! haha.

i think my girlfriends can guess where is you-know-where.... as for you-know-who, happy guessing!! hahaa. tho it's quite easy also. ARGH!!! i am sooooooo crap!

met cliff for... erm... well.... a short meeting just now.. lol. he was having lunch with his colleague so i just joined him.. i'm sorry i'm so dao!!!!! sorry laaaaa................ =/ i love yoU!!!! =D

and now i'm waiting for miss toh to get her hairdone. boredboredbored.

but at least i have his to do. haha. imagine if i blogged non stop for an hour!! -faint-

i'm eagerly anticipating next tue, wed n thurs!!!!!! it's gonna be three whole days of fun, laughter, sand, surf, love, happiness, friends, suprises.... for a minimum cost of only $60!! i like!!! hahahaa!!

i think i should hurry go enroll for my uni. i know i can get in.. just maybe they may run outta places... but.... i'm really scared... so i'm procrastinating. so me. always leaving things till last minute... naughty shit.. =/ i'll do it soon la. SOON. S O O N.....................

i wonder what Mr Cliff is doing now... MISS ME K!!!!!!!!!!! hahahahahaa
have been seeing you every single day since the day i came back.. you know what?? i'm loving it!!! and i really like being able to see you every single day. it's nice. i like to look at you. stare at you. call you for fun. but i'm sorry i can never notice the difference in your hair... i promise i'll try!!!! btu i think i'm not gonna be very good at it... but still, i'll try!!!! i wanna club with you baby!! hehe. i miss you =>

i wonder what xinyu is doing. but i'm too lazy to leave this comfy chair to go check. heh. i'm lazy!! so? sue me.

was supposed to meet esta last week.. then i dragged till this week.. and now, this week is almost over. i really suck don't i?? sorry est.... i promise!!! soon.. cos i know you have a new boy and i wanna know all bout him!!! haha. -hugg-

so bored. think i might attempt to change my blog skin. i THINK.

i'm a slacker. i'm a bum. i'm a lazy shit. i'm not schooling. i'm not working. i am not making any effort to change any of these things. i have not applied for any local uni. i have not applied for any overseas uni. i am just spending my time sleeping away and bumming around. occasionally, i cook dinner for my mom n my boyfriend. then i watch some vcds, read some books, attempt to get online, talk on the phone, sit in the toilet, attempt to exercise, then i go back to sleep.

waste of life.

hmmm..... been a happy girl for a very long timee........

got my loving boy/girlfriends in my life.. i love these people soooooooooo much!! =>

xinyu, sheryl n the others went down to indochine last saturday.. (it's gd.. cos i promised that i'll rent the place for her birthday once i had the money so that she can attend an official party there.... and obviously i cant afford it now.. haha.) then i thought of how bloody long it's been since we started clubbing ard 16??... when SOS just opened.. and i remember several fiascos that occured there.. haha. (those who knows what happened, knows it. those who dont, it's good. lol.) those were the days.... and i must admit, we've mellowed like, sooooooooo much since then!!! haha. RIGHT XINYU??? RIGHT SHERYL??? RIGHT GINNY???? RIGHT LINDERR????? hahahahhaa. =X we're all good girls now.... => gee... that was really long ago... 3 years i think..... hmmm. and i'm so old now. yuck. i rmb the bartender AAron(inside joke=D) who dished out the free drinks... the bouncer whatshisname who let xinyu in, clad in spag top, surf shorts n flipflops... lolol.. n.... who else... hmmm. oh. the nice big round cushions that i could sleep on!!!! haha. I MISS SOS!!!!!!!!!

and now...... well.... no more SOS... but still, there is zouk and chinablack... and nice mr bouncer who lets us in free sometimes, and lets us cut the queue on ladies night..... hmmm. life is still good. => heh. GIN!!! WHEN U CLUBBING WITH US AGAIN?????? i miss the whole gang!!! haha.

hmmm. i need a job... cos i'm so bored my ass is getting mouldy. meanwhile.. i think i'm gonna work on my greek.. =/

can u believe how fucked up my com is?????
BOO.!!!!


i love my baby!!!!! =D


n i love my girlies!!!!!!!!!!!

hi... -waves-

i'm back!!! yeh!!!!

my two favourite girls were at the airport at 4am in the morning to pick me up despite me telling them that i can go home alone n it was too darn early to pick anyone up. they even made welcome home posters for meee!!!!!!!!!! i love them sooooooo much. hehe. such sweet natured girls, yet behind all that sweetness that i love is lotsa bitchiness too. wahahhaha. my favourite bitches. haha.

and then, i went out with my wonderful boyfriend that night to eat very nice chee cheong fun. haha. yumyumyum!!! lalala. oh. cliff passed his driving. hehe. CLIFF PASSED HIS DRIVING!!!!! YEH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hee. omigosh. i am soooooooooo happy for himm!!!!!!!!!!!! *jumps ard the room*

he's here. heh. will blog later. =>

BEST FREN!!!!!!!!! WO HAO XIANG NI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WO YAO GENG NI YI QI ZOU BIAN TIAN YA HAI JIAO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WO YAO GENG NI YI QI QU XIANG GANG, MEI GUO, O ZOU, AW ZOU, DUBAI SHOP DAO SIAO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

WO HAI YAO GENG NI YI QI QU CHI HAO LIAO. YOU SHE ME JIU CHI SHE ME, CHI DAO LIANG GE BIAN CHENG DA FEI ZHU, ZAI YI QI QU MARIE FRANCE BODYLINE JIAN FEI, SHOU SHEN!!! RAN HOU ZAI QU CHI HAO LIAO!!!!!!!

HAO XIANG HAO XIANG..... HAO XIANG HUI JIA....... =<

the beach yesterday was a lovely affair.
the interview was a hoax.
the intercontinental seems ok i suppose.
the girl misses her friends and boyfriend. and misses doing nothing with them.

oooo. jittersjitters. got interview tmr.... =/

went shopping for shoes just now cos my white heels don make the cut... my suit is black!!! haha. so... yup... got black heels now.. and it cost a bomb!!! tsktsk. badbadgirl.........

it's early in the morning- at 11am... which is about 9am sg time... which means i gotta wake up around..... 7???? 7am sg. argh. i'm so gonna die!!!!! lol.

wonder how sheryl's interview went.... what did u wear??? hmmm. haha. i might be wearing my guest relations uniform.. =/

went down to the school in manly today and it was GORGEOUS!!!!! like totally wowowowoww!!! but the fees were extreneky wow too. about $1000 a week........... let's focus on the school. it's sooooooo beautiful!!! it's a magnficent old building- harry potter style, and about harry potter size too or bigger. and the view is lovely!!! it's sooooooooo perfect. i wanna buy the whole place, then bring up my brood of kids there!!!! haha.

