then WHAM!
and it's over.
mistakes hardly noticeable.
weeks and weeks of practice,
all for those precious minutes.
excitement and laughter.
enduring pain and blisters.
through gossip we find friendship.
and then you realise how time flies-
it's been three months since the first meet.




ok. very fast updates. i did not win any title at all, but got chosen for a takashimaya show on 8 october. =)

Dearest younger, yet taller than me, but with smaller feet Sophie is The Newpaper Newface 2005. i'm glad she won, she deserves it!! Two thumbs up for the judges because they chose her, but two thumbs down for the leak(from i donno who and where) that she is the hot favourite(no suspense!!! so expected!!). Anyway, CONGRATULATIONS SOPHIE!!!!!!!!!!








I've been busy eating. i ate my yong tau foo then finished cliff's beef noodles. =) will blog later, when i feel like loading the pictures- which i promise will be soon!!!!

anyway, i miss 56789!!!! =)) have to meet up!! we never did conclude our conversation that day!!! -grin-

today was long and tiring.. ended around 12. i finally finished packing my stuff and i'm just here cos i really really want to thank my "agent". Bestfren, i know you're doing lots for me, especially having to give out all the invites... thanks ya? don't know what i'd do without you girl. -hughug- love u best fren =)

thankiew to my darling cliff for waiting around an hour for me to finish rehearsals then driving me and some of the girls home. i know you have work tomorrow so really, thanks baby. =) thanks for helping me pass out some invites too.. =)

to the people who are going, thank you for going. and to my girls, i really hope to see u ALL soon.. yupyup. =) take care wherever you are, whatever you're doing. Weiying, get well soon. Chay, hope u enjoyed your shoot. Sheryl, i just hope you're doing well ya =)


oh. and my ankle hurts like fuck. hope i can walk properly tomorrow man =(

i love rehearsals. everything about it. the walking, the camaraderie, the people, even the horrible heels that gives blisters. cos that's what makes things seem real. it wouldn't seem real if everything was perfect, but add some pain and WHAM! you know you're definitely not dreaming =)

Had fantastically fantastic fittings and rehearsals today- on the actual stage this time... had some changes which i'm not too sure off, but i believe in following the one in front of me!! hahahaa. =)

Emiko came late- poor girl had a lit paper. i remember lit papers. you NEVER ever feel the 3 hours. it always feels like only an hour and there is never enough time.

anyway, some stolen moments from today =)

skinny legs and fat legs. guess who they belong to!!!!

NATURALLY.... fat legs belong to yours truly... sexy tan legs belong to my hot junior =))

AUNTY ANNE'S PRETZELS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

they make two hungry girls very happy =)

hahahaha. Gwen can't stop smiling. She said the stall lady keep looking at her.

2 of the uniform girls

gwen looks like she's squeezing pieling's nose. she isn't. really. just trying to feed her. hahahaa.

mei, thana, shikeen, gwen, daniel, me, dympna, geoff

once again, my hot junior, EMIKO!!!!
(reasons to like my school)

me being annoying with my schoolbag, tie, and heels!!

bumming around after fittings...

me and my darling annabelle!!!

shikeen, gwen, and me!!

the younger, but taller, and smaller feet-ed girl.

school girls with angelia in the middle =)

labelling photos is so tiring. but it beats writing. haha. gotta sleep.. i'm beat man.... and my calf muscles(muscles laa. not fats can?!) are sore....... 2 days to the finals =)

I LOVE MY MISS SIXTY'S OUTFIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

damn punk can???? sooooo hawt!! i like i like i love!!!!!

i wanna get a camera. =) like, finally i decide to not be a scrooge and take out money from the bank to get a camera. then i'm really gonna become a professional camera whore man.... =)

Name: Cassandra Leong
Age: 19 going 20
Profession: Camera Whore

YEH!!!!!!!!


oh. just found out that Peisin's gf is one of the stylist. Shall go say hi to her, when i find out who she is =)

Sophie is MAD. She kissed me on the cheek today. Then i kissed her back and lied that she had a big red lipstick mark on her cheek. hahahaha. and emiko and shikeen gamely played along with me. it's nice seeing sophie trying to wipe off a non-existent lipstick mark =)

We had a small tutorial session by MAC today and Tabatha was one of Beno's model today. She was like damn cute sitting there and making faces. hahaa. anyway, the sweet thing gave me an extra post event ticket cos she din need it. sosososososososo nice of her!! once again, THANK YOU!!!!!!!!!

i'm so excited about wed's rehearsal. Emiko n I are gonna wear SCHOOL UNIFORMS!!!! YEH!!!!! it just feels so good cos i haven worn one for a long time.. and honestly, i kinda miss wearing one. =) We're tryng to get the other girls to come in uniform too. heh. If lots of us really wear the uniform, i think it's gonna be really fun! i can't wait to see daniels' expression. hahahaha!!






Cliff and i were talking nonsense one day.

Me: "i want to go to jurong birdpark and free all the birds!!"

Cliff: "you mad ar?!" then he stones for a while and start laughing.

Me: "What you laughing for??!!!!"

Cliff: "when the police catch you and ask why you free all the birds right.. you can tell them,'my brother is going on a journey today, i want to bring him good fortune!' then i can add in,'more birds, more luck!!'".


damn nonsense right??? but i like love. =)

Four brothers is nice. touching, interesting, brotherly.

Whenever someone dies, a show is called touching.
If there is conflict, it is intrigueing.
If the title is four brothers, it is a brotherly show.

Four brothers is kinda a bangbang show.

it starts when some people bangbang, and some ppl die. then the brothers get together to find out who started the bangbang. they thought they found a clue, but it was a wrong clue. then they found a real clue, which lead them to the people who did the bangbang. when the people who did the bangbang realise that they had been found, they tried to bangbang the brothers, but they missed, and a car chase begain, throughout which there was lots of bangbang and eventually ended when the brothers bang the other car so hard that it did a somersaut. the brothers went over to the overturned car, got a name, then bangbang the people who did it. that was one revenge taken, but they knew it was not the end. they also had to find the people who INITIATED the bangbang. so they probed, there was a misunderstanding and men being men(better at fists then at communication), the brothers beat up one of themselves, only to realise they got the wrong idea. At this point of time, the youngest and cutest brother got tricked out of the house,(while the older, more street-wise, but not-so-good at communicating brothers fought it out it the house) and a HUGE bangbang went on, resulted in many dead men from the opposing side, and one dead young and cute brother (so sad!!) One brother managed to get a name from the driver of the opposing team, then he bangbang that driver too. A nice cop came to question them, but the nice cop got bangbang by his malicious corrupt partner. Eventually, after the funerals, the brothers got to work, start using their minds and their women, and manage to bangbang the leader who initiated the initial bangbang. The End.

I like the way they disposed of the leader's body- he'll never be found!! I like the way the brothers, when questioned by the police, said,"i did it. i did your hot young thing of a wife" or something like that. They didn't plan it, but they all taunted the police who questioned them with that same line. haha. damn cute. i like. the brotherhood was tight, and loyalty between brothers always touches me.(especially when they're not real brothers, but foster children of a very very nice lady)And all's well, ended well. The end.

Bangbang!

i still donno why vincent wanted to kill evelyn.

muahahahahhaaaa!!!! i put my super long newface post on the side thingie. so now i can blog in peace and it will remain seen by all. =)))

did some video filming just now, and i really feel like one huge blabbering, rambling bimbo. BAH. i really don't understand myself. i can talk hours and hours of profound crap yet i stumble in front of the camera. how humiliating. i really need to practice talking to myself more.

more rehearsals coming up tomorrow. somehow, i really like rehearsals, (but i don't really like tomorrow's rehearsal cos it clashes with villa wellness and i really enjoying my thursday nights at home with my darling) everyone gets together, go through the same steps, complain about blisters, grin at each other when we walk past each other, make funny faces when we think no one else is looking-we have fun; or so it seems. i have fun anyway.

today, i brought my 4 favourite girls(the fifth one still stuck at other end of island) down to be interviewed. and i heard them shout something along the lines of... "we love you!!!" whilst i was in the other room, and it was one of those little moments in life when my heart just flutters around and i can't stop grinning. i love them too. =)

so i treated my dearies to dinner at chompchomp. i love food...... =)



damn i love food. =(


it's a count down of....... a few more days till yinsiu go back down under, and a few more days plus 2 till the finals.

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RAAAAAAAAAAAAA.

feel damn sian. i wanna get a puppy. BUT it takes time, money, effort, love. all of which i don't have enough to offer. i want a kitten too. BUT the two cute kittys near cliff's place are gone.

actually, i just want a puppy. then again, kittys are cute too. you know what? one of each will be nice!! haha.

