it's the last day of the year. i remember saying i wanted more happy than sad moments this year and i made it.


My happy moment generator:








one year baby!!! one whole year!!!!!

Thank you so veryvery much!

i love you!!!!!!

i LOVE cygnus. lovelovelove them!!!!!


miracles do happen- PK was actually THERE!!!!!

then another miracle- Daryl was the FIRST to reach!!!! omg!!!
but daryl being daryl was drinking at the balcony before he met us. haha!

and LEONARD TREATED US!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THANK YOU BOSS HENG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

then yanjun and kwee brought lotsa goodies from US and from erm... hongkong? taiwan? or taipei? i mixed up where yanjun went. hahaha.

Me and mandy ate everything happily. =)
All of us ate happily actually- leonard's paying!! =) just kidding. we were gonna pay our share.. but. he offered. so.. ya. =)

once again, THANK YOU LEONARD!!!!!!!!!! hahahaha.

but we missed stef. all the same, we believe stef is out crabbing(now that she has tried prawning), and we are very very happy for her!!!!!


PS. i realise that the words on top have been cut off, but i am too lazy to redo it. please use your own vivid imagination and let the 4 characters come alive in your mind=)




met xinyu and sarah on the bus, then off to momo!!!! i thought we were going to MOS, but we ended up at momo all night. i didn't want to leave anyway. My own VIP area and martell and screwdrivers and chips. A place to sit!!! omg! My own space!! no crowd, no idiots pushing me around!!!! heaven. and it was all thanks to Linderr and Ashley. THANK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

linderr, sarah, yiwen, jeanne, xinyu, singuan and her boyfriend, me.



oh fuck. i didn't realise i chopped off so many heads.... sry girls!!!!!

i had a lovely time at weiying's house(23 dec 05), thank you so much for the fun. Thanks for the company, weiying, yinsiu and bestfren! Thanks for the present bestfren. i love you girls tonnes!

my presents!!!


Christmas eve was good too. Spent with mommy till late night, then Cliff till morning. a night of funfunfunn!!!!!! =)))



merry christmas everyone.

hee. yup. blonde hair courtesy of nicole richie! hahahahhaa. but my chin is too long. haha. but i got softer looking hair in the second picture! lol.

BIMBO ALERT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i finally did what i wanted to do last christmas.

Go Blonde.

and i assure you i'm blonde inside and out.

-grin-

Interview on wednesday!!!!!

anyway, as i was telling Cliff, it's been very nice seeing Estelle 4 days in a row. haha!

Thursday was the SIM pageant, Friday was king kong, Saturday was Samuel's birthday then Sunday was Tricia's hairshow.

And i happily ate my way through those four days. =) especially at samuel's birthday. when i got sick of talking, i just kept attacking the leftover food. heh.

Samuel has freaking cool pets. i like!!!

the end of the first segment.


haha. Gilson knows where to look!!


the winning couple before they won.


beer drinking competition. guess who won?!


everyone watching....


watching these guys.......


all the contestants... my pictures weren't very good.. =/


happy people.


Melvin, estelle, alex


Me, yanjun and leonard. missss these peoplee!!!!

it is rare that leonard has his eyes open on the first try. hehee.


Me and koh. =)


i realised that i didn't take a single picture of Samuel on his birthday. hahahaha.
tricia and jason and samuel's bed. haha. they look so cute peeking down!



this is the only picture of samuel i have.. and cliff was so fat!!!!!!! hahahahahahhaa. my fat yellow haired beng. the lian loves you!!!!!!


Mrs sam saw cliff's photo and couldn't stop laughing. hahahahahhaa. kidding. =)


Pretty lady.


licking eyeballs turn me on!


Tricia's show. Her big hair, and... erm... ghostly atmosphere. =x


Tricia and if i'm not wrong, that is cris next to her. got a shock when i saw cris there..


the finale..


the boys watching the show..


the proud boyfriend. =P


Childhood friends. i jsut realised that the eyes go form small to medium to big. lol!


Then i thot i saw someone familiar... sofrie's sister. so i looked around... and.... SOFRIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
"Pat's in the show too!"
"She is????"
then i went to look for pat in the toilet. It's amazing how bitching brings people together. Xinyu, pat, sofrie and me were all queueing to watch a Toni & Guy show... and we were bitching bout this girl infront of us.. who eventually got bounced out. whether because she was too young, or dressed too slut-like, i don't know. =)



Driver(NOT female driver) and her passengers.


people in the other car. ahhaha.