i miss mr boyfriend. 5 days to go!!! yeh!!!!! baby, let's go to grape vine k???? i miss that place!!!!!! haha. den let's stay home for the rest of the time and watch VCDs. => sounds lovely. and we take turn to poison each other with our cooking k?? hee. love u baby. =>

*sniff* hmmm. it's bedtime here.. => i'm walking ard the house in purple and black striped tights. They're so hideous i *sniff* love them. cant wait for helloween!!!!! lalalaaa..... suddenly regret not getting the black tights with gold *ah-chooooo!!* webs on them.. hmmmmm...*sniffsniff*

just got mom to find my certs for me.. so i'll prolly be sleep*sniff*ing soon.... after i call my dearest of cos. =D

sheryl n mandy, i'll do *sniff*up a tag board or comment board when i get back k??? sorry!!! *sniff* hee. i'm soooooooo sleepy. and sick. i'm ah-chooo-ing. that's not a good sign.. i wanna*sniff* shooopppppppp!!!!!!!!!!

just a lil' cassan nonsense.

eating = happy
eating alot = very happy
exercise = hardwork
no exercise = weight gain
eating alot + no exercise = extreme weight gain
extreme weight gain = fat

recently, i have been very happy, and i did not do any hardwork at all.

therefore, i am a fat and very happy.

i'd rather be fat and very happy, then skinny and sad. hee.
since i've been with cliff, i have been eating alot. =D



k la. k la. i know i'm full of crap laaaa.
bleah.
but u still love me right??? (question posted to my girlfriends and boyfriend)

oh! i wonder how's bestie andy the current baldie. => it rhymes!!!!!!!!
i miss andy the bald bestie. hahahahhaaa.

boo. i need a freakin resume. I FORGOT HOW TO WRITE RESUMES!!!!I HAVE NO IDEA WHATSOEVER HOW TO WRITE A RESUME!!!! blah. xinyu...... help??

aned i left my JC testimonial and result slip in singapore!!!!!! -bang head- not that the result slip will help in any way... but my testimonial was good k!!! sigh. dumb blonde.

anw, mr boyfriend seems to be enjoying his job.. he gets to surf the net... go to the gym during lunch.... sounds nice.. haha. i shall get an office job when i come back to company him!!! we can go to work together in the morning, then meet for dinner after work!!! yeh!!!! wait.... i think i prefer staying home. then i can cook dinner for him!!!! woohoo!!!! haha.sorry baby, i'm going mad. i have one whole list of what i wanna cook for u when i come back already... =>

oh. i think this is a good time to announce to the world that i have put in 4kg so far... SHERYL!!!!!!! we need to diet together!!! lolol. but i'm still happily eating my nutella every day before dinner... and after dinner i got my butterscotch icecream and butterscotch liqueor(did i get the spelling right??). tat butterscotch liqueor tastes soooo damn god. bittersweet and fattening! hahaa.. rockmelon vodka for breakfast... xinyu!!!! sheryl!!!!! see what u're missing out on???? hahahhaaa... but at least u're not getting fat here. -sulks-

oh. i learnt how to make jam. i shall make my own strawberry jam when i come back!! lalalalaaa....

erm.... cliffydear?? i really have not found anything for u....... =/ neither have i found anything for the cygnus girls... (boys don need presents. =D) shall not gie up.. shall continue intense shopping!! haha. hope i get results this time..

i miss my boyfriend... miss seeing him and miss talking to him n miss looking at him and miss holding his hand and miss stoning with him....

miss the girls... just miss them. =>

went down to a school yesterday... sounds quite good... but i'm still waiting to get an interview with the intercontinental.. going down to manly tomorrow to look at another school... =< boring!!!!!! hah.

it's freaking cold today.... was raining last night and now my nose is dripping... my fingers are freezing... oh mandy?? sorry- not much bikinis... cos it's mostly winter clothes now... can u believe that the shop i went to din even carry slippers/thongs anymore??? sigh. it's mostly boots and warm fuzzy bedroom slippers. I WANT MY UGG BOOTS!!!!!!!!!

i love supre. so much. =>

but not as much as i love my boyfriend. and my girlfriends.

please continue missing me, will be back soon!!!!!! -MUACKX-

PS. the beach is W O N D E R F U L!!!!!!!!!

hello.. i finally managed to find my way here.. the buttons weren't working properly but well.. i finally manged to get on anyway..

watching million dollar baby for the second time.. each time i see her get that final blow, i wish that the stool wasnt there, she din get hit, she lived and blablabla...... i just hate the ending of the story. i hate the way a fighter dies. it's just not fair at all. argh. and so utterly cruel and heart-wrenching. but there are saving graces i guess; the way a girl finds a father who loves her as he would love his own daughter. that was nice. her acting is damn good. the storyline is devasating.... yet so touching.

i don hate it here. in fact, i love it. i'm spoilt for choices for my bedroom. the one in the attic with the view of my future pool (which is not gonna be a tiny affair), or the one below the living room with the view of the ocean, a balcony, and if i bother to try, i can probably get the entire level to myself as well which will be damn nice. the down side of the room in the attic is that my room is the same size as my dad's toilet. it's not that my room is small- my room is normal size, with my own toilet n all... BUT. his toilet is at least twice the size of a normal toilet. yea. with a huge spa bath tub and all.. life is not fair. i want the master room-it has everything that i want.

reasons y i don like it? simple. i feel like the odd piece of a jigsaw puzzle that can't fit in. two is company but three is none.. no matter how hard everyone tries, i'll still feel weird. maybe if u let me transport all the ppl i love over.. den it'll be good. it'll be like bringing along my box of jigsaw- the box where i came from, and i'll fit happily into the picture.

i miss my girls and my boys and my boyfriend.

went to flemington markets today and it was huge- took like 4 hours to comb the whole place.. then the fruits were going cheap so we got a carton of rockmelons at $4. if i come back looking round and orange like a rockmelon, please continue being my friend?? i'm still the same inside you know.. =>
got quite a lot of shopping done there.. i wanna get my ugg boots tho. and the shirtdress, and hot pink tights and i'll wear the whole ensemble together and look hideously lovely. haha. i'm gonna get knee-high tights for the girls!!! xinyu:rmb sff??? haha. those horrible stockings.. lolol. i like!!

i don't miss shopping in singapore- been shopping there all my life.

sheryl, u'll like to hear this- u know the markets i went to today sold puppies as well?? they were tiny lil things that were sooooooooo cute!!!! u would have drooled over them.. i did. =D~ really cutesy lil things that ran around your legs, and you could pick them up and carry them and cuddle them.... sigh. i want a dog!!!!!

the flight here was alright.. there was something really stinky.. and after awhile, i realised that the smell came from the man sitting next to me- he has smelly feet!!! HORRIBLE! argh. the food was good tho.. beef country pie, icecream, and chicken and beef kebab. i loved the kabab. the service wasn't the best tho.. i still like singapore airlines the most. hahaha!!!

