i'm in a i-cannot-fucking-be-bothered-with-you phase of life now. i feel like karen. every single thing is just.. fuck this and fuck that and fuck it. and stop fuckin pissing me off, stop fuckin annoyin me. and what kylie taught last night.... i fuckin needa take a piss ya fuckincunt!

i got really pissed and they pissed themseleves laughing at me learning the suburbian talk. we got free fries from the kebab shop for dinner. and free lots of stuff too, cos they didn't charge us alot. hehe. =)

anyway. yea. because of my i can't-fuckin-be-bothered-with-you thing, i might be losing friends.. even dropping on the she's-a-good-friend meter, cos i just can't fuckin be bothered. but as said, i just fuckin don't care. if you trust me as a friend, you know i'll be there. and if i trust you as a friend, i'll definitely be there, when you need me. the end.

jack in the box. popping up when you least expect it.

love the people who appreciate me. here to be a friend.

i'm just so fuckin sick of some people and their fuckin attitude these days. so i'm taking a step back from all of it.

there are so many people out there; privilleged kids in their beautifully ornamented, beautifully sheltered homes. they don't know. don't know the value of money, of life, or love, of friendship, of hardwork. don't know the meaning of hardship, of pain, of love, of poverty, of survival in it's rawest form. don't know how lucky they are. one day they'll learn.

dan almost broke down at work the other day.. he said his mom left home. well, if she's happier gone, then why don't you grant her happiness? i'm not attacking him in particular. just hoping, that some people understand... letting go is a form of happiness. if you love someone, wish them happiness.

on religion. my aunt makes me believe in buddhism. makes me start meditating, and i really do. then i read gracie's blog. and she is one person that truly inspires me. in many ways, including her new found faith.

she's amazing. amazing grace. always has been, always will be. i love ya grace, tho we don't talk much. but i really do. =) i can see you running in hospitals in that white jacket. you're gonna do big things. you make me sit and smile at the computer like an idiot whenever i read your blog.