US. Sarah hidding, picture courtesy of mrs sam.


Zoo soon???










I miss Miss Bestfren. =)

www.43things.com A somewhat interesting website.



KingKong. Highly emotional and touching. Full of dinosaurs and dinosaur-sized creepy crawlies. i hated jurassic park and i can't stand creepy crawlies- i can't take horror of this sort. But i'm glad i watched it, it was good. The fucking chao cheebye film maker got everyone in trouble!!!!! it's all his fault!!! all because he was obsessed with making money! There're still mysteries out there my fucking foot! he just wants the money!!!!!

and he got so many people dead.

then he said i looked like KingKong. that hurt much. seriously.



SIM pageant at china black. I MISS BLACK!!!!!!!!!! i miss vodka cranberry!!!!!!!!!! the show was alright, M6 stole the show. An obvious winner from the start. First he flashed his packs, then he gave the rose, then he carried his partner.

Gilson looked good =)))

the best part of black was seeing leonard, yanjun, then Koh shimin again. especially koh. haven't seen her in ages!!!!!!!!!! =)





"If mother's were flowers, you'd the one i'd pick."
after all that stormy weather and he's still there. My good sonny. =)

remember that primary school poem?

new friends are like silver,
old friends are gold.
keep the new,
but treasure the old.

He's gold.


"But how long can we laugh things off?"

"we laugh it off in the day. when we walk out with the happy mask on our faces. it's at night when the laughter turns hollow and empty. when we take off that happy mask and it stares straight into us, the painted smile mocking our tears."

(Stolen from Ginny)
Quite true...

**I'm serious about my love k!!!

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.




Next.

You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.

You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.

You strictly follow rules, and you expect other people to be the same as well. People can get tired of you easily, as you can make them feel a little guilty about themselves. You always make decisions on your own, and can be dismissive of other people's advice. You like to be the leader in groups, but can forget to be concerned about the people you are with.

Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?

Your boyfriend thinks that you are a real doll but this is not a totally positive thing. Sometimes you can be a bit too sweet, and come across as being helpless. If you're like this too frequently, your boyfriend and other people are likely to get tired of you having to rely on them all the time.




Next.

You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.



Next.

Bright and Cheerful

You are always cheerful and charming. You never get too serious with people when they're around, but when you are alone, you think carefully about what they have said. That's because you don't want anyone to see you being too somber. Your personality means you have a lot of friends and you are often the center of attention. Many people who fall into this category become artists and movie stars, perhaps fame could be yours in the future as well.




Next.

You love your friends very much - so much so that it's actually quite a worry. You may not be able to cope very well when you do lose somebody's friendship. You are a very sensitive and fragile person, and are therefore likely to get upset easily. You care for your friends and are willing to do anything that they ask you to do. Sometimes this can make your friends think that you are a bit of a nuisance. Nevertheless, people do really love you because your highest priority is your friends.



Next.

Your sweetheart is an artist through and through. He is very sensitive and likes his privacy, which explains why he does not talk too much. However, he is very sincere and serious about you and your relationship, as well as life in general. You are lucky to have him as a boyfriend. He enjoys travel to places of natural beauty, revelling in calm and isolated spots. If you're heading away on a trip, take some good books to read. To keep the friendship sparkling, you also have to be sincere and sensitive. You should also be careful of things you say because he takes both criticism and praise very seriously.

Next.

You often get very jealous of others but you are successful at controlling your emotions publicly. When you feel that other people are winning things that you deserve, you get very upset, but you won't hurt anybody else by making a scene. Your jealousy is private. You might, for example, cry yourself to sleep at night when you get really jealous of someone.

Next.

You will never expect to control your boyfriend or husband. Your boyfriend and you will take turns to make decision and the decision is often acceptable to both of you. Whatever you want to let him know, you can just tell him straightforwardly. This is a good relationship, a pretty modern one.

Next.

The Artist

You love freedom and want to follow your heart's desires. You might not be at your best when dealing with other people. Once you are given the opportunity to work your chosen way, your gift will shine. A tip for you is not to concentrate too much on your own work, but widen your focus and consider the opinions of other people.




Next

He is wild and adventurous. His path is often against the world. He does what he wants when he feels like. His type of girl is quite like him, independent and wise. If you love freedom and willing to risk, go for this guy.