it's bedtime... 11pm here now... bbl! *muackx*

boo. in about 24 hours i'll be somewhere above the seas... in between here n down under. i miss cliff already. don miss he girls ye.. cos they're still in my room..

going there all alone. i know i'm gonna cry like mad on e plane.. i can feel it. really hope xinyu n sheryl can fly down next week man.... sigh.

had a great lunch today.. at mandarin.. i love xinyu.

met sheryl. took pictures... i love sheryl too.

met cygnus ppl... ate a little.. crapped alot.. laughed loads.. love them too.

had mushroom soup for supper, courtesy of my boyfriend (he's a GREAT cook!!).. i LOVE MY BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


yea. cliff?? reading this??? i miss u already. so veryvery much dear.. sigh. -hughug-

yinsiu n weiying coming down to send me off tmr.. they say it's a rehearsal.. lolx. but i love u too dearies.

lovelove- ppl who know me n know cliff n read this, please do me a favour?? take care of my darling for me. thank you. so much. =>

Fine.Thanx for info sher.. Sed finally has a girlfriend. one less eligible male for the eligible females out there.. on the bright side.. he can finally stop asking us to intro girls!!!!! hahahahaaa!!

i'm soooooo looking forward to goodwood park tmr!!! thanx for finding the place xinyu.. and thanx for lending ur cam as well.. what will i do without u??

did u know? my best friend, miss toh xinyu, proudly stuffed one of her thicker jackets into my bag the other day... "it's cold in australia, u'll need it!" awwwwww........ so sweet. i must have been an extremely nice person in my past life, that's why i got rewarded with such a darling friend in this life!!! haha. i love you dear.

i am planning to take lotsa toothbrushes and shavers from the airplane. i love all these disposable stuff. they make me soooooo happy!! haha. plus it's convenient- use finish, throw.

i missed PA soooo much. went down with cliff's parents last thurs.. all 3 of us were trying to spot cliff when the ppl marched out.. but guess what? we couldnt.. cos they all looked the same!!!! hahaha. all blue. then i got out of my seat and ran to the middle to try my luck... was about to give up when i spotted someone's head moving. hahahaha. that idiot!!! brought his mom o see him and he stuck his tongue out at her.. lol. he looks good in his uniform- i like =>

dinner with my cygnus darlings tmr... meeting them at suntec..... it's like, i wanna see the whole world before i leave. madness. but i don care. i wanna see them. => it's gonna be a great day!

and i'm gonna try and enable messages... so that sheryl can type here instead of in her blog.. and to make mandy happy. damn i'm nice! (i'm just hoping that i'll get friends as great as these again in my next life!!)

boo.... i HATE baking cookies. i just can't do it..
cooking lessons anyone??
i wanna learn chinese cuisine.. and how to bake cakes and such. =>
(next time can save money.. just give a birthday cake as present! muahahaa!!)

xinyu, sheryl... i promise that i will bake u guys a cake.. sometime in my life... and after that.. i will learn how to bake famous-amos like cookies!!! current standard is around famous anus i think.. heh. =x but still, it has our sweat and love and effort in it!!! (ok fine.. towards the end only two of u.. heh.)

and thanx so much for counting stars with for me.. hehe. i donno what i'd do without you two pretty ladies!!!



i was browsing thru friendster... saw horrible photos that shocked the fats outta me. shall not mention who and what and why... but after seeing those photos, i was so traumatised that i kept eating n eating n eating....... and now, all the fats that were shocked outta me have been gained back. sadsEd case.

speaking of which.. i wonder what happened to super handsome friend, SED.
i wonder if he reads my blog.. no.. i don't think so.. he is too i-donno-what to read blogs..



i remember the day when eugene told me he dosen't club anymore cos he turned christian. my jaws dropped. i couldn't believe he could just give up clubbing like that.. i mean, i have seen that guy!!! when he swivels his hips he is HOT! plus the fact that he is tall and cute (tho the last time i saw him he had some not-so-cute pimples on his chin.. PS. oxy has some new blemish gel that looks quite good!!)..

that was quite a significant blow to me.

THEN. yinsiu started clubbing less...... and less......... and suddenly stopped. guess what? "cos i'm a christian...." grrrrr. yinsiu is like hot mamma on the dance floor laaaa....... she is like, MADE for dancing man!!! seriously!! it comes so naturally to her even when she's doing techno!! sigh. my heart broke. fine. so i was pissed. how can u give up dancing, enjoying urself, having fun, relaxing... for your religion?


just now i got another heart attack. weiying is going for cell group meetings?? like HUHHUHHUH????????????? what is happening to the world???? WHAT IS HAPPENING TO MY FRIENDS???? i heard the girls looking at a cross and saying they should get it for weiying.. i dismissed it as a cross can be just an accessory.. then when i heard she had cell group tmr...........

that was not the final blow.

final blow came when sheryl said that she might be going for cell group with weiying and yinsiu tmr. seriously... xinyu, pls don't do the same to me.. i don't think i will be able to take it. is it like the current trend or something??? y u guys? y so sudden??? so.........weird. i love you all.. but i need time to accept it.

just one warning: don't try whatever tricks they tried on you, on me.




sigh. and another thing........ sheryl and weiying, please do not ostracize clubbing.. u'll hurt the club's feelings.. and mine.. =<







and cliff is still not here. grrr.

from a frequent blogger, i now blog like so frickkin little. blah. whose fault? my com. argh. i don like my com. i got sooo many issues to tackle!

like.... how all the mediacorp artists are giving birth/getin pregnant together.. it's making me sick to read how many of them have given birth and how many weird names they're coming up with to embarass their kids.

it is sooooo mad!!! like ritz, regent and raffles?? i know u'll never get to own these hotels, but it dosent mean u should name ur kids after them!! spare a thought for them!!! giving them classy names dosent ensure they'll grow up with class u know??

and brayden??? i can just hear the kids calling "here come the donkey!! braaaayyyy!!!! braaaayy!!!" and the reply.."don luff at me hor!! i ell my marmee den u noe arh!! my marmee will sueee u arh!!"

beckham??? i pray he grows to to be at least decently looking else woe betide the not-so-handsome boy named after the quite-good-looking footballer.

many more names to go actually.. and anyone noticed this week's 8days?? i thot it was fann wong with a baby. turned out to be liln with frizzy hair and her baby in christian dior, biting a tiffany's rattle, hair styled by david gan. like wow. the lil thing is only a kid. i hope she dosen't grow up to be a brat. tho i'd be one damn proud kid if i were sage cadence wu- my mom's a babe n dad's a hunk. just that i wont really enjoy being named after a spice.. but it's still better than being named after a hotel.

read The Newpaper today, and saw that christopher lee FINALLY admited to being together with fann. i'm happy for them. really. it's nice they finally came out in the open.. and i think they look great together.. but seriously.. fann should just hurry get married n have kids soon.. she's geting old... i've been looking at her since i was like... 10?? that's like 9 years ago!! if she dosen't hurry and catch up.. she's gonna be an old mama..