SIGH.

i wanna go out with my girlsss........... i miss them!!!

mean girl. bitch.
felt so guilty.

i'm so sorry.
sorry for being mean.

sometimes, i think it's rather unfair and selfish if one were to impose on others certain restrictions just so to fit one's own wants.

i realise that people start taking advantage of their friends once their friend is able to drive. this is extremely disgusting as please realise, i know that you may want to save $1 on a bus ride, but in order to go out of the way just to pick you up (please realise in the first place that driving you is an OPTION that your friend has kindly agreed to although your friend can just leave you in the lurch and not bother at all) , your friend has to blow like maybe, $2 on petrol. And petrol is not cheap these days. But do you care??? NO. You don't care. Why? because so what if your nice, accomodating, kind friend has to spend $2 just for you, the selfish one- As long as you save your $1, you are happy. You're disgusting.

i think we all should do some self-reflection. Are you guilty of the above-mentioned? If you are, and you change, at least there is hope for you. If you are, but you don't give a damn, just remember that what goes around, comes around.

Sometimes, when you donate money to beggars on the street, only to realise later that the beggar had both hands, both legs, is young, strong and healthy, and is just too lazy to work but wants easy money, do you feel cheated??? i feel that way now. And i'm not the only one. Giving sympathy to someone who does not need it in the first place makes me feel very very cheated. Taking advantage of a kind-hearted, caring soul is plain disgusting.

somehow i just hate it when people tell me "i told you so"

wheeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! today's rehearsal was soooooo much more fun. i don't know why. haha. maybe cos everyone seemed friendlier today, maybe cos the food was better, maybe cos we're starting to loosen up, maybe, for me, it's cos annabelle was there!!!! ANNABELLE!!!!! i was kinda sad that belle wasn't there yesterday.. true, there was sophie, shikeen, tabatha, emiko, con, and others... BUT. i just missed belle. haha. NO!!! i'm not a lesbian!!!! lolol.

anw, today we learnt our sequences... (i just forgot the second one.. uh-oh!!) did the "walk-walk-walk-pose" thingie- and gwen and me had so much fun doing funny poses and laughing our heads off.. i'm starting to like rehearsals, and as denise said, " make it the best time you've had ", or something close. (sorry, i have super short-term memory). poor rachel and pieling got awful blisters... ew! i hate blisters!! and con was super cute n blur.. ahha. missed tabatha tho; she brings really yummy marks and spencers sweets!!! nah. joking. she means more than just a packet of sweets. =) well...... there's sooo much more to say!!! but, i can't remember much else.. oh!!OH!!!! i scared the hell outta emiko cos i predicted everything she did in the afternoon, and she looked kind of freaked out. haha. it was just cos i spotted her at novena square laa.... heh.

anyway, emiko says that Mr Haniss says to wish me all the best. Thank you Mr Haniss =)

it's nice getting to know the girls. so very nice. hee.

gwen, sophie, belle and me are going to get our hair done at toni and guy on thursday. But before that, belle and i are going shopping!!!!!!!!!

walked out of SPH with belle earlier on, and just talked bout this and that, and i'm really glad i know her. =) she has a reeeaaallllyyyyy cute 3 mth old puppy!!! haha. then we entertained ourselves at macdonald's while waiting for our respective boyfriends. =)

i love cliff.

on the way home with cliff..... guess what??? i saw bestfren and sonny!!!! hahahhaa. PLUS andy messaged me in the afternoon.. having contact with so many of my favourite people everyday is veryvery enjoyable indeed.

sigh. grueling 3 hours. get shouted at (once), repeated the same thing 4 times (cos of different mistakes at different times), get told to lose weight in front of 17 other girls, told that my shoes (which i just bought today) are not suitable cos they don't have the back strap.

it was day 1. 19 more days to go. so much to do, so lil' time. sigh. will do it. not gonna screw my second chance.

HOW COME THEY DIN HAVE ANTM TONIGHT???? i rushed home for nth. grrr.

chao cabbie kb me, said that i flagged down the cab too late. bloody hell. then don't pick me up!! simple as A B C. noone ask you, an empty cab, to be travelling on the second lane!!! most empty cabs travel on the first lane!! PLUS i wasn't flagging you. i was flagging the cab BEHIND you. YOU wanted to swerve to the first lane, get horned at, block the entire road. AND THEN YOU SCOLD ME IN THE CAB! don't fugging pick me up la. rude bitch.

the house on the corner is FILLED with lanterns. so pretty!!!!! i wanna play lantern too. -sulk-



grrr. the whole of bishan park is filled with ppl and lanterns. i wanna go too!! but i dont have a single lantern. bah. i wanna play lantern!!!! i want lantern!!!! iwantlanterniwantlanterniwantlantern!!!!!

fuck. i shall go simmer till tomorrow. then maybe i'll stop thinking why i'm not out there with lanterns. last year i didn't have the mood. this year? guess i just wasn't prepared. i didn't know when lantern festival was. sigh. so i'm at home.

argh. i wanna play lantern!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sometimes i read people's blogs. and it dosen't seem taht bad leaving after all. time will pass quickly ya...? i'm just afraid of a breakdown in communication.

AND WHAT IF SOME GIRL SEDUCES CLIFF??!!!!!

-faints-

just came back from J8, watched Cinderella Man. truly inspirational, touching, motivating and heart warming story.

True, it has a very typical storyline. Man gets success, Man falls, Man gets second chance, Man makes it good again.

But so what? it's the kind of story that almost everyone loves. the kind of story that every one wants to identify with. when you watch the guy, Jimmy, get up time and time again after getting knocked down, you can't help but feel for him. suddenly, i feel some of how the wife feels. the pain and anguish that sears through him when he gets punched, i feel it too. but each time he got a punch back at his opponent, despite how weak or strong that punch was, you feel the adrenalin rush through you once again, pumping you up, giving you hope to hold on that jimmy WILL WIN!!!!! true, some parts of me expected him to win. But being actually brought through the journey with jimmy, you feel his determination. You think of the times when you yourself got given the second chance-did you treasure it?? did you give it the attention it was worth? jimmy did. and he won.

i will wake up early and go jogging tomorrow. =) i hope.

anyway, Cinderella Man is a really good show that you should catch not only for the fighting. But for the courage of a man to set aside his ego for the moment, and ask for help, to the extent of begging from people who knew him as a former boxing champion, people who saw him in his better days, just to pay his electrical bills and to keep his family together. his determination and love is truly amazing.











HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAREST BESTIE ANDY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

life's is always brighter after talking to you =)

rosti was an almost success- just that the pan got REALLY burnt. haha.

simple rosti recipe:

• boil a pot of water. (enough water to cover all the potatoes.)
• whilst waiting for water to boil, peel and wash potatoes.
• when water is boiling, put the peeled potatoes in for approximately 5 min.
• after the 5 min, fish potatoes out, and wait for them to cool.
• start shredding potatoes. (potato shredder can be found in most super markets, i think.)
• heat pan.
  
• add butter/ oil
• throw in a handful of shredded potato, use spatula to tease it into a nice round shape.
• sprinkle some salt on the potato.
• wait for the bottom of potato to turn golden brown, then flip potato to cook other side.
• once both sides are sufficiently browned, potato changes name to rosti.
• rosti is ready to be served and eaten. =)

** serve with chipolata sausages(can be found in most supermarkets) and sour cream.

tada!!! rosti!!!!

it's only my second attempt at rosti.... so... you can improvise your own whatevers. =)))

i look so fugging fat. my face looks like a mooncake. so chubby i feel like chewing myself up. photos are freaking deceiving!!! i SWEAR i'm not THAT bad in real life..... =(

this is so sad. but yet i've been trying and you say it's not enough. i know it's not enough but for a person like me it's more than i've ever done!! i'm reallyreally trying.


it's time to do a lindsay lohan. =(


i donno which is more depressing..... getting kicked out cause i'm too fat, or getting fat photos splashed on national papers. =(


**check out my pictures and interview HERE








no..... it's not the brown and dowdy uniform that's making me sad... it's just having fat pictures splashed on the papers....... =/



watched quite a few movies the past few days. watching movies make me happy. haha. specially since i watch them with my baby n my bestfren =)

red eye
the perfect catch
one more chance
the longest yard
herbie:fully loaded.

all are supersuper nice movies!! except for the ending of one more chance, which spoiled an otherwise touching movie.

like xinyu said, they're too focused on singaporean concerns and that's probably why they find it so hard to make it big globally. can't they just make a movie for pure entertainment sake??

sorry cliffy dear.. no rosti... but SOON! i promise!!! heh. wo ai ni!!!!!!!



