I was so high I did not recognize

The fire burning in her eyes


The chaos that controlled my mind


Whispered goodbye and she got on a plane


Never to return again


But always in my heart





This love has taken its toll on me



She said Goodbye too many times before


And her heart is breaking in front of me


I have no choice cause I won't say goodbye anymore





I tried my best to feed her appetite


Keep her coming every night


So hard to keep her satisfied


Kept playing love like it was just a game


Pretending to feel the same


Then turn around and leave again





This love has taken its toll on me


She said Goodbye too many times before


And her heart is breaking in front of me


I have no choice cause I won't say goodbye anymore





I'll fix these broken things


Repair your broken wings


And make sure everything's alright


My pressure on her hips


Sinking my fingertips


Into every inch of you


Cause I know that's what you want me to do

u're totally right. n u wanna noe how u'd noe that?? COS U"RE JUST LIKE THAT!! selfcentred, selfish, myopic, ignorant, oblivious, unappreciative. first impressions are totally WRONG.

No Longer Me



By: Cassandra Martin, 14, New York



I look at myself in the mirror,

I’m not sure who I see,

It doesn’t look like me.

Not anymore,

This person staring back at me,

It’s not the me I used to be.

I take my name,

Fit it with my face,

The profile does not match.

I no longer look like Cassandra,

No longer am I the same person.

I don’t know who I am,

Or who I’ve become.

All I know,

Is that I’m no longer the same person I used to be.

For something changed me,

Changed my deep within,

All the way out.

Cause I’m no longer the same person I used to be.



found this when i googled for my name..

i thought she looked smart. she's UBER smart. read her testimonials: exco of council, team captain, ardent environmentalist, student in most competitive arts class, scored 2 A's for donno what, clinched moe's humanities scholarship while coping well with everything else, house captain in her sec. sch... blablabla.... but she's NOT a nerd, she's funky n fun-loving.. loved by her mateys.. she's come so far, n there's still lots more left for her to do. she's a go-getter, an achiever, a person with success written all over her. n... my new role model!!! *grin*

today is a record setting day. woke up at 8.45am on a sunday morning.. gee.. havent seen sunday mornings for such a long time...

went to sweep grave just now.. had to give those huge packages to these workers to burn.. used to be able to throw it into the incinerator ourselves... but maybe it got too dangerous.. -shrug-.. anyway.. my uncle promptly labelled it singhell's postal service to hell .. lolx.. that lameness totally cracked me up. how true..

"You only live once -- but if you work it right, once is enough."

-Joe E. Lewis


"You can complain because roses have thorns, or you can rejoice because thorns have roses."

-Ziggy


"No man ever steps in the same river twice, for it's not the same river and he's not the same man."

-Heraclitus


"Let us endeavor to live that when we come to die even the undertaker will be sorry."

-Mark Twain


"What did you do today? Is anybody happier because you passed this way? Does anyone remember that you spoke today? The day is almost over, and its toiling time is through: Is there anyone to utter now a kindly word of you? Can you say tonight in parting with the day that's slipping fast, That you helped a single person of the many that you passed? Is a single heart rejoicing over what you did or said? Does the one whose hopes were fading now with courage look ahead? Did you waste the day or use it? Was it well or sorely spent? Did you leave a trail of kindness, or a scar of discontent? As you close you eyes in slumber, do you think that you can say: You have earned one more tomorrow by what you did today?"

-???


"Just remember, the only people not making mistakes are those who aren't doing anything."

-Tim W. Welborn


"Make the most of yourself...for that is all there is of you."

-Ralph Waldo Emerson


"Life is either a daring adventure or nothing."

-Helen Keller

okie... here they are... award winners at the inter school 'A' division squash matches!!


sexiest legs: Teo Jia Wen (RJC)

(yes, they're nice long n slim.... made me soooo jealous!!)


strongest, nicest thigh muscles: Rachel He (ACJC)

(not too big n not too small, just nice, damn nice!! heh.. )


best mannered: Stella Loong (ACJC)

(fine, i only played 2 matches.. but stella is really nice!! n sweet too!! n she dosen't hog de ball, n she gave me chances, what more can a beginner ask for?)


scariest serve: Rachel He (ACJC)

(simply because her service sound like gun shots, she is bloody gd!!)


one-of-the-best player: Teo Jia Wen(RJC)

(actually, i cant make a fair judgement on this, but she thrashed a
very-much-above-average-player 9-0.. or 9-1 or something like that.. so yea.. she's good!!)


best mannered school: ACJC

(despite rumours that they are snobs, they actually cheered for us n SR, not sure bout the other schools, but it's nice of them to do so. so THANK YOU!!)


fave opponent: Vivienne Tseng (VJC)

(just love playing with her la.. crapping n playing at the same time.. hehee)


best companion: Gracelina koh (NYJC)

(who else wld it be?? she rocks!!! lolx..)



that's about it for now.. i think ACJC will win again this year. n i wont be suprised.. then again, RJC may outshine them.. my bets are on AC tho.. as always..


u will realise that almost all the awards go to AC, this is because i have sorta followed them thru their matches, either as a referee, scorer, or like today,(or rather, yesterday) an opponent. i watched all their matches except on 2 occasions when we did not have competition n were therefore not required to go down. n yes, AC is as good as ppl say they are, even better. but they're not as snobbish as often perceived. (not all anw..) as for the RJ girl whjo keeps getting mentioned, i payed attention to her as she really caught my attention. firstly, she looked like my pri sch good friend. secondly, she was HOT! nice face, bod n legs. thirdly, she was uber cool on the court. watching her play was highly rewarding!! so yea.. thats the whole competition for me.. *grin* great experience!! hehe..

i am a pig. i just woke up and guess wat i'm having for breakfast?? 2 rocher, half a box of toffifee and 2 bars kinder bueno. fatfatfat!!!