xinyu poined this out... all the artists kids will grow up together, prolly fall in like and in love and get married to each other and it will become ONE BIG HAPPY FAMILY. how perfectly disgusting.



next.
last weekend, i was working at a certain roadshow and giving out pamphlets.. and guess what?? i got snubbed by a maid!!! i politely, smilingly, nicely greeted her with a "hi mdm, would u like to take a look?" and she rolled her eyes and brushed past me!!! i know u're a maid. i know u get ordered around the entire week. but still u don't have to do that to me!!! bitch.

this goes out to all the idiots who nodded when i said the exact same line to them, then walked away without taking the pamphlet. don't u know what u're doing u morons???? u bloddy nodded, which meant yes, u'd take a look, then u walk off. how moronic can u get?!!!!

and to those kiasu ppl.. who snubbed me and declined a pamphlet till i said "inside got discount voucher..". u should have seen the change in her expression. she grabbed one eagerly, showed her friends, then turned back to ask for more.

b l a h .

how perfectly annoying.

and the bloody tua pek kong. or tua pek lan as i like to address her. who happily sat at the counter and refused to move her fat ass till she wanted to go touch up her make up, do her hair or go for a break. u're working!!!! and part of ur job include moving ur fat ass ard! grrrr.

and to the skinny black fishnets. before asking me to return "your" pen-the pen u found on the floor- look carefully!! the pen has MY name on it! u thief!! i don believe u din know that pen was mine. like fuck! u borrowed it so many times from me! noone else was using that same pen! and what's your prob anyway?? how many road show's have u worked at? and it's not your first day at work, it's your fourth!!! don't you know how to bring your own pen???? and sop stealing my customers and writing down their purchases as yours, I made those sales skinny!






1 day left till his POP. don't have to wait till weekends to meet him anymore.

*note to self*
must discuss chalet soooon!!!!!!! -grin-

i love my bestfren. she lets me bite her once in a blue moon when the cannibal in me aches to surface. at other times, i love her simply for being her.

i love sheryl. she lets me pig out on keropok on her sofa, and i lvoe the fact that she cut her lovely hair off!! (i like to think that she did that to make me less jealous of her lovely hair, tho i never told her. now u know!!)

i love gracie. she just offered to do a brazillian for me for $20. but forget it dear, u're not coming near meeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!

i love weiying. cos she usually agrees to go swim with me early in e morning but she's gonna cu her hair tmr so i shan't bother asking.

i love yinsiu. i love her brownish cuduroy jacket n i donno what i'd do if she hadn't lent me cash in genting!!! i'd cry cos i cant shop!!!!

i love my boyfriend. he spent his last $2 on a rose for me. =D




my house has been invaded by ants. Y U C K.

i wanna go swim. i need a diet. i think i should start exercising. i'm tempted to buy a return ticket to aussie with my meagre savings then make my dad get me a new phone. i want a brazillian. i haven seen nini n nana for ages. i miss my handphone. i want all my numbers back. my dearest boyfriend has sweetly lent me his phone. i wanna get quick money. i need to save up n spend all at the same time. i miss the messages in my phone. cliffcliffcliffcliffcliffcliffcliff. where is xinyu i need to bitch. EMBEMBEMB!! i wanna go out but i don have the money. i wanna get a new com new laptop new bed new wardrobe new house. i constantly think of japan n disneyland wth my girlfriends. i wanna go back to genting. i miss andy n i lost his number. andy if u read this pls message me, your bestie, like asap. i hope eugene dosent have to wear a helmet anymore so his chin wont have so many pimples.

ok.. that's all i can think of for now. cliff should be in dreamland, i think xinyu is sleeping too.. i should go meet them soon.. then get on with applications tommorow.

btw, SUPPORT LINDERRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
LINDERRRRR FOR MISS SINGAPORE UNIVERSE 2005!!!!!!

WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.................... i FINALLY got onto blogger. i forgot my password. =x
anw, been workin he past 10 days, so busy, so shagged that i forgot how to live. i like my colleagues tho.. =>

i LOVE cocoa tree chocolates!!!!!!!!!!! they're like the best thing ever invented!!! of cos, i still love dove amicelli and toffifee!! hehe. been eating bread like every single day n every single meal...

oh. i lost my phone again. hink some customer took it. LIKE WHY THE FUCK U WANT SUCH AN OLD MODEL FOR MAN??!!!!!!!! c*** b**.

gonna get my sim card later... will be using my baby's phone for a while.. he spoils me too much. i like. =>

erm.... ok. the end. i donno what else to say la.... needa get a good shit.

OHOHOH!!!! i loved genting!!! hahahahaa... let's go again soon k???? i wanna eat dimsum!!!! hahahahaa!!!!!! ohohoh! we can be e dimsum dollies!! hahahaha. -muackx- love u girls!!

the good news is that i had alot to say.
tthe bad news is that i tried to post it without connecting to the com.

bah.


anw, main points:

how does one make oneself look older????

i am going shopping in aussie after 20mar.

mandy, yanjun, stef(in the order that i saw them in town) and me shld meet up soon instead of only bumping into each other. =>

linda is one of the top25 finalists for miss singapore universe. SUPPORT LINDAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!
you go girl!!!!!

last night was disastrous... coupled with my DMS was castastophic.
but in the end, all was well. so i gotta tell the world that i'm happy like a crabbycrab again. haha..
What's my favourite moment? sitting in kopitiam at 2+ in the morning, staring at the reflection.=>

i'm home alone. =<

but it's not too bad... had great company earlier....
and i got a rose!!!! a very nice big fat lovely rose!! -grin-
nice way of giving it to me.. he told me to stick my head in his bag.
but anyway...... sooo sweeeetttt!!!!!!!!!!!! i love my rose. haha. it kept me grinning for quite a while.. and it totally made my day.=D

dragon. DRA GON!!! i don do the tongue thing!!! =>

i have found my latest love - mulan.

Valentines day was great... somehow.


Sheryl:

Always rmb- u, xinyu, me.. always and forever, whichever is longer.
cos this trio has to be stuck together!!! yupyup!! EMBs and gyming and window shopping till we drop! not forgetting the SSG!! which u two idiots have dropped out off.... =<>), and of very similar height n weight!!! hahahahahaa!!!!!! btw, i always hated ur hair. it's damn smooth n silky n long n not damaged n straight!!! life's not fair!!!! haha. love ya!!! always here for u!!! =>



Soohui:

How come i only get to see u like, once in a million years??? HUH????? hahaa.... don worry la... can NEVER EVER forget u!! and ur ways. lol... ^5!! but this being a v-day greeting, i hope u and elson get married soon. we all wanna be bridesmaid!!!!