Anw, just to let ppl who care know, i am a finalist of the new paper new face 2005, and will most probably be appearing in tomorrow's new paper. yes, me, and quite ugly pix of me, along with an interview which i was not prepared for, and thus, screwed. bad pix and bimbo-sounding interview. yup. please support me, Cassandra Leong. 165, 50something kg. (i lost weight hor... not 60kg anymore!!!) =>


PS. if you have to laugh and tell me how shitty i look or/and sound, feel free to call me. =)

waaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm at the other end of my world!!!!! guess where???

i'm at NTU!!!!!!!!!!!! (sher just commented that i've got a nice asshole=>)
and i am blogging from my dearest sherrie's lappie.... in my darling sherrie's room.... lalalala. hostel life for an hour or two!!!!

it's kinda scary actually.... like, staying so near to so many ppl. i cant bitch in peace. if i complain... everyone will hear me!!!!! PLUS i cant sceam when i'm in a bad mood.(not that i've been screaming alot recently=>)

anw, had a long needed talk with an old friend about a day back.. and i've gotten my much needed closure. i just pray that God keeps this old friend safe.

on dinner: rosti and sausages!!!!! wheeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!

i love sherrie. i just prefer her nearer home. COME HOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i mean. GO HOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i just realised i've never taken a "family photo" with cliff n my chinchilla. that's real sad somehow.. cos i know she liked him lots.... how'd i know? how'd i read an animals mind?? i just know ok??!! me n my girl-we understand each other well..

just that i neglected her sometimes.. yea. that's all. but i miss her.


this is her. she likes running around my bed.. hiding in tunnels i make with my pillows(n i've got LOTS of pillows!!). she's likes me playing a game of "catch me if you can" with her.... and she'll jump up n bite me if i annoy her too much. i miss her..

happy birthday to xiaoshi =)
happy birthday to chay =)





nabehcheebye.

i just read xinyu's really cute post bout "200 hundred things you've done before 19" or something liddat like that. there was one that went....

have you ever helped an animal give birth???


i started laughing. cos i rmb remember not helping my hamsters give birth, but helping them to make love. HAHAHAH!!!!!!! i desperately wanted baby hamsters so i helped mr male hamster find his way home; i put him on top of a female hamster. and low and behold!!!1 BABIES!!!!!!!!!!!!


disgusting me. i did it more than just a few times. =)

sorry, to the few who read, please put up with this template till i make a new one.... =)

mandy, i'll get you the chatboardthingie i promised soooooooooo long ago.. =x

hmmm. once again, being the short-memory bimbo that i am, i practically forgot every single thing that i wanted to blog. i think i should stop thinking about what to blog, and just blog. let me give it a go.

we went to beloved momo just now... and things seemed.... perfect. all the clubbing kakis... the drinks.. the seats.... then we went to phuture. it was at phuture that my night took a drastic turn.

think of it this way: how easy is it to forget the person who slashed you with a parang??? even when the wound heals, a welt is formed!!! there is a SCAR!!!!!

now everyone look at their legs; see if there are any scars. do u rmb falling down now?? true, some scars heal. mine healed(as in the scar i got from falling down).. but the last time i fell down was AGES ago!!! maybe... 10 years ago??? and there are many other scars (like the three slashes i got from the escalator), that are still there. sometimes i look at my scars, and i feel happy. *thought bubble* "i fall down on escalator before leh.... you got anot??!!! hurhur~". but at the same time i rmb the pain, the blood, the tears. yeah. do you get what i'm saying? do you feel the same way???

anw, on clubbing. i am disgusted(cos i used to dislike the coordinated moves.. but i'm starting to find it cute!!) to announce that i am actually starting to like mambo more n more.... haha. especially when they played "it's my life". it makes me happy =) and guess what??? they played spice up your life at momo!!!!!!! *jumpityjumpityjump* anyone who has clubbed with me knows that i go mad when they play this song!!!! hahahahahahhaaa!!!!!!!

actually, i don have that much left to say... will post pix when i get them from singuan.... it's been a wild night.... each time i turn to see ryan(bestfren's fren) holding his cigerette, i get internal conflict between the devil and the angel. lolx. smokesmokesmoke!!!! NONONO!!!!!! angel won tonight. hehe. =) ryan and his fren were very nice, keeping us safe... and.... to a certain extent, protected. haha. nice ppl. i like clubbing with this kinda ppl, tho of cos, us girls can take care of ourselves just as well!!! it's just a nice change to have other ppl do the job. heh.


did u ever realise??? that if you dig your nose after clubbing, there is alot of stuff in ur nose??? as in.. the pi sai la.... ya. and if u dig ur nose with a tissue paper after u smoke, u find lots of brown precipitate on e tissue??!!!!

***pls do not dig ur nose in front of an audience. it is immensely revolting regardless of how good-looking you are.







once again girls, i am so glad that despite all that shit i put u girls thru, u're still here with me. thank you for a wonderful friendship. =)))



















THIS IS ON MY DARLING CLIFF.
i am seeing my darling later and we're gonna watch villa wellness together. but first, i gotta decide what to cook for dinner..... *brainstorm*

anw, that day he drove us to fortcaning, and we walked round.... explored, and i kissed him under a misletoe... i donno what it signifies, but from what i vaguely rmb, it's something good!!=) looked at some old graves and stood there wondering about these ppl who were some somebody, but are reduced to once-grand tombstones, now eroded by elements of nature. thinking bout their greatgreatgreatgreatgreatgreatgreatgreat grandkids, and how they'd feel about having someone important in the ancestral line. i think it's pretty awesome =) there was this particular person, a german, who died in singapore.. somehow, i think it sucks(sorry, i cant think of any better word) to die in foreign land... maybe, hopefully, he had loved singapore as much as some of us do, and was happy to die here...? i said a silent prayer for them. for the great ones who came years before me, and helped build the nation that i have come to love(i do love singapore hor!!!! ).

anw, he pointed out (shit! i just forget what it's called!!!) the place where ppl register marriages... YES!!!! ROM!!!! hahahahhahaa. and i asked when he was bringing me there.

him: 9 years later la.... now to early to get married.
me: i know..... engage first la.. since we're here already.... we can be engaged for 9 yrs!!!

haha. i was joking la.... i'm only 19..... but who knows right??? i might, i repeat, might, one day walk down the aisle with him!!! hahahhaa. we never know what lies ahead of us in life, what the Big Guy up there has in stall for us... we can only wait. someday, we'll find out. till then, i'll treasure my moments with my darling. my favourite boyfriend. hahahhaa. ok la..... my only boyfriend. =)

last night was the first time ever i had fun at zouk.
first, we attempt to squeeze into phuture. then, xinyu n me cldnt make it. =/ eventually, sheryl n singuan came out and miraculously, they got us in. but my face was still black cos i hated e squeezing. haha.. anyway, after a while, donno what got into me, i started shaking n shaking n creating space for myself. so...... i had space to dance!!!!!!!!!! wheeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahaha. stupid face(some stranger with a stupid face) actually thot i wanted to dance with him. like, EW?!! eek. so he stuck behind us for the whole night till we left phuture for zouk. idiot. we push him, knock him, elbow him, and the poor fucker still don get the hint. bah. anw, he had a flabby tummy n chest. how i know?? i was the one pushing, shoving n elbowing him. =))

lotsa funny guys. not funny-funny, but weird-funny. eek. i think stupid face's whole group of friends were ard us or something. blah. told one guy to "pls keep ur hands to urself" cos he kept trying to touch my partner!!!! haha. and he walked away. it was very nice really, cos when he walked off, there was suddenly even more space for us!!!! hahaha.

on mambo: i know the chorus to.... erm.... what's that song??? "luckyluckylucky"!!!! e rest i forgot. and they sprayed that i-donno-what which was so cold n sooooooooo shiok!!!!!!!

i think my blogging is getting pointless.....


regardless. tacos for dinner... AND cliff n i have got a date to watch table for 3 and the weight show after that.... i donno what's the name of the weight show but....... it's the one on adverts where someone (i think david gan) goes, "do u shave ur armpit??" and sound effects go..... "diongg" (i'm sorry i donno how to spell that sound... but it sounds like how a spring would when someone stretches it and then lts go.) so everyone pls don forget to tune in to the do-u-shave-ur-armpit show at 8pm on ch5 TONIGHT!!!!! (thursday)


shld i run?? shld i not?? shld i run?? shld i not??? shld i run?? shld i NOT?????? i think not!!! =))
but gotta losseeeeee weeeeeiiiiigggggggghhhhhhhhhhtttttttttt............................. BLAH.GRRRR.



girl, 19, 165cm, reaching 60kg(=x). looking for slimming companies willing to sponser free slimming sessions.

cliff let me drive his car early this morning!! =)ard changi airport carpark. hahahaha. so fun. but so freaking scary!!!!!! lol.

i miss my girls so much....... don u all wish we could be forever 18???

soooooooooooooo happy today. cos cliff drove my bestfren n my girlfriends home. somehow, it just means so much to me. haha. lalala. =)

anw, if u wanna see me, i'll be doing promotion for silkpro at suntec tmr, between 3-5... support pls?? haha. boingboing.

