Monday, January 31, 2005

ugh.

i just heard cannon in D get butchered on tv.








i need to change my template. it's getting old and mouldy like me.
i still cant believe i'm turning 19 soon. eeew.......



some guys are such jerks.
arent they?



Wednesday, January 26, 2005

was gonna bitch bout the bloody cheena mama who kept cutting into everyone's lane, her 2 bloody kids who kept swimming the breadth of the pool while the WORLD was doing lengths (in other words, they too were in the fucking way),
the pasty white blubber filled arse who tried to talk to me, and kept staring.

but i reached home and saw the most horrendous message. and now i'm too tired to bitch. i just wanna bathe and sleep. like nothing i've done today matters anymore. fuck.

argh. i hate this feeling.
I FOUND MY PHONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


list of ppl to thank: Grace,
Weijie aka allie,
Amanda kee, (and whoever manda got my no. from)
Cab driver,
Cliff.

cos in the series of cause and effect and events, these were the ppl that came in somehow or other, and helped me get my phone back. thank you all sooooooo much.



*kowtow*

Tuesday, January 25, 2005

Thanks for dessert kim. =>


i'm SO burnt.

so veryveryvery burnt. =<

but i like being red! haha!

but Y ARE MY FINGERS STILL WHITE?????????

i wanna swim moremorWmoREmOREMORE!!!!

Monday, January 24, 2005

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAREST KIM!!!!!!!!!!!!

-hughughughughughughughughughguhughughughughug-
-muackxmuackxmuackxmuackxmuackxmuackxmuackx-

u're my dearest bro man!!
and now u're a 19 year old fart! hahaha =D

may all ur wishes come true!!


argh. the pool was soooooo crowded. ended up swimming at the training pool, where the water came up to only my waist. blah.

anw, saw this fat pig TRYING to swim free style. she had no idea whatsoever how to do it properly and was dumbly flapping her arms ard, splashing water in all directions. after every 3 or 4 strokes she would stop, take a breather, then continue her struggle to keep afloat while her 4 limbs struck out at every possible direction.


i was that fat pig.





help someone?
i totally forgot how to swim freestyle.
and i desperately neeeed to rmb!!!
-bang head agains wall-
boooo..... another loooooooooooooooong week to go through.. sigh.
will whoever it is that has my phone PLEASE return it to me????

*kowtow till my head bleeds*

i've been looking thru all the phones... nh i like. none at all. argh. i want my trusty old 6510 back.
it's the bestest phone ever. argh.

pleeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaasssssssssssssssseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee return it???????????

Sunday, January 23, 2005

today, or rather, yesterday, i renewed my hatred for polishing boots.
spent almost 3 hours on them n THEY STILL REFUSED TO SHINE!!!! argh.
it's the LAST TIME i'm ever picking up the kiwi. ok. maybe not.. maybe i'll try again some day..
but.... sigh. overwhelmed by failure. can someone guide me step by step how to make a pair of boots shiny????

pleeeeeeeaseeeee???????????

anw, was thinking bout NPCC. and how it has affected me.
was spring cleaning just now when i chanced upon my uniform. first class drill badge, almost full 2 rows of collectible badges(only life saving is missing), police knowledge, erm..... oh. the rank. but none of that seems to matter now!!!!!!

then again... there are the bittersweet memories of camp; flooded tents and big fat ants, maggi mee n curry chicken, the friendship that formed, the camaraderie.. the radiant faces around the camp fire. i love camp fires =>

ok.. so to a certain extent, i DO miss npcc.
sigh..
those were the days........


on the topic of memories..
Y are all memories bittersweet??
i have never met a person who left me only sweet memories. there are always the bitter bits.. i guess it's the bitter part of it that makes the sweet parts sweet.. ya get my drift??
but then..... sometimes, when something is too bitter, it drowns out the sweet moments.




the weekend is almost over. boys gonna disappear again. i hate this.. sigh.
anw, it's time for serious shopping. (tho i have no money!!!!!!) =>

xinyu!!! sheryl!!!! let's go SHOPPING!!!!!!!
-grin-

Friday, January 21, 2005

ARGH.