The rest of the girls; Weiying, Shimin, Yinsiu:

Yinsiu, i'm still not used to calling u jane. heh. and i wish u'd just continue clubbing laaa..... *point middle finger* haha...
Weiying, it's always nice swimming with u. hahahaa... tanning buds!!! lol.... always tanning and getting roasted together... lol.... but let's go swim again sooN!!! i enjoyed our v-day out together... hope u did too!!!
Shimin, ur blurness is soooo cute!! haha... all e best in ur tests this week.... OH!! n all the best in ur love life too!!! haha...

To the qi jie mei, let's stick together n not lose contact k??????




i'll save the rest of my speech for when i leave. too lazy to type now. it's hot n humid and i'm sweating. (yes, sweating, cos i'm a pig. =>)



the porridge is happy to see you!!!






last night is black was..... an eye opener.
totally utterly disgusting, yet i can' t take my eyes of it. =/

i declare myself the luckiest girl around. =D

reasons are as follows:
#1 i had 2 pre-valentine celebrations.
#2 he planned everything, and gave me the sweetest valentine's day ever!
#3 he cooks for me every sunday =>
#4 he made chocolate chip cookies for me!!!!!
#5 he made me a card; 10 pages of words, 8 pages of drawings.
#6 he likes me as i am. (fat, attitude problem, emotionless, senseless, weird etc... )
#7 he is frank, straighforward, and honest. impt!!!
#8 i have him.
#9 I HAVE HIM!!!!!

ok... lots more reasons.... no stamina to list them. but i've been a happy kid for a longlonglong while!!!

i declare that Cliff is the sweetest guy ever =>




can u believe that both of us actually forgot what was the first movie we watched together??? guess who rmbed? xinyu. lolol.... i had to ask if she knew.. and after awhile.. she was like... "i know!! guo bao!!!! " national treasure. haha. now we know... we were racking our brains trying to think of it la........... =x 2 heck-care and extremely forgetful ppl...... =D


i like the guy. really. lots. lots n lots!!



i'm spending v-day with the girls.... booked the place already... =>
gonna be a good food and mageurita filled night.. not forgetting the romantic lesbianic conversations..... hahahahhahaaa.






To my laopo of 6 years+, Miss Toh Xinyu:


Through quarrels and squabbles and cold wars and wanting to slap each others and wanting to hate each others and other childish shits..

Through the knowledge that you've been there and you'll be there though i was a selfish single-minded, blinded, heartless, ignorant bitch..

Through the knowledge that though sometimes i wanna kick u off the building and push you down the stairs yet deep down i cannot imagine a life without you..

Through the knowledge that sometimes i know you wanna pull my hair and bang my head against the wall and throw me off the building cos i so deserve it yet u held ur actions..

Through the times we made up that always made me cry or tear and the messages so sweet and heart-warming that you sent..

Through EMBs and sms-ing across the table and reading each other's minds sometimes and eyeing up the same ppl and thinking the same thing bout the ppl we're eyeing..

Through clubbing and dancing and drinking and making friends with bouncers and bartenders and planning to kick ppl off the podium..

Through the times when i'm moody and u'd just let me simmer and the times when i'm mad and u'd laugh with me and the times when i fall and u'd check if i'm ok then laugh at me and the times when i'm just me and u're just u and we're just enjoying each other's presense..

Through the times when we'd get each other at least 50% similar items for birthday presents and have the same idea for gifts and suprises and put in the effort to make each other feel special and happy on our special days which are just 2 days apart..

Through the sleepovers and attempts to lose weight and attempts to do lotsa things and our similar want to own a hotel...

Through the times when we were ugly and unkempt pre-teens and the times when we tried to be more feminine and the times when we'd go out and u'd agree to eat good food with me..

Through the baggy jeans and the discovering of delapitory creams and shaving and waxing and epilating and the spag tops and halters and tubes and the bellbottom jeans and the knee length denim skirts and the mid-thigh length skirts..

Through the moments we'd sit and talk and decide that our kids should know each other and we should discipline each other's kids and that we'd be old grannies drinking tea together and show our kids and grandkids all our neoprints taken when we were young and wrinkle-free..

Through the tears and the joy and the bitter moments and the sweet moments and the fears and the secrets and the gossips and the bitchings and the crushes and the loves..

I never regretted the day we walked around the parade square looking at the stalls the classes decorated for home coming... it was around 6pm i think.. it was the day you entered my life.
I will never regret that day.

Thank you so much for everything best friend, know that i love you.

It's been 6 years and counting... Happy Valentine's Day 2005...

boo...... gong xi fa cai!!!!!

my tarts came out weirdly nice. haha. weird cos tho it's not fantastic, it makes me happy when i look at it, and when i eat it, i feel even happier!!! lalalaaa....

sigh.... walked till my legs broke ytd, still cant find what i was looking for. grrrrr.

got so much to lament, but no mood.. hahaa.... so.... i'll be back in a few days. =>

*cross fingers*
hope tarts turn out ok.......

clubbing on wed, eating spree on tues.

so weird last night.. but i like drinking. =>
took pictures with weird strangers too.. haha...
damn! sheryl got a REEEAAAAAL cute guy!! hahahaa. i thot he was some old uncle.. den when he turn ard, woah! hahaha..
then on the dance floor, there was a eeuuccchh!!! some one brought their daddy along!! haha.. k la.. i know ppl at all age club... =/ but...... it was just a shock la...
then xinyu n mr bouncer! haha. made new frenz.. gd on ya! heh..
take care of ur eye girl... -hug-
and take care of urself sher.. -hug-



i LURVE food.
so much.


anw, anyone has any idea how to use multiply??
cos i don. heh.

ugh.

i just heard cannon in D get butchered on tv.








i need to change my template. it's getting old and mouldy like me.
i still cant believe i'm turning 19 soon. eeew.......



some guys are such jerks.
arent they?

was gonna bitch bout the bloody cheena mama who kept cutting into everyone's lane, her 2 bloody kids who kept swimming the breadth of the pool while the WORLD was doing lengths (in other words, they too were in the fucking way),
the pasty white blubber filled arse who tried to talk to me, and kept staring.

but i reached home and saw the most horrendous message. and now i'm too tired to bitch. i just wanna bathe and sleep. like nothing i've done today matters anymore. fuck.

argh. i hate this feeling.

I FOUND MY PHONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


list of ppl to thank: Grace,
Weijie aka allie,
Amanda kee, (and whoever manda got my no. from)
Cab driver,
Cliff.

cos in the series of cause and effect and events, these were the ppl that came in somehow or other, and helped me get my phone back. thank you all sooooooo much.



*kowtow*

Thanks for dessert kim. =>


i'm SO burnt.

so veryveryvery burnt. =<

but i like being red! haha!

but Y ARE MY FINGERS STILL WHITE?????????

i wanna swim moremorWmoREmOREMORE!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAREST KIM!!!!!!!!!!!!