Next.

Your future friend: People with mature and strong character attract you. Your close friends are usually a tigress or a tomboy. (We're all tigresses aren't we? )

Your travel plan: You will travel to exotic countries like Tibet, India, Egypt. You enjoy visiting ancient ruins, lost woods and spending time in a hut in peaceful neighborhood.

Your future financial status: You are very good at saving and sometimes you are even stingy. The reason you want your teeth to grow longer is because when you can't eat, you can save even more on food. Once your money is deposited in the bank, there's no way that you will withdraw it out just to spend on luxuries.

The last period of your life: You can't stand being a lonely old lady so you will spend the last days of you life being a kind loving grandparent so that the kids will love to have you around.




Next.

You have him in a corner of your heart. Don't lie to yourself; he's your special guy. Take good care of your heart. You still have a long way to go. Always remember that love has two edges. Being apart for a while might be a good chance to proof his love to you.




Next.

What if your boyfriend goes out with another girl?

You are like most others who take the middle track. Although you won't get over-worried, you are not too optimistic either. You overcome bad times after a while and patience will bring you happiness.




Next. (The truest so far)

You are generally a calm person. You get excited when your favorite band is in town, when you are going on a date with your partner or when you and your friends are dancing. Your friends mean everything to you. You hate it when the summer is over.

You like art, and some poetry. You can throw a party, or help a friend put one together. You usually have no trouble finding dates, but you occasionally hit a dry spell. You like the outdoors, usually, and rainy weather doesn't bother you. You sometimes get jealous of people who are smarter or better looking than you, but you wouldn't hold it against them if you got to know them. You are on good terms with your parents, even though they annoy you once in a while. People tend to think you are reliable and trustworthy. You like animals.

Commented Cassandra,19: "It was amazing to learn that all these clothes are well-preserved, although they were hand-sewn centuries ago. Seeing the clothes worn during imperial China made history come alive for me."

"I realise that history is more than just numbers and memorising years and timelines." - Cassandra Leong.



If anyone read that article in The Newpaper on Sunday, page 30 and 31.


What i remember saying out of the blue( My brain came alive for that short moment), that the lady at the asian civilisation museum liked very much and wanted the reporter to take down, was very much simpler.

"I never knew history to be so beautiful, it used to be just numbers."

short. and sweet.

so i built him a little cabin, with a front door, side door, and a roof door. that was how he moved in about a week and half back. and then last saturday, i decided that his little cabin was getting dirty and smelly, so i threw it away. and gave him a little funnel to play with instead.

poor hammie ran all around his cage, rounds and rounds! dug his way under the wood shavings, overturned his food bowl, dug under his funnel, and just kept running round and round looking for his little blue cabin. then after a very long while, he lay down in a corner and just stared at me with those beeeeeg black doleful eyes...........

i felt so mean for throwing away his little cabin. and to make up for what i did, i made him a double storey terrace, with indoor and outdoor staircases, and lots of doorways. heh. he finally knows how to get to the second floor. =)

now we're both happy again.

hammie seems to be the best name for the hamster. i am going to get him a gay partner soon. =)

Tuesday, December 10, 2002

oOooOOoo... juz reach home.. veri tired sia.. onli slp for bout max 5 hr in chalet.. hee.. first dae robin n ben go catch crab..caught 7.. 3 died in de end.. de 2 smallest crab still cant pinch.. so i keep playing wif dem.. called dem da li & xiao li!! heh.. den de biggest crab among dem all is chao da li!! later tat nite... de crabbie we caught were sorta lethargic.. i scared dey die so in the end pull kim go n "fang shen" wif me.. den poke ball de whole nite leh!!! damn tired sia!! n gotta walk such a long way back to de chalet.. bLeAh~ second day go swimming...de water so nice n clean!! not like at pasiris... yuckie!! don like pasiris!! this time de bbq not so nice leh.. abit funni tasting.. hmm... as usual.. everyone fighting for de bed but since veri little ppl were left last nite.. got alot of space to slp in.. hehe.. hmmm.... haiyo.. not enuff slp.. brain not functioning.. my turn to go aus tomolo... sucki...








OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG!!!!!!!!!! hahahaha. i can't believe the way i wrote. *bangs head so hard it cracks and bleeds* absolutely disgustingly act-cute. *bangs head again*. i don't even know why i'm reposting it. but.. i am. the days when i replaced 'y' with either 'i','ie' or 'e'. the times when my wrting was full of 'sia', 'wor'. OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!

and i was 16. disgusting.






then i read on.... and on..... and on...........................

and i have a conclusion. i changed a hell lot in JC. the ah lian wasn't in style anymore so i became more angmoh. haha. so angmoh i screwed my chinese aural exams. grrrrrrr.

and now? now i do what i like. write in english(usually), speak in a mixture of english, chinese and cantonese, and cuss in a handful of different languages.

Thursday's child has far to go says:
baaah. how to get to jb..? i forgot!!

xinyu* I GOT A PLACE IN CLAYTON HALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! says:
lols.. y do u need to know when i'll be around? HAHAHAHAHA

xinyu* I GOT A PLACE IN CLAYTON HALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! says:
im ur BRAIN!



conclusion of short conversation:
i am forgetful
my bestfren is mean adn says that i don't have a brain in my head. but i suppose it's good cos it means she has to stick to me all the time. =) so that the brain n body can stick together. !!!! reminds me of pinky and the brain!!!! we're pinky and the brain.. pinky and the brain.. one is a genius... the other's insane!!! =)))

oh. it also shows that Miss Toh has gotten aussieland totally settled. congrats girl!!! -hugs-

waiting for that email. still waiting.





and getting scared. getting sick. getting frustrated.
with life. with the way things are going. with the forces around that compell you to do certain things a certain way.


fuck them all.


take me away. make me forget.

i'm feeling so whiney. and that's not really good cos i don't like whiney and i don't want to feel like her. sigh.

got my first customer today. my dear sis weiying. it just feels weird when my friend is my customer tho. ah well. i promise to put 101% into making it!!! haha! =) gotta go get her purple first tho.. =)

been stoning the whole day... as usual.. watching hammie run around.. waking him up to play with me but he's really sleepy. =) and i still don't have a name for hammie. he's still "oi" for the moment. =) ahhh......... so cute!!!!!!!

no moulmein high on teevee today... sian. i need to get a life!!!! -bang head-

i want a prom to go to. so that i'll have an excuse to get the really nice green dress. to think i used to hate green. but green really sucks! cos it's associated to primary school enemy!! whom i still don't like tho i can't remember. why. =)

and the boyfriend will be back soon. YEH!!!!!!!!!

tsktsk. irresponsible shit too busy doing nothing to update this thing. =x

anw, last post was on weiying's birthday...... here is the best picture of the night.. heh. complete with caption....



okie... back to weiying. her new gold shoes.


her new yellow clutch...


a heart from xinyu...


mmmm.... she does not seem focused on the camera... prolly cos it's like.. holly wood star style. there were 3 cameras... where to look???? smile then look at all of them one by one lor...

i always wonder what photogs do with the photos they don't use...

anyway, i didn't get much pictures due to certain reasons... and it didn't feel birthday-y enough for me... sorry weiying- we owe you a proper celebration!!!! *hugs*

mei you lian jian ni!!!!!



but clubbing after that was FUN!!!! hahahahhaa

drunk ginny is as cute as drunk weiying!!!! wanted to put all her pictures into one then flash it... BUT photoshop auto shut down, and i'm too lazy to reopen.. so i'll just select my favourite drunk ginnys. =)))








drunk ginny looks so normal, acts relatively normal, but still so hot. and sexy. =)

say cheeseeeee!!!!!


*gasp* oops!!


best picture of the night goes to.............. my sexy lady!!!!!


outside zouk..


heap of ah lian's by the road.


hahahaha. something's hanging out sarah!!!!


sarah, weiying, ginny, xinyu, swe, cassan, linderr. go figure. =)



anyway. we hopped from momo to zouk to devils where i got confronted by ugly slabs of sillicon. i have seen lotsa nice fake boobies, i have met lotsa nice friendly trannies. but those. EW! *jumps backwards in horror* were just plain, ugly, slabs of sillicon. and the person in question..? well. has been thinking too much. (of herself amongst other things) ta xiang tai duo le!!

oh well. *shrugs*










on to the next big day.
Sheryl's birthday!!!! 27 nov 2005. finally the youngest among us is 19. happy belated birthday. =)


then back to me, myself and i: Cliff's in phuket and i don't know what to name my hamster.

Happy tenth month. =)
thank you for the rose. and thank God for you.
i love you baby.

hope you're having fun. =)