F U C K F U C K F U C K



Dear God.... please???????

Thursday, January 20, 2005

hmmmm.........
tmr is a busy day.
sighhh. so much to do.. so little timeeeeeeeeee
but being busy keeps me happy =>

today i am officially a free kid. in ALL ways.
i got my passportttt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

then we went shopping!!!!!!! -grin-
salads at bean, icecream at julius, cinnamon stick things at erm... cheerios??
simply food.
simply bliss!
then we went shopping again!!!!

sorry for the lumpy custard dearies..... = /

oh. mahjong session just now. i won 2 games. throughout which, one i was talking o him, the other i was msging him. see?? then i lost the rest.. lol. watched 1o things i hate about you at the same time.. that girl's pretty.

my face is peeling horribly, cos i'm shedding my old skin. cos i've grown too fat for my old skin. cos the old skin can't stretch anymore to fit my new fat face. cos i've put on weight and my face has expanded. so that's y i'm an ugly shedding thing now.. like a snake.

she(2) shu(3) yi(1) wo(1)




anw, i can't stand rude people;
ppl who don't mind their Ps & Qs,
ppl who command you ard,
ppl who use THAT tone of voice when commanding you ard,
ppl who think they're the princess or something.

i'm sorry man. don work with me. rudeness just so turns me off. argh.

be polite, it dosen't kill.

some call it basic manners.




anw, plans for tmr.
SWIMMING!!!!!
SQUASH!!!!!!
bliss. =>
oh.. and then COOKING!!!! hahaa =>

i wanna get my life saving cert.
who cares bout driving. i just want my life saving cert!!!!!! haha.
xinyu can care about driving.. den she can drive us ard for FOOD.


i think food is reallyreally important.
really!
reallyreallyreally.
i miss rain forest cafe... their food was supercalifragilisticexpealidocious!!!!!!!!!

i need slp for now.. =>
tmr's a long n busy day...







Thursday, January 13, 2005

waiting for tomorrow to come.. so that i can open my next prezzie. =>


valleys.
mountains.
cliffs.
so far away.
come back. i miss u. =<


Tuesday, January 11, 2005

lonely.
empty.
lost ppl.
messed up life.
love; loved
hurt..
hurt..
hurt..
HURT.
gone
pain
tear
i feel
u.







feeling like a pampered kid.
lotsa comic strips to feed my appetite. =>
so sweet.
so very sweet.

Sunday, January 09, 2005

Dearest Cassandra Reyes, wherever, whoever you are. i really hope that God will bless you and bring you back safely.. i don't know you at all, but i feel an affinity, cos we've got the same name. yea.. i really hope you're alright.. =>




had a afternoon of squash and teppenyaki n slacking at coffee bean. feels like living again. tmr, it'll be right back to mundane office shit. blah. sighhhh..............
-scream-
last night was good. kumar was good.. at first. but still good. =>
but my legs got numb.. and today they got thoroughly stretched.. hahaha..
i HATE standing for hours on end with bloody too-tall-for-his-own-good angmoh blocking me!!! grrrrr. sigh.
at least i'm happy. haha. i like being happy. =>

Friday, January 07, 2005

there IS such a thing called the point of no return.
you've reached it.
din go to work today. i am sick. it started out as an excuse, but now i'm really sick.. blah.
woke up after 3.. went for food at the mall ard 5... went to say hi to xinyu.. ate gelato.. walked ard.. went home to cook for mom. i'm sleepy again.. sigh.

dinner last night was great!! company was even better! =>
will put up he picures later.. if i feel like it.. but don worry.. i'll send u guys the pix k!!
*muackx*
love you ppl!!!
anw, take care leo... hahahaa. ur head's gonne be feeling cold for awhile.. lol
and stef?? plspls take care k!!!! -hug-
and mandy n yanjun? u ppl rock!! ahahaa. love u all!!!!
khaywee n daryl deserve mention too.. one for being nice.. (sometimes) and the other for giving me cooking tips! wheeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-yawn-
take care peeps!


oh. take care andy, missing u already. =<
AHAHAHAHHA! ok. i shld not laugh. all the best..