-hughughughughughughughughughguhughughughughug-
-muackxmuackxmuackxmuackxmuackxmuackxmuackx-

u're my dearest bro man!!
and now u're a 19 year old fart! hahaha =D

may all ur wishes come true!!

argh. the pool was soooooo crowded. ended up swimming at the training pool, where the water came up to only my waist. blah.

anw, saw this fat pig TRYING to swim free style. she had no idea whatsoever how to do it properly and was dumbly flapping her arms ard, splashing water in all directions. after every 3 or 4 strokes she would stop, take a breather, then continue her struggle to keep afloat while her 4 limbs struck out at every possible direction.


i was that fat pig.





help someone?
i totally forgot how to swim freestyle.
and i desperately neeeed to rmb!!!
-bang head agains wall-

boooo..... another loooooooooooooooong week to go through.. sigh.
will whoever it is that has my phone PLEASE return it to me????

*kowtow till my head bleeds*

i've been looking thru all the phones... nh i like. none at all. argh. i want my trusty old 6510 back.
it's the bestest phone ever. argh.

pleeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaasssssssssssssssseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee return it???????????

today, or rather, yesterday, i renewed my hatred for polishing boots.
spent almost 3 hours on them n THEY STILL REFUSED TO SHINE!!!! argh.
it's the LAST TIME i'm ever picking up the kiwi. ok. maybe not.. maybe i'll try again some day..
but.... sigh. overwhelmed by failure. can someone guide me step by step how to make a pair of boots shiny????

pleeeeeeeaseeeee???????????

anw, was thinking bout NPCC. and how it has affected me.
was spring cleaning just now when i chanced upon my uniform. first class drill badge, almost full 2 rows of collectible badges(only life saving is missing), police knowledge, erm..... oh. the rank. but none of that seems to matter now!!!!!!

then again... there are the bittersweet memories of camp; flooded tents and big fat ants, maggi mee n curry chicken, the friendship that formed, the camaraderie.. the radiant faces around the camp fire. i love camp fires =>

ok.. so to a certain extent, i DO miss npcc.
sigh..
those were the days........


on the topic of memories..
Y are all memories bittersweet??
i have never met a person who left me only sweet memories. there are always the bitter bits.. i guess it's the bitter part of it that makes the sweet parts sweet.. ya get my drift??
but then..... sometimes, when something is too bitter, it drowns out the sweet moments.




the weekend is almost over. boys gonna disappear again. i hate this.. sigh.
anw, it's time for serious shopping. (tho i have no money!!!!!!) =>

xinyu!!! sheryl!!!! let's go SHOPPING!!!!!!!
-grin-

ARGH.


F U C K F U C K F U C K



Dear God.... please???????

hmmmm.........
tmr is a busy day.
sighhh. so much to do.. so little timeeeeeeeeee
but being busy keeps me happy =>

today i am officially a free kid. in ALL ways.
i got my passportttt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

then we went shopping!!!!!!! -grin-
salads at bean, icecream at julius, cinnamon stick things at erm... cheerios??
simply food.
simply bliss!
then we went shopping again!!!!

sorry for the lumpy custard dearies..... = /

oh. mahjong session just now. i won 2 games. throughout which, one i was talking o him, the other i was msging him. see?? then i lost the rest.. lol. watched 1o things i hate about you at the same time.. that girl's pretty.

my face is peeling horribly, cos i'm shedding my old skin. cos i've grown too fat for my old skin. cos the old skin can't stretch anymore to fit my new fat face. cos i've put on weight and my face has expanded. so that's y i'm an ugly shedding thing now.. like a snake.

she(2) shu(3) yi(1) wo(1)




anw, i can't stand rude people;
ppl who don't mind their Ps & Qs,
ppl who command you ard,
ppl who use THAT tone of voice when commanding you ard,
ppl who think they're the princess or something.

i'm sorry man. don work with me. rudeness just so turns me off. argh.

be polite, it dosen't kill.

some call it basic manners.




anw, plans for tmr.
SWIMMING!!!!!
SQUASH!!!!!!
bliss. =>
oh.. and then COOKING!!!! hahaa =>

i wanna get my life saving cert.
who cares bout driving. i just want my life saving cert!!!!!! haha.
xinyu can care about driving.. den she can drive us ard for FOOD.


i think food is reallyreally important.
really!
reallyreallyreally.
i miss rain forest cafe... their food was supercalifragilisticexpealidocious!!!!!!!!!

i need slp for now.. =>
tmr's a long n busy day...

waiting for tomorrow to come.. so that i can open my next prezzie. =>


valleys.
mountains.
cliffs.
so far away.
come back. i miss u. =<

lonely.
empty.
lost ppl.
messed up life.
love; loved
hurt..
hurt..
hurt..
HURT.
gone
pain
tear
i feel
u.







feeling like a pampered kid.
lotsa comic strips to feed my appetite. =>
so sweet.
so very sweet.

Dearest Cassandra Reyes, wherever, whoever you are. i really hope that God will bless you and bring you back safely.. i don't know you at all, but i feel an affinity, cos we've got the same name. yea.. i really hope you're alright.. =>




had a afternoon of squash and teppenyaki n slacking at coffee bean. feels like living again. tmr, it'll be right back to mundane office shit. blah. sighhhh..............
-scream-
last night was good. kumar was good.. at first. but still good. =>
but my legs got numb.. and today they got thoroughly stretched.. hahaha..
i HATE standing for hours on end with bloody too-tall-for-his-own-good angmoh blocking me!!! grrrrr. sigh.
at least i'm happy. haha. i like being happy. =>

there IS such a thing called the point of no return.
you've reached it.

din go to work today. i am sick. it started out as an excuse, but now i'm really sick.. blah.
woke up after 3.. went for food at the mall ard 5... went to say hi to xinyu.. ate gelato.. walked ard.. went home to cook for mom. i'm sleepy again.. sigh.

dinner last night was great!! company was even better! =>
will put up he picures later.. if i feel like it.. but don worry.. i'll send u guys the pix k!!
*muackx*
love you ppl!!!
anw, take care leo... hahahaa. ur head's gonne be feeling cold for awhile.. lol
and stef?? plspls take care k!!!! -hug-
and mandy n yanjun? u ppl rock!! ahahaa. love u all!!!!
khaywee n daryl deserve mention too.. one for being nice.. (sometimes) and the other for giving me cooking tips! wheeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-yawn-
take care peeps!


oh. take care andy, missing u already. =<
AHAHAHAHHA! ok. i shld not laugh. all the best..

hmmm.
broke a glass bottle just now.
ever realised how the person who tries to pick up the pieces is he one who gets cut?
and that when glass shatters, it scatters, so it's really hard to pick up the pieces?
and some pieces of shattered glass are sooo small, that you can't see them, but they hurt the most when the cut, cos they get embedded in your flesh?

yea. idelible wounds.

i just decided on my biggest new year resolution.



Ensure that Xinyu gets a driving license!!!!