HAPPY GIRL!!

i'm going to school tmr. (NUS that is.)

they wrote me a long letter, telling me their virtues and y i shld accept them n study there. ultimately, they just know that i am going to succeed in life n they want to be able to boast that i studied with them n they taught me invaluable things.



AS IF. i am going there to market starhub, that's all. haha. lalala. tmr, i'll c the world!!!!!! wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i am proud to announce that since my birthday, i have been a proud owner of a colourful towel material mango bag. (CTMMB)

occasionally when i walk along the streets, i see ppl carrying that bag, and i think to myself,"my bag is the same as hers, yet much more special!! hurhur~" Y? simply cos that CTMMB was picked out for me by my bestfren. we stayed up all night n went to mango sale FIRST THING in the morning, to shop. i did not have that bag in mind but later on, i found that some ppl had actually reserved that bag so i was quite pissed. NOT FAIR!!! HOW COME THEY GET TO RESERVE MY PRETTY CTMMB??!!! bestfren n i were actually plotting to create a scene then steal the bag outta the reserved items. BUT being the nice morally upright ppl we are, we didint. (anti-climax right??!!)

anw, a few weeks later, when i was opening my presents, i saw that fucking chio CTMMB!!!! my mouth dropped!!!! MY BESTFREN ACTUALLY MANAGED TO GET IT FOR ME!!!!!!!!!! holy shit!! i was shocked/surprised/happy/cannot-describe-in-words!!! that bag means so much to me. #1 cos i like it. #2 cos it's a present. #3 cos it's from my laopo.

thankx best fren!!! for the specialest bag in the world!!!! sigh. the things u do for me. i dont deserve you, really. yet i cant bear to leave u cos i know i'll die without the friendship u so readily hand to me. thankiew for everything my dearest bestfren. may you always have the best in life. -big hug- know that you're always in my heart alright???!!!!

wtfh. grrr. thot for a moment my blog kanna heck into. like real- why wld someone wanna heck into a nobody's blog like MINE? haha. but i think something bad happened to my gmail. sad shit. =(


i have no idea how to use outlook. so too bad mommy... say byebye to ur files..... MUAHHAHAHAHAHAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


i am about to SPEND more money..... hopefullly this time it's gonna be a good investment, cos he last time the acer guy came, he was a f!u@c#k$i%n^g&c*h(a)o_c-h+e=e\b|y~e. i tio virus 3 days later. gRRRRR. sucker.




BABYBABYBABYBABYABABYBABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SIX WHOLE MONTHS!!!!! (or 7, however u wanna see it =>) WOW!!!! I LOVE YOU BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!

Cliff & Cassandra. elements of nature =)

like, what is your problem??!!!!

working at a telco: u get fucking ccb customers...

#1

cust: i want to sign up for all 3 services!
me: (jumping for joy! yeh!! can hit target!) sure sir, i just need your identification pls.
cust: oh. i din bring identification.
me: nth at all sir? driving license? passport? if no then i'm afraid i cant help you...
cust: fine. i'll bring my business elsewhere then. (walks off acting like he's the only customer in the world)

like wtf?!!! if some other telco lets u apply for any services at all, let me know man!!! hurhur~


anw, he came back a few days later with identification. nice to see you again sir...




#2

cust: oh. i want to change both my remote, but swop only one box.

me: sorry sir, we can't change the remote for you..

cust: y not?! it's the same remote what!

me: no.. it's different. u want to change you must go to customer service centre upstairs..

cust: ok la ok la... i give u the more spoilt one. (hands over remote with cracked casing)

me: sorry sir, we can't accept this remote cos it's cracked...

cust: y not?!! it's still a remoe, i'm still reurning you a remote what...

me: if u insist, then i'll just have to charge you for the remote.

cust: aiya... ok la ok la... take the other one la. OI! u take my cable also ar??!!!!

me: that's the power cord sir, we need to collect it back.

cust: but i thot it's mine?

me: no sir, that is ours...

cust: oh. but i thot it's mine. what if i want to keep it??

me: no problem sir, i'll jus have to charge you for it...

cust: must charge again ar??? den dowan la... nvm.

cust's wife: stupid place with their stupid rules and regulations..



i turned ard, banged down the bloody box and cussed. i dont care if they heard. they can fucking go fly kite.


so bloody annoying. grrr.
but it's alright. last day is this sunday. =) then it's just phoo shoots, wasting time slacking at home, and cooking dinner for my darling n mom n friends when they come over!!! -grin-


but then again, u do meet ppl from many different countries... like france, sweden, mauritous(sry!! i cant rmb how to spell!!!), australia!!!, germany, india, china..... blahblahblah. u see old singaporean men bringing young china girls down and paying for whatever those girls want...

and that day i served this deaf mute couple and it was so... touching. a normal 10 min conversation took so much longer cos i had to wrie everythign down.. but the experience.. it took my breath away.

and afew days before that.... I SERVED WONG LILIN n husband. SHE WAS SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO ABSOLUTELY GORGEOUS!!!!! -faint- i raved about it the whole day till my colleagues wanted to smack me. =)))


my colleagues are veryveryvery nice ppl too. and there are los of pretty girls there!!! like pris, nicole, RITA!!! (i'm falling for rita cos she's so cute! haha!), funny lynn, yiting.... etcetcetc. n yes!! sophie!!!! n michelle is damn funny also.. heh. shit. i donno if i left out anyone... oh yes i did! i left out jay!! she has a scary sense of humour.... =/ the guys are nice ppl also. haha. all the temp staff are damn funny laa... we sit in the pantry n bitch about biscuit aunty. whahahaha. i'd name all of them if i cld, but i'm too lazy to get my staff list, and if i just name them like that, CONFIRM forget some ppl. anw, all together, there's really noone to dislike at my workplace except for biscuit aunty who has been suspiciously nice. it's been a gd one month.=)

thank you all for a nice work experience!!

one good thing about looking after the tentage: Simon left the com on for meeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!! YEH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha.

15 July: went for buffet at goodwood park, saw handsome Mr Goh Chok Tong's wife, who made some nice comments about us which i overheard *grin* gave n collected presents, extremely impressed by Xinyu's artistic talent!!!!! i gave a a photo frame in magnet form, with her sec1 pic on it!!! WAHAHAHAA!!!!!!!!!! but it's cool. see the changes over the years!! lalala. i love you xinyu darling bestfren laopo sweetie!!!!!!

16 July: Went for audition...=) Met nice ppl like Jac n Crystle n made friends with Sancia, which is good la.. holding grudges aint that fun right? Nice knowing you guys =) bumped into LINDERR!!!!!!!!!!!! damn i love linderr!! haha. she was my perk of the morning!! -grin- Boyfriend drove mummy n me out to eat.. he gave a a GARBAGE CAN!! which i love so much cos it's says "here to stink you every 17/7" i LOVE my baby =))) PLUS he gave me a chilli red rose which was a gorgeous flaming reddish/orangey colour! =>

17 July: MY BIRTHDAY!!!!! went back to gramma's for a while... cut cake, eat cake, went to meet my precious. MY PRECIOUS BABY!!! Went town to change the size of my jacket, walked around, had dinner, VERY ncie dinner with snails n lobsters n prawns n crayfish n steak n baked potatoes n soup n dessert n tea!!!!! WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =))))))))))
so happyhappy. =) the unhappy bits, let's just forget; it spoils the mood n the moment. =)



there come times when i just wanna shout out to the whole world that I LOVE MY BOYFRIEND CLIFF!!!!!!!!!!!! for all the things that he has done, every single bitter n sweet moment, cos it's all those moments that make US. i love you baby =) lots n lots n lots!!!!!


to all the ppl who wished me, Thankiew!!!!!




i am sooooo bored in the tentage. i really wanna know how to fix my home com, and who is a reliable person i can call. any info, please email cassandraleong@gmail.com!!!!! thankiew!!!!!

ok i lied. just one post. today. for the special girl in my life =)

laopo.. shen ri kuai le!! wo ai ni!!!!!!!!!!!!

went over at midnight today.. dragged her out n serenaded her with choruses of "happy birthday" in the lift- xinyu, sheryl, me. i love u girls so damn much. all the stupid things that we do together and whats nots. u girls mean the world to me. =)))


then my boyfriend drove sheryl home. =))) haha. it's the first time he drove my friend home, n somehow it made me to jumpityhappy. hee. i love you too boyfriend!!!!! *kisskiss*



looking forward to goodwood park later!! for now, it's off to finish presents..........

won't be blogging for a while.... will be back in august!!! tata~ *muackxmuackx*


here's an early happy birthday for my favourite woman, the most important girl in my life!!!!!

