SOS- empty
zouk- $38
china black- $45

ended up at indochine. sex on the beach and a slow comfortable screw, with a kiss.
was eating practically the whole night.. burger king, then indochine, then swensens.
oh. then there was the foam attack.. i din know wheher to laugh or cry..
but tears came out anyway.. and then i laughed..

somehow christmas somehow summed up my whole year.
people who came along for the ride at the start, then dropped off half way, leaving the atmosphere somewhat.... quieter...
people who stepped in, changed my life, then left. but their presence is still felt. will always be felt.
people who drop a surprise attack.. then disappear, but yet keep coming back at intervals, leaving me at a loss as to what to do, and how to react.

i no longer want to remain the safety net. i want to be the one scaling the walls with you. and i don't want to settle for second place. i don't want to share. i don't want to hurt. i don't want to cry.

the truth hurts.. as always. cuts deep.. knowing that what you thought was all a facade, and the truth is that you were, to a certain extent, being used.

no longer in my corner, i am stepping out.. slowly.. but surely..
afterall, i just want to be happy.
and i just want you to have your peace.. to have your own share of happiness too.
there is always a listening ear here if you need it tho.

but only a listening ear. cos that's all that's left.
the rest you have burnt and destroyed. so there's nth left.
an empy soul perhaps, but always a listening ear.






Merry Christmas everyone. =>