I Love Gracelina Koh.

Thank You Lovely One.

i havent given up. i'm training hard. look at u ppl now.. -shakes head- let's fight this last battle together n walk out with our heads held high.

if *you were refering to me.. i wanna tell u tat i love u. n thank you. for being there. for understanding. for puttin up with my shit. for putting in a word for me. for holding me. for listening. for talking. for walking away when u saw that i din want to face anyone. for just being there. specially when i needed someone. thank YOU. so much. May God Bless You.

this is bloody annoying. have got so much to say, but the bloody net is screwin up again!!!

anyway.. cut my hair today.. but after i washed it.. the effect was gone again.. as usual.. curls returned.. yawn.... wateva la... the hair dresser made me damn happy.. haha.. cos she took uber long to cut my hair.. hehee... n tat always pleases me.. *grin*..

sheesh.. got so pissed over the net that i forgot everything i wanted to say!!!! bleah.. oh.
i wasted time rushing down today.. since i din get to train.. shld have expected it. wateva. shall study n study n study n get outta this place asap. yea... fly away!!!!! oh.. n lose more weight!! lolx... 4kg down.. 4 more to go... hahahaa.. whee!!!! workin towards my goal(s)..

ooo... just finished watching america's top model.. i'm all for elysse!!!!!(is tat how it's spelt??)

and lastly, a word of caution to all out there: cutting ur eye lashes is very, very stupid. trust me.
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stayed up till ard 3.. discussing life n issues.. questioning our existence. in a way, i'm starting to view life as Dr Boey does.

The Science questions why things are the way they are.

The Arts questions why we are the way we are.



think bout it more.. n u'll realise that we aren't that different afterall. life and science is intertwined. life is science n science is life. without life, there is no science, yet without science, there is no life!!! what are we? are we really existing? what if our existence is purely nothingness? what is the use of studying so much, learning so much, earning so much? then end up dying? what is the point of working so hard to earn a living that we forget how to live? life is short. we should enjoy it. to enjoy it, we need to live comfortably. to live comfortably, we need to have money. to have money, we need to work. to be able to work happily, we need a good job. to be able to get a good job, we need to compete. when will the competition end? will it end when life ends? or will it continue as ppl fight to get the best spot for their grave, the best equipped coffin, the most extravagant funeral? when will it all end? what is life about anyway?


i shld stop thinking.

It is sometimes a mistake to climb;


It is always a mistake never to make an attempt.


If you do not climb, you will not fall


This is true.


But is it that bad to fail, that hard to fall?


Sometimes you wake and sometimes, yes, you die.


But there is a third alternative.


Sometimes when u fall, u fly.



- Neil Gaiman



the same goes for fallin in love. just fall.

Simple Plan - God Must Hate Me Lyrics







Artist: Simple Plan


Title: God Must Hate Me


Album: No Helmets No Pads...Just Balls



Last night I just wanted to have fun


To go out with my friends


I took my dad's car


I never thought he would find out


But I crashed in a wall


Man I'm dead



I guess it's no use


I'm screwing up ever little thing I ever try to do


I was born to lose


Yeah yeah yeah yeah



[Chorus]

God must hate me


He cursed me for eternity


God must hate me


Maybe you should pray for me


I'm breaking down and you can't save me


I'm stuck in hell


And I wanna go home[x2]



Last night I had to study for this test


I forgot man I'm dead


And now my brain is bursting out of my head


I can't think I can't breathe


Once again



I guess its no use


Im screwing up every little thing i ever tried to do


I was born to lose


Yeah yeah yeah yeah



[Chorus]



So what in the world am I supposed to do?


I never did anything to you


So can't you find something else to do?



[Chorus]



God must hate me


I wanna go home





heard this song earlier on.. it makes me so jumpity happy... heh.. but i noe God dosent hate me. He loves me! yea.. n He's always there!! *beams* Thank You God.
n i'm sorry for liking this song.. but it just cheers me up so much.. hee

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The quality that most appeals to you:	Loyalty
In a survival situation, you:	Play dead
Your hidden talent is:	Seeing the best in others
Your gift is:	Irresistible attractiveness
In groups, you:	Blend in
Your best quality is:	Your empathic nature
Your weakness is:	Your overbearing nature
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Linda Tok rocks big time. too bad she had to meet me, an insult to her skills... heh..

broken.

time table too slack.. donno wat to do with my time.. sigh.... slacking away hen i can be making gd use of the time n studying... nvm.. shall do just that tmr!! *promise*

Dear God, if i do wat i promised can u answer my prayers??? Thank You.



i dont mean to be cynical.. but i tink this was wat went thru their minds..

"walao.. she come for wat man.."

"yalor!! she just come n waste out time only lor.."

"duh! every second counts!! she's just so freaking extra!!"

"n she cant even do it properly.. fuck off man.."

"gee.. she's trying to act cute AGAIN!! "

"just ignore her la.. tats what she always does wat."



well suckers, for ur information, ur intermediate is my beginner standard. i've slacked, that's all i can say. but i i trained, i can crush u like some ma-f*ckin piecea shiTe!! so just go screw urself aye!!



sorry God, i have sinned. but i just can't stand being ostracised. help me God. i need salvation.

barbie needs ken in her life.

when Ken n Barbie are together, Barbie tends to be more optimistic, n thus, will look on the bright side of life.


Dear God, please answer my prayers. Amen.

i shld be doin stupid lit n boring maths. but i'm not.

am waiting. procrastinating. missing.