Miss Toh Xinyu!!!!!!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ARGHHHHHH. i cant seem to post anything i am going so mad. i wanted to tell the world bout momo n how i love momo n how momo has nice round chairs exactly the same as sos n i really loved sos cos i rmb seeing my childhood crush at sos n he talked to me n i was so damn excited n how i met this guy i really liked a hell lot n how things din work out in the end n it hurt like shit for a damn long time n i haven been to that place in a million years n i really missed it n the toilets are super pink noe but still have the nice sofas that u can stone in.

and all the memories in sos, so near yet so far. u know that memories will always be there, but things will never be the same again. momo is a lovely club but cannot take the place of SOS. sometimes if you dig deep enough, you can see every thing happening all over again in your mind's eye. all the good times. n if you dare to face the truth, you find the torments n pain n anguish too. that lingers on.

y do we hurt?

it's this hurt that prevents us from finding true happiness again. it's so easy to just not acknowledge it... but i think the only way to really be rid of it is to take the bull by it's horns, conquer that hurt, then it'll never resurface again. i think.




on a much brighter note.... i went to mango sale earlier, and i have been up for more than 24hrs, meaning i am brain dead.


that is the only bright note. yinsiu is leaving in 4 days, and sheryl will be disappearing to the other end of the island in her hostel soon. i am gonna miss them so bad.. =(

take care my loves......

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY YINSIU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

think i never mentioned this.. i adore cocco latte- for it's poles. =>

might have been kidney. might have been stroke. might have been ear infection. migh have been suffering. i din know. don't know.

some say that a chinchilla's life span is up to 18 years.
some that that their average life span is 10 years.

whatever it is, she was 7. argh. all my fault.

pissed.
bah. bahbah black sheep. grrrrrrrrrruffffff!!




disclaimer. the note on cliff, is NOT meant in a negative way. it is totally positive. as in, it's only been 4 mths, but the time we spent and experiences together seems like sooooo much more. it is NOT a negative or dready comment. i love my baby!!!!

i am a walking lump of blubber.

JB has cheap food. spent quite alot on food. the sad thing was, i realise i din have much shoppping with me when i left JB... it was then that i remembered: i ate up most of my shopping =/

i am a walking lump of blubber that stalks. =D

sheryl came back from KL with nice white shoes. i wanna go somewhere to shop too. i want my aladin shoes!!

i am a walking lump of blubber fungus growing on my cliff.

baby toenail is sick and is threatening to drop off. i bought DVDs without realising that i can't play them in my room. i don't care. i still like them.

sorry, iam still too lazy to add comments/ tag boards/ change my blogskin...

slippery nipple and singapore sling on friday night, with stuffy cubicle, nice sofa, but no menu. bestfrens always.

bungee jumping trip with besfren SOON. our birthday prezzies. =>

"i'm sorry, i'm like a walking piece of fungus."

"then can u grow on me??"


cheesy. so cheesy. but i like. =>



y does she appear every single time i disappear???? what is her problem???!!!!!



on leaving:
i'm afraid to leave. so afraid.
afraid of yinsiu leaving too.

on Her:
thot she was nice. but she wields a knife- to tighten her r'ship to the clique.
and she should stop pestering my friend.
somehow my view of her changed overnight, after i knew.
i was defending her earlier.

on shopping:
JB tomorrow.

on birthdays:
bungee jumping before i turn 19??

on exercise:
i really can't be bothered.. i'm too lazy.
the whole world, including my gramma (who always thot i was not fat enough..) noticed that i'm growing... bigger.

on emotions:
hate tears. hate quarrels. hate confrontations.

on sheryl:
i miss her. and she only disappeared for 3 days..... =/

on xinyu:
*stares at my wet eyes* "ni bu yao geng wo ku hor!!" (translation: you don cry hor!!)

on cliff:
it's been 4 months. seems more like 4 years.

Ripped this off an email....


Think about this. You may not realize it, but it's100% true.

1. At least 2 people in this world love you so muchthey would die for you.

2. At least 15 people in this world love you in someway.

3. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone,even if they don't like you.

4. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before theygo to sleep.

5. You mean the world to someone.

6. If not for you, someone may not be living.

7. You are special and unique.

8. When you make the biggest mistake ever, somethinggood can stillcome from it.

9. When you think the world has turned its back onyou, take a look:you most likely turned your back on the world.

10. Someone that you don't even know exists loves you.

11. Always remember the compliments you received.Forget about the rude remarks.

12. Always tell someone how you feel about them; youwill feel much better when they know and you'll bothbe happy.

13. If you have a great friend, take the time to let them know that they are great.

i'm the saddest person on earth. cliff's phone just died. the top row buttons wont work. i cant use the phone at all!!!!!!!!!!!!

omigoshomigoshomigosh!!!!!!!!!!!

shortlisted!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! never been so pleased to hear that. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

just got more good news: sher got accepted to SMU!!!!!

anyway. pink party went VERYVERY well. => the balloons kept bursting at first.. haha. we build this huge tent outside to hide all the balloons and yinsiu din guess a single thing!!! hahahaa. wildwildwet was ok only.. cos there was like only 5 or 6 rides... but still.. lovely company made the 3 days fantaasic!!! i love my girls!!!!!!!!!!!!

i was eating throughout the whole first day. *beams* i NEVER STOPPED! crackers and biscuits and apples and seaweed and campbell and beehoon and salad and chocolate and sweets and garlic bread and dessert... and.... cant remember. but i was hungry all day!! hee. =>

ohoh. pink room was DAMN pretty!!!! filled with pink and white balloons and streamers and love!! haha. and there was a lil' boy slave(thanks all e same, stranger =>) volunteering to do stuff for us, which ended up in him cooking, and us siting down n eating. haha. ohohoh!! i made the fire!! and it was a super nice fire!!! and i had a really pretty girl to help me with the charcoal!!! right yinsiu?? -grin-

went on ular-lah 6 times- to get the perfect picture!! hahahaa. all the life guards more or less knew us; wobbly fats, loud laughter and all. =>

sher, xinyu n me went back to the aquarium to swim and tan after going home to put our stuff down. haha. it's nice knowing how fishes feel like... swimming ard in tanks and watching ppl go by below. lol. took lotsa pictures in e aquarium too. => 5 lil fishies bobbing around.. and did i mention how mr nice-lifeguard helped xinyu put her top on the deck chair??? haha. i like what you did, you go girl!!!!!!!

More good news!!! the spice girls are making a come back next year for their 10th anniversary!!!!! *SCREAMS* all e closet/ex/current spice girls fans..... did u hear that????? they're coming back!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! they're coming back to spice up your life!!!!

anw. back to my wonderful 3 days. made xinyu n weiying n chay bring yinsiu around whilst sher n me did up the room.. then later xinyu came back and the 3 of us continued doing up e room.. took some pictures with our beautiful crowns..... =D then got ready for yinsiu to come back =>

i really wonder when we can have another get together like this.... with everyone staying together.... singing songs late at night.. keeping each other up till we all fell asleep finally.. putting up with my crankiness cos i din have enough slp- i apologise if i offended you, i'm sorry!.. but deep inside i love you all soooooooo much. it's gonna get tougher; no more hanging out cos we're on a different track.. but we'll work things out.. and we'll be friends always and forever, whichever is longer, yea??

someone asked me,"you've been hanging out with the same group for so long, don't you get bored?" nope. i don't. love them more as each day passes.. can't get enough of their madness, laughter, fun, idiosyncracies, just every thing about them la. yupyup. i love these girls... lots and lots. and i believe they can never be replaced. we're all gonna get married, have kids, and still know each other.. we can be god-ma's to each other's kids... and between us, there'll be at least 20 kids!! make sure u guys get rich k... cos i want 5 kids and u guys gotta give them all big angbaos during new year!!! hahahahah!!!! all our kids will be friends with each other, and we can have our own tuan yuan fan!!!! wheeeeee!!!!!!!!! and we'd get old together, shed tears of happiness when our daughters get their first periods, fail their first chinese test, graduate, go for their first prom, get married, have kids...... and be grandmothers together!!!!!!!! a lil' far-fetched??? i don't think so. this is my dream for us girls. =>

i like my purple nails.


waiting for my purple nails to dry........



i rmb being called a slut for going out with a not-so-good-looking guy once. haha. weird. i found him quite cute. but that's not the point. y am i a slut if i go out with i not-so-good-looking guy???





life's not fair. i wish i were a rich kid. it's not so much fun being a rich adult.... i just wanna be a rich kid, like NOW! haha. will tell y'all y when i get back. heh. (obviously, if i were a rich kid i can blog from wherever i'm going and you don't have to wait till i'm back to find out why being a rich kid is so much more fun than being a rich adult. but that dosent mean i don wanna be a rich adult!!)




hi cliff!!!! => i'll see you in two days!! i hope i manage to do what i plan to do tmr morning.. which is to meet you and company you to work.but i'm afraid i can't get up... all the same, i'm gonna try my very best k???? if i manage, then good.. i'll see you in a few hours time.. if i don't....... well... i'll see you in more than a few hours time!! => heh. take care baby. it's been nice seeing you everyday for the past 27 days.. love ya!!!