Wednesday, January 05, 2005

hmmm.
broke a glass bottle just now.
ever realised how the person who tries to pick up the pieces is he one who gets cut?
and that when glass shatters, it scatters, so it's really hard to pick up the pieces?
and some pieces of shattered glass are sooo small, that you can't see them, but they hurt the most when the cut, cos they get embedded in your flesh?

yea. idelible wounds.
i just decided on my biggest new year resolution.



Ensure that Xinyu gets a driving license!!!!


-grin- hell yeah, i need a chauffeur!! ahahahaa... *muackx*
dinner was lovely sweeties.. catching up amidst our hectic work lives!! hahaha..
love ya.
miss ya too.

Tuesday, January 04, 2005

hmmm.
i had dinner with bestie.
i'm spending ALL my pay before i even get it.. but at least i bother to treat them(especially since i'd promised to give them a treat with my first pay.). i hate it when ppl break promises. really.
so andy, don't break ur promise!! hahaha.
i was a great dinner tho.. had a nice long heart to heart session! =p

and 2005 is a whole new year. so it's a whole new me too.

new year resolutions:

#1 not to be taken for granted by anyone.
#2 not to take xinyu n sheryl for granted.
#3 not to be in second place anymore.
#4 not to be used as a substitute.
#5 not to take mom for granted.
#6 not to take ppl who are impt to me for granted.
#7 not to let anyone kill me emotionally. i've had enough of that.
#8 to spend 80% of my time being happy.
#9 not to let ANYONE screw up my life again.
#10 to lose weight. =>


Xinyu, Sheryl, i solemnly promise to love and treasure thee through good times and bad, through health and illness, till always or forever, whichever is longer.

PS. lets fufill my tenth resolution together!!! hahahah

Saturday, January 01, 2005

hmmm. it was a great new year. hee. went to warehouse.. it was blardy empty!!
hahahaha. goods delayed due to tsunami!! hurhur~

was walking along the streets when it turned 12. i can't rmb the last time i counted down with a group of ppl.. we always miss it!! ahaha. i had just pressed the traffic lights... and xinyu, sheryl and jeanne were screaming hapy new year.. so we laughed ard and hugged and kissed.. and crossed the road when the little guy turned green. and we SCREEEEEEAAAAAMMMMEEEDDDD!!!!!!!!!! aha. that's always my favourite part, the screaming. i love you xinyu n sheryl. always and forever, whichever is longer yea? -hug-

went down to zouk to say hi to kenneth..
met my favourite grp of ppl!! MANDY N STEF N YANJUN N DARYL N KHAYWEE!!!!!!! leonard dearest was at warehouse.. haha.
have i mentioned i love these guys?? I LOVE THEM!!!! hahahhaahahaa... it's been 2 years and counting dearies!!!
(notice pk is MIA? =>)

who else did i see at zouk... hmmm. noone.
but my skirt flew. like, REALLY flew. blah.
and so it was a real quick peek-a-boo for my purple undies.
est!!! where were u?? i had on PURPLE undies!!!
hahahahahha.

i think andy called me. when i was ouside zouk. yes.. i think he did. hahahaa... i cant rmb! =x

then it was back to warehouse. omigosh!!! i saw cindyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
she's sooooooooooooooooo cute!!!! i reallyreallyreally miss that girl. haha.
rmb to tell the callers that u're the supervisor k!! haha.