-grin- hell yeah, i need a chauffeur!! ahahahaa... *muackx*
dinner was lovely sweeties.. catching up amidst our hectic work lives!! hahaha..
love ya.
miss ya too.

hmmm.
i had dinner with bestie.
i'm spending ALL my pay before i even get it.. but at least i bother to treat them(especially since i'd promised to give them a treat with my first pay.). i hate it when ppl break promises. really.
so andy, don't break ur promise!! hahaha.
i was a great dinner tho.. had a nice long heart to heart session! =p

and 2005 is a whole new year. so it's a whole new me too.

new year resolutions:

#1 not to be taken for granted by anyone.
#2 not to take xinyu n sheryl for granted.
#3 not to be in second place anymore.
#4 not to be used as a substitute.
#5 not to take mom for granted.
#6 not to take ppl who are impt to me for granted.
#7 not to let anyone kill me emotionally. i've had enough of that.
#8 to spend 80% of my time being happy.
#9 not to let ANYONE screw up my life again.
#10 to lose weight. =>


Xinyu, Sheryl, i solemnly promise to love and treasure thee through good times and bad, through health and illness, till always or forever, whichever is longer.

PS. lets fufill my tenth resolution together!!! hahahah

hmmm. it was a great new year. hee. went to warehouse.. it was blardy empty!!
hahahaha. goods delayed due to tsunami!! hurhur~

was walking along the streets when it turned 12. i can't rmb the last time i counted down with a group of ppl.. we always miss it!! ahaha. i had just pressed the traffic lights... and xinyu, sheryl and jeanne were screaming hapy new year.. so we laughed ard and hugged and kissed.. and crossed the road when the little guy turned green. and we SCREEEEEEAAAAAMMMMEEEDDDD!!!!!!!!!! aha. that's always my favourite part, the screaming. i love you xinyu n sheryl. always and forever, whichever is longer yea? -hug-

went down to zouk to say hi to kenneth..
met my favourite grp of ppl!! MANDY N STEF N YANJUN N DARYL N KHAYWEE!!!!!!! leonard dearest was at warehouse.. haha.
have i mentioned i love these guys?? I LOVE THEM!!!! hahahhaahahaa... it's been 2 years and counting dearies!!!
(notice pk is MIA? =>)

who else did i see at zouk... hmmm. noone.
but my skirt flew. like, REALLY flew. blah.
and so it was a real quick peek-a-boo for my purple undies.
est!!! where were u?? i had on PURPLE undies!!!
hahahahahha.

i think andy called me. when i was ouside zouk. yes.. i think he did. hahahaa... i cant rmb! =x

then it was back to warehouse. omigosh!!! i saw cindyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
she's sooooooooooooooooo cute!!!! i reallyreallyreally miss that girl. haha.
rmb to tell the callers that u're the supervisor k!! haha.

and... erm... watching sheryl dance. getting jealous cos sheryl got a new jacket. haha..
and the bartenders were interesting! => and xinyu disappeared for secret rendezvous!!!! blah. and jeanne dancing with... erm.. i donno who. hahahaha. oopx. did i say lotsa stuff i wasnt supposed to? haha. nvm. at least i kept the sordid details to myself. lalalalaaa...

oh yes! how can i forget my tomato. Mr HE NG who turned into a tomato! hahahaa.
the hotel toilet was sooo much better than what warehouse had to offer man..thanx for the tip! haha. and he sofas were so comfy i cld have fallen aslp!!

then it was off to prata place at sgoon.. cabbed there with leo n angelina n daryl.. then met khaywee there.. n we all had prata!!! met stef n ryan(did i get the spelling right?) n frenz there too.. n JOEL!!!! hey jo!!! ur mohawk flopped! haha. butt still cool waaaaay cool!! =>

ok. at this point of time, i have to apologise to leo n khaywee n angelina n daryl. i'm so sorry i kept laughing and laughing and laughing and laughing and..........
heh. i think i was high. yea. lack of slp u see.. ahaha.
and dearest khaywee, thankiew soooo much for cutting up my prata for me => (yes, i was too lazy to even cut up my own prata.) u'll make a great dad!! much beter than leo!! hahahaa. bu leo's nice too. he opened my drink n poured it out for me.
*sigh* what wld i do without my friends? =>
and nicenice khaywee lent me cabfare home too!! as well as walk some of the distance with me, puttin up with my lameass jokes.

then, my next stop was to drag someone out to coninue laughing with meeee!!! hahaha. so we went down to ponggol end to watch the sunrise. sad thing was, we din know which way it was supposed to come out from. so we sat there staring at the water till we realised i was coming out from behind us. wahahaha. oh. then we were trying to look at the horizon (trying but not succeeding cos there were way too many ships and stuff out there blockin the view.).. and... my someone went "hey! can u see? it's raining over there", pointing towards the sea. so we stared at the magnificent sight. till suddenly. FUCK! the rain reached us!! hahahaha. seriously super crap! picked up our stuff and started walking. (there's no point in running.. shelter too far away) walking in a seriously heavy downpour. naturally, we got all wet. flyaway skirt cldnt fly anymore.. so we freezed on the bus.

so that's how i spent my first dawn of the new year: getting a shower of blessing.
i like to think that it signifies a good year.
with warmth and happiness.
and of cos, my dearest friends.

Hello 2005, how do you do =>

First person you kissed: sheryl

First person you hugged : sheryl

First song you listened to : erm.. i reallyreally can rmb. haha. i din notice i guess..

First TV show/movie you watched : white chick =>

First food you ate : one cheese n one egg prata(kindly cut up for me by khay wee).

First drink you drank: vodka sprite..

First new friend you made: Angelina and Daryl => had prata together with leo n khaywee

Other Questions:

What were you wearing? black spag n nice flyaway skirt.

Where were you? on the stroke of midight, me xinyu, sheryl n jeanne were in the middle of the road!! hahaha

Who were you with? lots n lots of friends!!!

What do you hope for the new year? i just want to be happy. and for my friends to be happy =>

Do you have a new years resolution? nope. haha.

Do you think you will stick to it? if i had one, i still wldnt.

Do you think 2005 will be better than 2004? hmmm. yes. 2004 was mostly heartache. no good!

What is your biggest fear for 2005? -shrug- results..?

Did you party hard? nah... bad crowd..

Did you get drunk/high? YESYESYES!!! i got high n crappy n laughed n laughed. n i made someone meet me at 5.30am to listen to lame jokes! hahahahhaa.

Describe the atmosphere when the clock hit 12am: my dearie wishing me happy new yr n my siblings screaming 'happy new yr' - noisy

What was the best moment of the day? getting drenched. =>

Do you have a new years tradition? yea. i gotta kiss n hug my favourite girlfriends!!!

wait. my last post of the year.