favourite girlfriends?? i love staying with you guys sooooo much!! haha. erm... the two skinny ones please share a bed. so that the rest of us can enjoy!!! hahahahahaa!!!!!

waiting for xinyu to get her hair done... i'm bored to tears already and she's only just started!!!

today's audi is my favourite so far... act annoying, then act annoyed. two things i'm very familiar with!! =>

told Mr bestie everything yesterday... and he still wants me for a bestie!!! YEH!!!!! haha. but it's nice, having no secrets from him once more... the past five months were terrible!! wanting to bitch bout everything but having to restrain myself... lalala. it's all over. so no need to fret anymore!! haha.

i gotta go download hello again... so that i can post photos... i miss posting photos!!!!! photos of me, myself, and i!!! haha. i fee like shaving off my eyebrows, and piercing my you-know-where. but since i cant flash my piercing on my you-know-where, they told me that i can just claim to have pierced it!! haha. but... so poseur!!!!! lolol. i'm mad. and crap. but i still feel like piercing my you-know-where, just for the fun of it!! muahahahahaaa!!! i have been sooooo fascinated with you-know-where piercings ever since i met you-know-who 2 years ago!! haha.

i think my girlfriends can guess where is you-know-where.... as for you-know-who, happy guessing!! hahaa. tho it's quite easy also. ARGH!!! i am sooooooo crap!

met cliff for... erm... well.... a short meeting just now.. lol. he was having lunch with his colleague so i just joined him.. i'm sorry i'm so dao!!!!! sorry laaaaa................ =/ i love yoU!!!! =D

and now i'm waiting for miss toh to get her hairdone. boredboredbored.

but at least i have his to do. haha. imagine if i blogged non stop for an hour!! -faint-

i'm eagerly anticipating next tue, wed n thurs!!!!!! it's gonna be three whole days of fun, laughter, sand, surf, love, happiness, friends, suprises.... for a minimum cost of only $60!! i like!!! hahahaa!!

i think i should hurry go enroll for my uni. i know i can get in.. just maybe they may run outta places... but.... i'm really scared... so i'm procrastinating. so me. always leaving things till last minute... naughty shit.. =/ i'll do it soon la. SOON. S O O N.....................

i wonder what Mr Cliff is doing now... MISS ME K!!!!!!!!!!! hahahahahaa
have been seeing you every single day since the day i came back.. you know what?? i'm loving it!!! and i really like being able to see you every single day. it's nice. i like to look at you. stare at you. call you for fun. but i'm sorry i can never notice the difference in your hair... i promise i'll try!!!! btu i think i'm not gonna be very good at it... but still, i'll try!!!! i wanna club with you baby!! hehe. i miss you =>

i wonder what xinyu is doing. but i'm too lazy to leave this comfy chair to go check. heh. i'm lazy!! so? sue me.

was supposed to meet esta last week.. then i dragged till this week.. and now, this week is almost over. i really suck don't i?? sorry est.... i promise!!! soon.. cos i know you have a new boy and i wanna know all bout him!!! haha. -hugg-

so bored. think i might attempt to change my blog skin. i THINK.

i'm a slacker. i'm a bum. i'm a lazy shit. i'm not schooling. i'm not working. i am not making any effort to change any of these things. i have not applied for any local uni. i have not applied for any overseas uni. i am just spending my time sleeping away and bumming around. occasionally, i cook dinner for my mom n my boyfriend. then i watch some vcds, read some books, attempt to get online, talk on the phone, sit in the toilet, attempt to exercise, then i go back to sleep.

waste of life.

hmmm..... been a happy girl for a very long timee........

got my loving boy/girlfriends in my life.. i love these people soooooooooo much!! =>

xinyu, sheryl n the others went down to indochine last saturday.. (it's gd.. cos i promised that i'll rent the place for her birthday once i had the money so that she can attend an official party there.... and obviously i cant afford it now.. haha.) then i thought of how bloody long it's been since we started clubbing ard 16??... when SOS just opened.. and i remember several fiascos that occured there.. haha. (those who knows what happened, knows it. those who dont, it's good. lol.) those were the days.... and i must admit, we've mellowed like, sooooooooo much since then!!! haha. RIGHT XINYU??? RIGHT SHERYL??? RIGHT GINNY???? RIGHT LINDERR????? hahahahhaa. =X we're all good girls now.... => gee... that was really long ago... 3 years i think..... hmmm. and i'm so old now. yuck. i rmb the bartender AAron(inside joke=D) who dished out the free drinks... the bouncer whatshisname who let xinyu in, clad in spag top, surf shorts n flipflops... lolol.. n.... who else... hmmm. oh. the nice big round cushions that i could sleep on!!!! haha. I MISS SOS!!!!!!!!!

and now...... well.... no more SOS... but still, there is zouk and chinablack... and nice mr bouncer who lets us in free sometimes, and lets us cut the queue on ladies night..... hmmm. life is still good. => heh. GIN!!! WHEN U CLUBBING WITH US AGAIN?????? i miss the whole gang!!! haha.

hmmm. i need a job... cos i'm so bored my ass is getting mouldy. meanwhile.. i think i'm gonna work on my greek.. =/

can u believe how fucked up my com is?????
BOO.!!!!


i love my baby!!!!! =D


n i love my girlies!!!!!!!!!!!

hi... -waves-

i'm back!!! yeh!!!!

my two favourite girls were at the airport at 4am in the morning to pick me up despite me telling them that i can go home alone n it was too darn early to pick anyone up. they even made welcome home posters for meee!!!!!!!!!! i love them sooooooo much. hehe. such sweet natured girls, yet behind all that sweetness that i love is lotsa bitchiness too. wahahhaha. my favourite bitches. haha.

and then, i went out with my wonderful boyfriend that night to eat very nice chee cheong fun. haha. yumyumyum!!! lalala. oh. cliff passed his driving. hehe. CLIFF PASSED HIS DRIVING!!!!! YEH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hee. omigosh. i am soooooooooo happy for himm!!!!!!!!!!!! *jumps ard the room*

he's here. heh. will blog later. =>

BEST FREN!!!!!!!!! WO HAO XIANG NI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WO YAO GENG NI YI QI ZOU BIAN TIAN YA HAI JIAO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WO YAO GENG NI YI QI QU XIANG GANG, MEI GUO, O ZOU, AW ZOU, DUBAI SHOP DAO SIAO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

WO HAI YAO GENG NI YI QI QU CHI HAO LIAO. YOU SHE ME JIU CHI SHE ME, CHI DAO LIANG GE BIAN CHENG DA FEI ZHU, ZAI YI QI QU MARIE FRANCE BODYLINE JIAN FEI, SHOU SHEN!!! RAN HOU ZAI QU CHI HAO LIAO!!!!!!!

HAO XIANG HAO XIANG..... HAO XIANG HUI JIA....... =<

the beach yesterday was a lovely affair.
the interview was a hoax.
the intercontinental seems ok i suppose.
the girl misses her friends and boyfriend. and misses doing nothing with them.

oooo. jittersjitters. got interview tmr.... =/

went shopping for shoes just now cos my white heels don make the cut... my suit is black!!! haha. so... yup... got black heels now.. and it cost a bomb!!! tsktsk. badbadgirl.........

it's early in the morning- at 11am... which is about 9am sg time... which means i gotta wake up around..... 7???? 7am sg. argh. i'm so gonna die!!!!! lol.

wonder how sheryl's interview went.... what did u wear??? hmmm. haha. i might be wearing my guest relations uniform.. =/

went down to the school in manly today and it was GORGEOUS!!!!! like totally wowowowoww!!! but the fees were extreneky wow too. about $1000 a week........... let's focus on the school. it's sooooooo beautiful!!! it's a magnficent old building- harry potter style, and about harry potter size too or bigger. and the view is lovely!!! it's sooooooooo perfect. i wanna buy the whole place, then bring up my brood of kids there!!!! haha.

i miss mr boyfriend. 5 days to go!!! yeh!!!!! baby, let's go to grape vine k???? i miss that place!!!!!! haha. den let's stay home for the rest of the time and watch VCDs. => sounds lovely. and we take turn to poison each other with our cooking k?? hee. love u baby. =>

*sniff* hmmm. it's bedtime here.. => i'm walking ard the house in purple and black striped tights. They're so hideous i *sniff* love them. cant wait for helloween!!!!! lalalaaa..... suddenly regret not getting the black tights with gold *ah-chooooo!!* webs on them.. hmmmmm...*sniffsniff*

just got mom to find my certs for me.. so i'll prolly be sleep*sniff*ing soon.... after i call my dearest of cos. =D

sheryl n mandy, i'll do *sniff*up a tag board or comment board when i get back k??? sorry!!! *sniff* hee. i'm soooooooo sleepy. and sick. i'm ah-chooo-ing. that's not a good sign.. i wanna*sniff* shooopppppppp!!!!!!!!!!