and... erm... watching sheryl dance. getting jealous cos sheryl got a new jacket. haha..
and the bartenders were interesting! => and xinyu disappeared for secret rendezvous!!!! blah. and jeanne dancing with... erm.. i donno who. hahahaha. oopx. did i say lotsa stuff i wasnt supposed to? haha. nvm. at least i kept the sordid details to myself. lalalalaaa...

oh yes! how can i forget my tomato. Mr HE NG who turned into a tomato! hahahaa.
the hotel toilet was sooo much better than what warehouse had to offer man..thanx for the tip! haha. and he sofas were so comfy i cld have fallen aslp!!

then it was off to prata place at sgoon.. cabbed there with leo n angelina n daryl.. then met khaywee there.. n we all had prata!!! met stef n ryan(did i get the spelling right?) n frenz there too.. n JOEL!!!! hey jo!!! ur mohawk flopped! haha. butt still cool waaaaay cool!! =>

ok. at this point of time, i have to apologise to leo n khaywee n angelina n daryl. i'm so sorry i kept laughing and laughing and laughing and laughing and..........
heh. i think i was high. yea. lack of slp u see.. ahaha.
and dearest khaywee, thankiew soooo much for cutting up my prata for me => (yes, i was too lazy to even cut up my own prata.) u'll make a great dad!! much beter than leo!! hahahaa. bu leo's nice too. he opened my drink n poured it out for me.
*sigh* what wld i do without my friends? =>
and nicenice khaywee lent me cabfare home too!! as well as walk some of the distance with me, puttin up with my lameass jokes.

then, my next stop was to drag someone out to coninue laughing with meeee!!! hahaha. so we went down to ponggol end to watch the sunrise. sad thing was, we din know which way it was supposed to come out from. so we sat there staring at the water till we realised i was coming out from behind us. wahahaha. oh. then we were trying to look at the horizon (trying but not succeeding cos there were way too many ships and stuff out there blockin the view.).. and... my someone went "hey! can u see? it's raining over there", pointing towards the sea. so we stared at the magnificent sight. till suddenly. FUCK! the rain reached us!! hahahaha. seriously super crap! picked up our stuff and started walking. (there's no point in running.. shelter too far away) walking in a seriously heavy downpour. naturally, we got all wet. flyaway skirt cldnt fly anymore.. so we freezed on the bus.

so that's how i spent my first dawn of the new year: getting a shower of blessing.
i like to think that it signifies a good year.
with warmth and happiness.
and of cos, my dearest friends.

Hello 2005, how do you do =>

First person you kissed: sheryl

First person you hugged : sheryl

First song you listened to : erm.. i reallyreally can rmb. haha. i din notice i guess..

First TV show/movie you watched : white chick =>

First food you ate : one cheese n one egg prata(kindly cut up for me by khay wee).

First drink you drank: vodka sprite..

First new friend you made: Angelina and Daryl => had prata together with leo n khaywee

Other Questions:

What were you wearing? black spag n nice flyaway skirt.

Where were you? on the stroke of midight, me xinyu, sheryl n jeanne were in the middle of the road!! hahaha

Who were you with? lots n lots of friends!!!

What do you hope for the new year? i just want to be happy. and for my friends to be happy =>

Do you have a new years resolution? nope. haha.

Do you think you will stick to it? if i had one, i still wldnt.

Do you think 2005 will be better than 2004? hmmm. yes. 2004 was mostly heartache. no good!

What is your biggest fear for 2005? -shrug- results..?

Did you party hard? nah... bad crowd..

Did you get drunk/high? YESYESYES!!! i got high n crappy n laughed n laughed. n i made someone meet me at 5.30am to listen to lame jokes! hahahahhaa.

Describe the atmosphere when the clock hit 12am: my dearie wishing me happy new yr n my siblings screaming 'happy new yr' - noisy

What was the best moment of the day? getting drenched. =>

Do you have a new years tradition? yea. i gotta kiss n hug my favourite girlfriends!!!