GOODBYE 2004!!!!!!!!!
*muackx*
-hughugkisskiss-

lemme see. what so i have to say..
my brain (yes, there is one.) is not functioning properly, has not been functioning properly for some time due to the lack of sleep. =<
in other words, my complexion has gone from wrose to horrendous again.
and i have been coughing till i feels like my lungs are gonna fly out of my mouth. blah.

anw, yesterday, i had the nicest lunch since i started work. -grin-
a reallyreally nice lunch packed up in foil n delivered right to my workplace.
thankiew sooooooooooo much!!!
i noe my face din say much, but it was really good food k!!!!
don be too disappointed by my facial expressions.. the food was great. =>
so was the company. heh.
and thankiew for waiting a whole 3.5 hrs till i finished work too! hahaha
so... basically, yea. i had a great day. =>

steven is making me a happy kid. haha.
i can' really rmb why tho.. it's the first time i'm talking to him on msn and i'm actually enjoying it!! lolol.



element of challenge and adventure
a solitary siloutte above the waves



yea..may more ppl go in in January
so that the April guys have all da girls for 3 months!!




ahem...to quote
"absence makes the heart fonder"
i think, absence makes the heart fond to fondle elsewhere





hahahahhaa. this guy is good!!!!! lolol. =>
-yawn-
he dosen't know i'm quoting him!!! shhhhhhh!!!!



i'm hugging boobananaboringblueballs (that's the name of my carebear that xinyu gave me for
christmas!).. haha. he is very squashable indeed. =>


I JUST LOST TOMORROWS LUNCH!!!!! not fair. -sulk-
i want lunch u idiot!!!! not fair. -sulk-


in case u can't tell? i'm really bored. yes esther, i know you're esta n i'm really bored. yesyes... -yawn- i miss u small lil thingie!! hhahahaaa...



OHOHOH!!! xinyu!!! sheryl!!!! i got white chicks!!! it's movie time!!!!!!!! wheeeeeee!!!!!!!



i wonder what is mr chong doing. hmmmmm......

hmmm.
have been missing a particular someone.
am missing a particular someone.
a particular someone that i feel comfortable with.


bestie andy??? let's go for coffee.. like real soon?
i need to talk.. (u don't have to. i can do all the talking!! =>)
and i miss you too.



kim?? HE JUST SAID HE MISSES ME!!!!!!! hahahahahahah!!!!!
i miss you too kor. but i don like calling you kor.
haha. miss ya kimmie!!!

SOS- empty
zouk- $38
china black- $45

ended up at indochine. sex on the beach and a slow comfortable screw, with a kiss.
was eating practically the whole night.. burger king, then indochine, then swensens.
oh. then there was the foam attack.. i din know wheher to laugh or cry..
but tears came out anyway.. and then i laughed..

somehow christmas somehow summed up my whole year.
people who came along for the ride at the start, then dropped off half way, leaving the atmosphere somewhat.... quieter...
people who stepped in, changed my life, then left. but their presence is still felt. will always be felt.
people who drop a surprise attack.. then disappear, but yet keep coming back at intervals, leaving me at a loss as to what to do, and how to react.

i no longer want to remain the safety net. i want to be the one scaling the walls with you. and i don't want to settle for second place. i don't want to share. i don't want to hurt. i don't want to cry.

the truth hurts.. as always. cuts deep.. knowing that what you thought was all a facade, and the truth is that you were, to a certain extent, being used.

no longer in my corner, i am stepping out.. slowly.. but surely..
afterall, i just want to be happy.
and i just want you to have your peace.. to have your own share of happiness too.
there is always a listening ear here if you need it tho.

but only a listening ear. cos that's all that's left.
the rest you have burnt and destroyed. so there's nth left.
an empy soul perhaps, but always a listening ear.






Merry Christmas everyone. =>

merry christmas eve!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

xinyu and sheryl and weiying are here now.
just had dinner... shld be going out soon.. tho i reallyreally feel like sleeping.. sigh.

had a lovely day yesterday.. heh. went to spca (which was closed =<), took 70 all the way to the end... ended up at some uluated place.. blah. then went back to suntec.. bough prezzies!!!!!!! then went for movie! => walked ard after that then went back home.. cos i had W O R K. blah. boring life..

and i'm a bored kid.... sigh. sheryl is staring at me. she denies it. hahaha.
that idiot was SITTING ON ME!!!!! (she says she's a retard, not an idiot. but idiot sounds good.)
hahahaa.... mad.

ok. yinsiu has arrived. time to change n go meet her.. bye people!!!!!!!!!

*muackx*

my com is dead my com is dead!!!!!!!!!

ya. that's the reason for my absence. i'm too busy with my mundane life as an office girl anyway. wait a minute, did i mention LIFE??? nono. i have no idea what to call it, i have no life currently. blah.

hey xinyu!!! u're back from japan!!!!! did u miss me???? cos i missed u idiot!! haha.. -big fat hug-

and sheryl quitted her job within 3 hours. i applaude you my dear, but seriously, that job is child labour! heh.

oh. my ego right now is so huge that i have trouble going through narrow doorways. -grin-

I WAS SELECTED!!!!! to represent the school. -grin- but i rejected them. heh. oopx. i just don wanna go up there and get criticised by people la.. hehe.. so why did i go to the audition in the first place? for fun. to prove to myself that i do not suck!!!! lalalallaaaaaaaa.............

and by now, i know you're saying: damn, her ego fucking big leh.. still happily write it out here that she got selected.. walao eh.... wanna slap her fucking fat face sia!!!

-grin- slap lor... heh. you'll only succeed in giving me a natural blush on my cheeks! (save makeup!!)

but seriously, it's like the first time in my life my ego blossomed immensely.. and everyone has their first times yea??

ok. on office life. it sucks.
politics everywhere. the bloody supervisor kbkb cos i keep taking half days off. no work stay for what?! at least i don't take money for nth k!! i finish my work and scoot!! HUR~

whatever. i got another audition to go for anyway. -grin-

then it's EBS with my girls!!! luv ya!! *muackmuackx* (mean girl style)

and gracie?? i can't play squash just yet.. but after christmas k??? *promise* haha.. we got all the time in the world... unlike the poor guys...

the guys have all disappeared!!! whisked off to the middle of nowhere by the loving and naturing government who want them change from boys to men! haha. ok. i'm crap. still, i hope they're fine and well!!!

and.. here's a tribute to the late Mr John Lim:

Dear Mr Lim,

you never taught me anything, but somehow, we could just start talking. and i'm not the kind who starts talking to strange teachers suddenly.. or strange people for that matter. you were just too friendly.. i want to use all the beautiful and big vocabulary to describe you, but the only word that comes to my mind now is "nice". short and simple, like you. (forgive the pun) a very nice and very simple but very helpful and very friendly teacher. you were an amazingly enthusiastic and encouraging teacher. i remember our last conversation; you said the school shld spend money on new rackets for floor ball, i wanted the money spent on a new track. i hope the school seriously considers setting up an official floorball team, for you. that's what you wanted, as i remembered.. whatever it is mr Lim, i sincerely wish that you and your wife are enjoying an everlasting honeymoon now.. May God Bless You.

love, me.