just a lil' cassan nonsense.

eating = happy
eating alot = very happy
exercise = hardwork
no exercise = weight gain
eating alot + no exercise = extreme weight gain
extreme weight gain = fat

recently, i have been very happy, and i did not do any hardwork at all.

therefore, i am a fat and very happy.

i'd rather be fat and very happy, then skinny and sad. hee.
since i've been with cliff, i have been eating alot. =D



k la. k la. i know i'm full of crap laaaa.
bleah.
but u still love me right??? (question posted to my girlfriends and boyfriend)

oh! i wonder how's bestie andy the current baldie. => it rhymes!!!!!!!!
i miss andy the bald bestie. hahahahhaaa.

boo. i need a freakin resume. I FORGOT HOW TO WRITE RESUMES!!!!I HAVE NO IDEA WHATSOEVER HOW TO WRITE A RESUME!!!! blah. xinyu...... help??

aned i left my JC testimonial and result slip in singapore!!!!!! -bang head- not that the result slip will help in any way... but my testimonial was good k!!! sigh. dumb blonde.

anw, mr boyfriend seems to be enjoying his job.. he gets to surf the net... go to the gym during lunch.... sounds nice.. haha. i shall get an office job when i come back to company him!!! we can go to work together in the morning, then meet for dinner after work!!! yeh!!!! wait.... i think i prefer staying home. then i can cook dinner for him!!!! woohoo!!!! haha.sorry baby, i'm going mad. i have one whole list of what i wanna cook for u when i come back already... =>

oh. i think this is a good time to announce to the world that i have put in 4kg so far... SHERYL!!!!!!! we need to diet together!!! lolol. but i'm still happily eating my nutella every day before dinner... and after dinner i got my butterscotch icecream and butterscotch liqueor(did i get the spelling right??). tat butterscotch liqueor tastes soooo damn god. bittersweet and fattening! hahaa.. rockmelon vodka for breakfast... xinyu!!!! sheryl!!!!! see what u're missing out on???? hahahhaaa... but at least u're not getting fat here. -sulks-

oh. i learnt how to make jam. i shall make my own strawberry jam when i come back!! lalalalaaa....

erm.... cliffydear?? i really have not found anything for u....... =/ neither have i found anything for the cygnus girls... (boys don need presents. =D) shall not gie up.. shall continue intense shopping!! haha. hope i get results this time..

i miss my boyfriend... miss seeing him and miss talking to him n miss looking at him and miss holding his hand and miss stoning with him....

miss the girls... just miss them. =>

went down to a school yesterday... sounds quite good... but i'm still waiting to get an interview with the intercontinental.. going down to manly tomorrow to look at another school... =< boring!!!!!! hah.

it's freaking cold today.... was raining last night and now my nose is dripping... my fingers are freezing... oh mandy?? sorry- not much bikinis... cos it's mostly winter clothes now... can u believe that the shop i went to din even carry slippers/thongs anymore??? sigh. it's mostly boots and warm fuzzy bedroom slippers. I WANT MY UGG BOOTS!!!!!!!!!

i love supre. so much. =>

but not as much as i love my boyfriend. and my girlfriends.

please continue missing me, will be back soon!!!!!! -MUACKX-

PS. the beach is W O N D E R F U L!!!!!!!!!

hello.. i finally managed to find my way here.. the buttons weren't working properly but well.. i finally manged to get on anyway..

watching million dollar baby for the second time.. each time i see her get that final blow, i wish that the stool wasnt there, she din get hit, she lived and blablabla...... i just hate the ending of the story. i hate the way a fighter dies. it's just not fair at all. argh. and so utterly cruel and heart-wrenching. but there are saving graces i guess; the way a girl finds a father who loves her as he would love his own daughter. that was nice. her acting is damn good. the storyline is devasating.... yet so touching.

i don hate it here. in fact, i love it. i'm spoilt for choices for my bedroom. the one in the attic with the view of my future pool (which is not gonna be a tiny affair), or the one below the living room with the view of the ocean, a balcony, and if i bother to try, i can probably get the entire level to myself as well which will be damn nice. the down side of the room in the attic is that my room is the same size as my dad's toilet. it's not that my room is small- my room is normal size, with my own toilet n all... BUT. his toilet is at least twice the size of a normal toilet. yea. with a huge spa bath tub and all.. life is not fair. i want the master room-it has everything that i want.

reasons y i don like it? simple. i feel like the odd piece of a jigsaw puzzle that can't fit in. two is company but three is none.. no matter how hard everyone tries, i'll still feel weird. maybe if u let me transport all the ppl i love over.. den it'll be good. it'll be like bringing along my box of jigsaw- the box where i came from, and i'll fit happily into the picture.

i miss my girls and my boys and my boyfriend.

went to flemington markets today and it was huge- took like 4 hours to comb the whole place.. then the fruits were going cheap so we got a carton of rockmelons at $4. if i come back looking round and orange like a rockmelon, please continue being my friend?? i'm still the same inside you know.. =>
got quite a lot of shopping done there.. i wanna get my ugg boots tho. and the shirtdress, and hot pink tights and i'll wear the whole ensemble together and look hideously lovely. haha. i'm gonna get knee-high tights for the girls!!! xinyu:rmb sff??? haha. those horrible stockings.. lolol. i like!!

i don't miss shopping in singapore- been shopping there all my life.

sheryl, u'll like to hear this- u know the markets i went to today sold puppies as well?? they were tiny lil things that were sooooooooo cute!!!! u would have drooled over them.. i did. =D~ really cutesy lil things that ran around your legs, and you could pick them up and carry them and cuddle them.... sigh. i want a dog!!!!!

the flight here was alright.. there was something really stinky.. and after awhile, i realised that the smell came from the man sitting next to me- he has smelly feet!!! HORRIBLE! argh. the food was good tho.. beef country pie, icecream, and chicken and beef kebab. i loved the kabab. the service wasn't the best tho.. i still like singapore airlines the most. hahaha!!!

it's bedtime... 11pm here now... bbl! *muackx*

boo. in about 24 hours i'll be somewhere above the seas... in between here n down under. i miss cliff already. don miss he girls ye.. cos they're still in my room..

going there all alone. i know i'm gonna cry like mad on e plane.. i can feel it. really hope xinyu n sheryl can fly down next week man.... sigh.

had a great lunch today.. at mandarin.. i love xinyu.

met sheryl. took pictures... i love sheryl too.

met cygnus ppl... ate a little.. crapped alot.. laughed loads.. love them too.

had mushroom soup for supper, courtesy of my boyfriend (he's a GREAT cook!!).. i LOVE MY BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


yea. cliff?? reading this??? i miss u already. so veryvery much dear.. sigh. -hughug-

yinsiu n weiying coming down to send me off tmr.. they say it's a rehearsal.. lolx. but i love u too dearies.

lovelove- ppl who know me n know cliff n read this, please do me a favour?? take care of my darling for me. thank you. so much. =>

Fine.Thanx for info sher.. Sed finally has a girlfriend. one less eligible male for the eligible females out there.. on the bright side.. he can finally stop asking us to intro girls!!!!! hahahahaaa!!

i'm soooooo looking forward to goodwood park tmr!!! thanx for finding the place xinyu.. and thanx for lending ur cam as well.. what will i do without u??

did u know? my best friend, miss toh xinyu, proudly stuffed one of her thicker jackets into my bag the other day... "it's cold in australia, u'll need it!" awwwwww........ so sweet. i must have been an extremely nice person in my past life, that's why i got rewarded with such a darling friend in this life!!! haha. i love you dear.

i am planning to take lotsa toothbrushes and shavers from the airplane. i love all these disposable stuff. they make me soooooo happy!! haha. plus it's convenient- use finish, throw.

i missed PA soooo much. went down with cliff's parents last thurs.. all 3 of us were trying to spot cliff when the ppl marched out.. but guess what? we couldnt.. cos they all looked the same!!!! hahaha. all blue. then i got out of my seat and ran to the middle to try my luck... was about to give up when i spotted someone's head moving. hahahaha. that idiot!!! brought his mom o see him and he stuck his tongue out at her.. lol. he looks good in his uniform- i like =>

dinner with my cygnus darlings tmr... meeting them at suntec..... it's like, i wanna see the whole world before i leave. madness. but i don care. i wanna see them. => it's gonna be a great day!

and i'm gonna try and enable messages... so that sheryl can type here instead of in her blog.. and to make mandy happy. damn i'm nice! (i'm just hoping that i'll get friends as great as these again in my next life!!)

boo.... i HATE baking cookies. i just can't do it..
cooking lessons anyone??
i wanna learn chinese cuisine.. and how to bake cakes and such. =>
(next time can save money.. just give a birthday cake as present! muahahaa!!)

xinyu, sheryl... i promise that i will bake u guys a cake.. sometime in my life... and after that.. i will learn how to bake famous-amos like cookies!!! current standard is around famous anus i think.. heh. =x but still, it has our sweat and love and effort in it!!! (ok fine.. towards the end only two of u.. heh.)

and thanx so much for counting stars with for me.. hehe. i donno what i'd do without you two pretty ladies!!!



i was browsing thru friendster... saw horrible photos that shocked the fats outta me. shall not mention who and what and why... but after seeing those photos, i was so traumatised that i kept eating n eating n eating....... and now, all the fats that were shocked outta me have been gained back. sadsEd case.

speaking of which.. i wonder what happened to super handsome friend, SED.
i wonder if he reads my blog.. no.. i don't think so.. he is too i-donno-what to read blogs..



i remember the day when eugene told me he dosen't club anymore cos he turned christian. my jaws dropped. i couldn't believe he could just give up clubbing like that.. i mean, i have seen that guy!!! when he swivels his hips he is HOT! plus the fact that he is tall and cute (tho the last time i saw him he had some not-so-cute pimples on his chin.. PS. oxy has some new blemish gel that looks quite good!!)..

that was quite a significant blow to me.

THEN. yinsiu started clubbing less...... and less......... and suddenly stopped. guess what? "cos i'm a christian...." grrrrr. yinsiu is like hot mamma on the dance floor laaaa....... she is like, MADE for dancing man!!! seriously!! it comes so naturally to her even when she's doing techno!! sigh. my heart broke. fine. so i was pissed. how can u give up dancing, enjoying urself, having fun, relaxing... for your religion?


just now i got another heart attack. weiying is going for cell group meetings?? like HUHHUHHUH????????????? what is happening to the world???? WHAT IS HAPPENING TO MY FRIENDS???? i heard the girls looking at a cross and saying they should get it for weiying.. i dismissed it as a cross can be just an accessory.. then when i heard she had cell group tmr...........

that was not the final blow.

final blow came when sheryl said that she might be going for cell group with weiying and yinsiu tmr. seriously... xinyu, pls don't do the same to me.. i don't think i will be able to take it. is it like the current trend or something??? y u guys? y so sudden??? so.........weird. i love you all.. but i need time to accept it.

just one warning: don't try whatever tricks they tried on you, on me.




sigh. and another thing........ sheryl and weiying, please do not ostracize clubbing.. u'll hurt the club's feelings.. and mine.. =<







and cliff is still not here. grrr.

from a frequent blogger, i now blog like so frickkin little. blah. whose fault? my com. argh. i don like my com. i got sooo many issues to tackle!

like.... how all the mediacorp artists are giving birth/getin pregnant together.. it's making me sick to read how many of them have given birth and how many weird names they're coming up with to embarass their kids.

it is sooooo mad!!! like ritz, regent and raffles?? i know u'll never get to own these hotels, but it dosent mean u should name ur kids after them!! spare a thought for them!!! giving them classy names dosent ensure they'll grow up with class u know??

and brayden??? i can just hear the kids calling "here come the donkey!! braaaayyyy!!!! braaaayy!!!" and the reply.."don luff at me hor!! i ell my marmee den u noe arh!! my marmee will sueee u arh!!"

beckham??? i pray he grows to to be at least decently looking else woe betide the not-so-handsome boy named after the quite-good-looking footballer.

many more names to go actually.. and anyone noticed this week's 8days?? i thot it was fann wong with a baby. turned out to be liln with frizzy hair and her baby in christian dior, biting a tiffany's rattle, hair styled by david gan. like wow. the lil thing is only a kid. i hope she dosen't grow up to be a brat. tho i'd be one damn proud kid if i were sage cadence wu- my mom's a babe n dad's a hunk. just that i wont really enjoy being named after a spice.. but it's still better than being named after a hotel.

read The Newpaper today, and saw that christopher lee FINALLY admited to being together with fann. i'm happy for them. really. it's nice they finally came out in the open.. and i think they look great together.. but seriously.. fann should just hurry get married n have kids soon.. she's geting old... i've been looking at her since i was like... 10?? that's like 9 years ago!! if she dosen't hurry and catch up.. she's gonna be an old mama..

xinyu poined this out... all the artists kids will grow up together, prolly fall in like and in love and get married to each other and it will become ONE BIG HAPPY FAMILY. how perfectly disgusting.



next.
last weekend, i was working at a certain roadshow and giving out pamphlets.. and guess what?? i got snubbed by a maid!!! i politely, smilingly, nicely greeted her with a "hi mdm, would u like to take a look?" and she rolled her eyes and brushed past me!!! i know u're a maid. i know u get ordered around the entire week. but still u don't have to do that to me!!! bitch.

this goes out to all the idiots who nodded when i said the exact same line to them, then walked away without taking the pamphlet. don't u know what u're doing u morons???? u bloddy nodded, which meant yes, u'd take a look, then u walk off. how moronic can u get?!!!!

and to those kiasu ppl.. who snubbed me and declined a pamphlet till i said "inside got discount voucher..". u should have seen the change in her expression. she grabbed one eagerly, showed her friends, then turned back to ask for more.

b l a h .

how perfectly annoying.

and the bloody tua pek kong. or tua pek lan as i like to address her. who happily sat at the counter and refused to move her fat ass till she wanted to go touch up her make up, do her hair or go for a break. u're working!!!! and part of ur job include moving ur fat ass ard! grrrr.

and to the skinny black fishnets. before asking me to return "your" pen-the pen u found on the floor- look carefully!! the pen has MY name on it! u thief!! i don believe u din know that pen was mine. like fuck! u borrowed it so many times from me! noone else was using that same pen! and what's your prob anyway?? how many road show's have u worked at? and it's not your first day at work, it's your fourth!!! don't you know how to bring your own pen???? and sop stealing my customers and writing down their purchases as yours, I made those sales skinny!






1 day left till his POP. don't have to wait till weekends to meet him anymore.

*note to self*
must discuss chalet soooon!!!!!!! -grin-

i love my bestfren. she lets me bite her once in a blue moon when the cannibal in me aches to surface. at other times, i love her simply for being her.

i love sheryl. she lets me pig out on keropok on her sofa, and i lvoe the fact that she cut her lovely hair off!! (i like to think that she did that to make me less jealous of her lovely hair, tho i never told her. now u know!!)

i love gracie. she just offered to do a brazillian for me for $20. but forget it dear, u're not coming near meeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!

i love weiying. cos she usually agrees to go swim with me early in e morning but she's gonna cu her hair tmr so i shan't bother asking.

i love yinsiu. i love her brownish cuduroy jacket n i donno what i'd do if she hadn't lent me cash in genting!!! i'd cry cos i cant shop!!!!

i love my boyfriend. he spent his last $2 on a rose for me. =D




my house has been invaded by ants. Y U C K.

i wanna go swim. i need a diet. i think i should start exercising. i'm tempted to buy a return ticket to aussie with my meagre savings then make my dad get me a new phone. i want a brazillian. i haven seen nini n nana for ages. i miss my handphone. i want all my numbers back. my dearest boyfriend has sweetly lent me his phone. i wanna get quick money. i need to save up n spend all at the same time. i miss the messages in my phone. cliffcliffcliffcliffcliffcliffcliff. where is xinyu i need to bitch. EMBEMBEMB!! i wanna go out but i don have the money. i wanna get a new com new laptop new bed new wardrobe new house. i constantly think of japan n disneyland wth my girlfriends. i wanna go back to genting. i miss andy n i lost his number. andy if u read this pls message me, your bestie, like asap. i hope eugene dosent have to wear a helmet anymore so his chin wont have so many pimples.

ok.. that's all i can think of for now. cliff should be in dreamland, i think xinyu is sleeping too.. i should go meet them soon.. then get on with applications tommorow.

btw, SUPPORT LINDERRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
LINDERRRRR FOR MISS SINGAPORE UNIVERSE 2005!!!!!!

WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.................... i FINALLY got onto blogger. i forgot my password. =x
anw, been workin he past 10 days, so busy, so shagged that i forgot how to live. i like my colleagues tho.. =>

i LOVE cocoa tree chocolates!!!!!!!!!!! they're like the best thing ever invented!!! of cos, i still love dove amicelli and toffifee!! hehe. been eating bread like every single day n every single meal...

oh. i lost my phone again. hink some customer took it. LIKE WHY THE FUCK U WANT SUCH AN OLD MODEL FOR MAN??!!!!!!!! c*** b**.

gonna get my sim card later... will be using my baby's phone for a while.. he spoils me too much. i like. =>

erm.... ok. the end. i donno what else to say la.... needa get a good shit.

OHOHOH!!!! i loved genting!!! hahahahaa... let's go again soon k???? i wanna eat dimsum!!!! hahahahaa!!!!!! ohohoh! we can be e dimsum dollies!! hahahaha. -muackx- love u girls!!